I wrapped my arms around his lean waist. A portion of his neck down to his collarbone was wet with my tears. I buried my face in the crook of his neck and sighed, taking in his breezy fragrance.
"It's okay Ryu" I mumbled. "I'm not mad. Sorry for crying on you"
He chuckled and the rich sound vibrated into my body. "Don't worry about it"
It felt so warm and safe in his arms that I didn't want to leave. The way we were hugging was akin to a couple's but I didn't care. No one could see us anyway. "Ryu?" I whispered.
"Hmm?"
"I-I want... I... c-can you..."
Fuck. I couldn't put the sentence together. What the hell do I even want to ask?
"Can I what?" he asked softly, pulling me away a bit so he could look at me. It was a wrong decision because my question hung in my throat when he set those gorgeous eyes on me.
I wanted to look away but I couldn't. "I-I want... I w-want to..."
His eyes softened. They held so much care and patience. "Say it Aito. If you can't say it then do what you want. Whatever you want"
My heart started pounding again. I should do whatever I want. I want to do so many things. Does he mean I can do them all if I want? I had to decide soon. It was either I do it or walk away.
If I walk away though, I'll be subjected to daydreaming, more days of chastity, thinking and questioning my myself, cold showers and sleepless nights. I didn't want to experience them again.
If I stayed... damn. There are so many possibilities if I stay. I gradually became excited. This might be the only chance I have. Besides, he was permitting me.7
Summoning all my courage into my racing heart, I wormed a hand into his slightly wet locks, stood on my tip toes then pressed my lips to his. I guess that was the only thing he needed. For me to make the first move because he didn't waste a single second.
He pushed his tongue inside. Tears sprang to my eyes as I felt him kissing me hard, diving his tongue deep inside my mouth, like he was trying to swallow me. It was rough and so intense.
My heart was beating faster than a jackhammer and I found myself moaning. I looped my other arm around his neck, meshing our bodies together. He tasted like mint and lemons. Refreshing and sweet.
He sucked on my tongue, swiped every possible surface in my mouth. He kissed me until I started to feel lightheaded. Like I was going to pass out. Then finally, he pulled away, a thin string of saliva following. We were both breathing hard, chest rising and falling.
"Look at you" he breathed. "Eyes dazed, skin flushed. Lips plump and red. You look so beautiful this way"
I went redder than a tomato. I bet I just look horny.
"We should go inside" he suggested. "And when we do, know that I'm not letting you go. I won't let you run away from me like you did last time either"
"I won't" I assured him. I just wanted to continue kissing him. That one wasn't enough. It wasn't enough at all.
I followed him inside. He locked the door then we made our way to his bedroom. It looked exactly the same way it did before. "Is no one home?" I asked, wanting to make sure because I didn't want anyone walking in on us.
"Yep" he said, closing the door to his room. "Mum isn't gonna come back till 9am tomorrow. She's a nurse and she's working the night shift this week"
"What about your dad?"
He removed the towel and flung it somewhere on the floor then walked towards me. His arms went around my waist. He picked me up and I gasped in surprise. He placed me on the bed then climbed above me, both hands on either sides of my head.
"Dad left when I was 9. No more questions" he answered then kissed me. I sighed in relief. God I've been wanting this for a long time. It's finally happening and I don't feel a bit repulsed. I parted my lips and let his tongue slip in. This time, we battled. Our tongues danced around each other, coiling and sucking. It felt different. To be kissed by a man. It was exquisite.
I moaned, reaching out to touch his bare smooth skin but he caught both my hands and pinned them above my head.
"You'll get your turn" he murmured against my mouth, nibbling on the lower lip.
He took his sweet time playing with it. Sucking and nibbling till it started to feel sore but I loved every single tug. Every single pull. I couldn't stop the moans that continuously spilled out of my mouth and into his. He kissed like there was no tomorrow. Until my head started to swim. God he's such a good kisser. I might never kiss anyone again after this.
I was already hard and leaking. I could feel my erection straining against my jeans. It was uncomfortable and I wanted to adjust it but I ended up poking Ryu’s thigh. It got his attention right away.
He chuckled, digging one hand between our bodies to palm my dick. "You missed me didn't you?"
I moaned in return, thrusting my hips into his hand to get more friction. I felt his tongue slide over the rim of my ear then he sucked in my earlobe.
Fuck.
I realized my ears were sensitive because a wave of pleasure crashed over me and I had to bite my lip to stop myself crying out. Him rubbing me down there didn't make it any easier. His legs were pressing against my own so I couldn't even move an inch. He was completely in control and I didn't mind one bit.
"S-Stop" I whispered. I was shaking. My body felt all tingly and I could hear my heart beating erratically.
"Is that really what you want Aito-kun?" he teased. "You body is saying something else."
I shook my head. "D-Don't stop"