"Pssst" Sakura whispered to me. "Hey, are you okay?"
I nodded.
"But you don't look good. Your face is red and you're sweating. Are you sure you're okay?"
"Yes Sakura! I'm fine!" I harshly whispered just so she could shut up.
"Okay okay jeez. You've been in a bad mood since yesterday" she said. "If you want to talk, know that we're here for you"
I nodded dismissively. Haruto sent me a text saying we needed to talk. I groaned. It must be about saving Dai’s ass yesterday. Fuck. Another mood spoiler. We agreed to meet at the abandoned building during lunch.
The abandoned building is located behind the school. It was the old school building that had caught on fire even before I was even born. It was never renovated. Instead, they built another one. All the bad kids went there to smoke, drink and do whatever kids their age shouldn't do.
Haruto and I went there to discuss our plans during school. If we couldn't, we meet at my place. Dai’s case was serious and I knew he wouldn't let it go just like that.
Most of the classes weren't empty. I could hear people laughing in some and others moaning so I went to the toilet. There was just one person.
Shit.
Dai was standing by a mirror, putting on red lipstick. He froze in the action when he saw me standing by the door.
"Get out" I spat. My first thought was to punch his stupid face but then, I thought of Ryu and how disappointed he would be. To refrain from hurting Dai, I decided to scare him.
I'm supposed to be hurting him for what he did to Aera but with Ryu in the way, it was hard to do. The fucker should be glad I like Ryu. If not, he'd be in big trouble.
Dai didn't need to be told twice. He packed up his things and ran out the door like his tail was on fire.
I took over the spot and sent Haruto a text stating my location. The sink looked somewhat clean and the mirror was clear. I guess Dai cleaned it. I took out a bar of chocolate from my pocket, leaning against the edge of the sink but before I could open it, the door swung open and Dai came back.
"Goddamn it! Do you have a death wish!" I shouted.
He tensed. His eyes went wide with fear and his bottom lip was quivering. "I-I W-Well, I-I w-"
"Oh for fucks sake speak or get the fuck out!" I yelled. I really wasn't in the mood. I needed to sort out my thoughts before Haruto gets here and Dai was taking my time, making me angrier.
"T-Thank you" Dai blurted. I was stunned. "What?"
Dai looked more confident. "Thank you. I was bawling my eyes out when I received a text from Ryu saying that you stopped your friends from uploading the video. Thank you"
"You should thank him. Not me" I stated. Keep feeling grateful for nothing. I'm still going to destroy you. "I only helped you because he asked. I don't give a shit about you Dai"
"Still, you did something" Dai insisted. "You could have refused to help me even if he asked but you didn't so... thank you again"
With that, Dai scurried out of the bathroom. I took a big bite of my chocolate bar, only one thing stirring over and over in my mind.
Dai had Ryu’s number.
Why him? Of all people in the school that Ryu could befriend, why him? It angered me to no end.
Haruto walked in few minutes later and he was pissed. "What the hell was that yesterday Aito? We had Dai in the palm of our hands! We could have crossed him off the list but you let him go! What the hell was wrong with you?!"
I sighed, not knowing what to say. I couldn't just tell him that Ryu asked me to help Dai. If I did, he'd ask why I didn't refuse, and then I'd say, because I like him and I want him to like me, thus, revealing my whatervership with Ryu. Now way. I can't risk it.
That would be the end of me. I have no idea how Haruto would react and if it gets out that I did sexual stuff with a guy, my life would be over.
"Answer me Aito" Haruto demanded. "Do you not want to avenge Aera? Do you not care about her anymore?"
Hearing her name made me snap. "No cares for her as much as I do!"
"Then why did you delete the video?"
"Because..." I sighed again.
Because I want Ryu to like me.
I couldn't say it so I resorted to the pity card. "Damn it I don't know okay! These days I've been frustrated and I hardly sleep. Miss Park's case took a toll on me Haruto. I couldn't deal with l Dai right away. My emotions are unstable. One minute I'm okay and the next I'm not"
It's true that I've been frustrated though. But not because of Miss Park.
Haruto’s gaze softened as he realized what I was trying to say. "Are you taking your medicines?"
"Of course but you know they have side effects. Dr Sarias changed them a while ago. I've not gotten used to these ones yet". Damn all these lies. I'm sorry Haruto. I can't tell you the truth. I can't tell you that I like a guy. I'm sorry for not taking the stupid drugs too but I'm okay.
"I'm sorry for yelling at you man" he apologized and gave me a pat on the back. "You should have said something earlier. I'll understand. What are best friends for?"
I smiled. "You're right. I'm sorry too"
I gazed at Haruto. Tall with a mop of curly brown hair. Chocolate coloured eyes, handsome with cute squirrel like cheeks. I felt no desire at all. Nothing. To me, he looked like the plain Haruto I've always known.
I guess, I'm not really gay.
"It's alright. Let's focus on Sara now. We can screw Dai later" he said then snatched my chocolate bar and ran.
I laughed as I chased after him, shouting; "If you eat that Haruto, I'll spit in your lunch!"