"So, you think that I forced your feelings?" asked Charlos.
"Not my feelings, Charl, but yours!"
Charlos was surprised by Reva's statement. His brow furrowed, and his gaze deepened. "The person I love is right in front of me now."
"No, Charlos."
"Why not?"
"Charlos William. There will be a lot of trouble ahead of us that we have to go through if you think like that. I don't want you to get in trouble, Charl. It's not that I don't care about your feelings, but we're both adults, Charl. You should think about everything."
"I'm sorry Reva, but I really do love you. I love you, Rev."
Charlos and Reva were silent for a moment. Then, Charlos gulped. He almost lost his guts in the strange tension. They stared at each other for quite a while. A few seconds later, Reva pulled Charlos and kissed him.
Charlos and Reva kissed each other while pouring out all the desires that were in their hearts. It had cured every longing that had poisoned them. And, the kiss made them like a drug that they became addicted to every time they drank it.
Charlos wanted to break the kiss, but Reva was very passionate. Charlos was surprised how they were going so deep in the storm of passion.
Charlos didn't want to think about anything other than Reva in front of him. Reva opened Charlos's mouth and played with his tongue. It made Charlos moan with pleasure.
He held Reva's chest, feeling how Reva's heart was beating very fast, just like him. Reva's hand slipped into Charlos's neck. They move together like the rhythm of beautiful jazz music.
Suddenly, there was a knock on the door. Charlos and Reva gasped, then stopped kissing. Reva smiled. Anyway, Reva's forehead looked sweaty.
Reva wore a leather jacket that they bought at the factory outlet on Riau Street at that time. Then, Reva took the saxophone that was lying on the table.
So, Reva opened the door. The guard reminded Reva that soon it was time for the show.
"See you later, Charl," Reva smiled again, tossing the hair back.
"Bye! Good luck, Rev!"
Semeru Garuda Indonesia Hall was very crowded that night. All jazz fans are waiting for Reva's performance. They loudly clapped when Reva entered the stage.
Reva plays the saxophone very beautifully. First of all, Reva performed solo for several songs accompanied by drums and guitar. Then Reva also performed with a jazz orchestra.
Charlos sat in the middle of the jazz fans, enjoying only one sound among all the noise; Reva's saxophone.
Two hours have passed. Many people gave Reva a bouquet, and some asked for autographs and group photos. Charlos was very tired, but he was too excited for Reva's performance tonight.
After Reva's performance was over, Charlos entered Reva's room, and they immediately embraced. Reva kissed his lips once in front of the guard, who immediately turned his face away. Then, the guard left them alone.
Reva threw some bouquets from the fans to the corner of the room.
"Do you mean to ignore it all?" Charlos looked at the bouquet lying on the floor as if they were worthless.
"I don't want you to be jealous. My only fan is you, Charl." Reva's voice was soft.
Charlos smiled and said, "You really are amazing. I don't know what to say to describe how great you looked just now."
"Thank you, Charl." Reva retook the saxophone. "If I was playing the saxophone for everyone, for now, I'll be playing for you alone."
Reva winked with a sweet smile, then started blowing the saxophone. Reva played the famous song by Marina Sherley, which adapted into beautiful jazz music.
"I will give everything just for you. We're gonna enjoy tonight, just the two of us with you. I will give up my life to feel your body beside me because I can't live without you. I will give everything just for you. My love, you are mine forever."
Charlos knew the lyrics to the song. It felt like Reva was speaking the heart through the music just for him.
Reva ended the song with a warm kiss. Charlos felt doubtful and confused. Is what he and Reva did right or not? He was enjoying the night so much, but he was also worried. Will this love continue, or will he lose Reva forever?
***
That night, Charlos stays in a hotel room with Reva. Charlos was changing clothes, and then Reva hugged him from behind.
"I want us to be like this every day. Me and you, together forever. Don't leave me, Charl," Reva said as if they were going to separate.
Charlos turned and hugged Reva from the front. "I won't leave you Rev. I want to take you somewhere. How about we go to Bali? We'll have fun there."
Reva kissed him again. "Really?" Charlos nodded.
Charlos took off his shirt then pulled off Reva's shirt. They brought their lips together again. Reva sighed when Charlos kissed Reva's long neck. Charlos's hand came down to touch Reva's chest and squeezed it gently. Reva's chest felt hot and sweaty. Charlos also felt very hot.
Reva's body pressed harder against Charlos' chest. And then, Reva kissed the cheek then down to Charlos neck. Well, Reva's long fingers traced the curve of the six-pack on Charlos's stomach. Charlos's other hand squeezed Reva's curls.
Then they looked at each other.
"I love you, Charlos."
Charlos looked at Reva's red lips, and then he touched them gently. "I love you too, Rev."
Charlos kissed it slowly, but Reva was getting hotter. Reva continued to press Charlos' body, so they both fell on the bed with Reva on top.
Reva smiled while stroking Charlos's hair. Then Reva hugged Charlos's face.
"You are mine. Forever mine."
"Of course, Rev. I'm yours." Charlos smiled back.
That night they made love passionately. Charlos will never forget tonight because this is his first experience making love with Reva.
***
Reva rolled to the side with a sigh. "I'm so sleepy, Charl," said Reva in a hoarse voice, closing her eyes.
"Let's sleep. I'm sleepy too."
"Goodnight, Dear."
Charlos was silent, waiting. His heart was still racing fast when he looked Reva lay beside him, still shirtless. He looked up and saw Reva's sharp nose. Reva's eyes are closed looks so natural. He turned his body to Reva then kissed Reva's forehead quickly.
"Good night."
Reva smiled sweetly. Charlos's eyes were sticky now. He fell asleep, and Reva lay beside him, hugging him.