Of course I did. It was the same for me and Aera. "I do but not in our case. You said mean things to me and we didn't even know each other. I thought you hated me"
He shook his head, stuffing a piece of chicken between my lips which I took into my mouth. "I actually liked you a lot that first time. You looked so cool and handsome walking in with that sexy smile on your face".
I couldn't help but blush.
"Then you got Yua sent out of class. You knew Miss Park had a thing for you and you took advantage of it. It was pretty shitty of you and then you exposed that girl's secret. I can't remember her name. I thought you were a rotten rich kid who bullies others for his own amusement. Besides, people kept telling me about how you slept around a lot. I started to dislike you but still... I was attracted to you. It was when I kissed you in that bathroom that I knew I was doomed"
"Doomed?" I asked, confused.
"Yes. I thought I had fallen for an insensitive jerk"
I frowned. "And now?"
"Oh you're still a jerk" he chuckled and I slapped his arm. "But... after you helped Dai, I realized that your humanity wasn't completely gone. There's something about you Aito. You're different from your asshole friends. I can't point it out. I just... I like you a fucking lot"
My cheeks warmed after hearing those words again. Ryu telling me he likes me just hits differently. "I like you a lot too" I mumbled shyly but he heard me because his eyes went soft and tender which had my heart melting.
My poor poor heart.
"And you? When did you realize you like me?" he asked.
It actually wasn't tough. The night Ryu saved me when I fell unconscious in the rain, a spot for him was already reserved in my heart. I just didn't realise it. Slowly, thoughts of him consumed me.
"When you saved me the night I passed out in the rain and then kissed me in your room"
I could still remember how soft his lips were and how gentle he was that night.
He smirked. "I thought you didn't like my kisses"
I huffed. "Yeah yeah whatever give me more chicken"
And he did. He stuffed me full with food. We talked about everything and anything. Ryu loves dogs. He said his first one died when he was eight. He cried so much and never got another one after because he thought he couldn't take it if it died too. The feeling I had at that moment was bittersweet. Ryu might be tough but he was such a softie inside. This is my boyfriend. All mine.
He also hates pepper with every fiber of his being. Spicy food was a no go. I knew because he bought spicy fish rolls and drank two bottles of water due to the pepper. I laughed so much my stomach hurt.
His whole face turned red and tears poured out of his eyes non stop. He looked puffy totally cute too but the sight of someone as tough as Ryu, crying because of pepper was hilarious.
I learnt that he wanted to be a businessman. He said he would study accounting after high school and I had no doubt that he would succeed because he's super smart.
"What about you?" he asked me.
I put a hand under my chin, pretending to think. "Hmmm, I've always wanted to be a porn star"
He choked on his saliva and I burst out laughing.
"Fucking hell Aito!"
"Sorry sorry. I just couldn't help it" I said through bouts of laughter. "But still, don't you think I'll make a super sexy porn star?" I even stood up and struck a pose then winked.
Ryu immediately frowned. He stood up and stalked towards me, eyes gleaming like that of a freocious tiger. My heart started to pound as I felt like he had taken this thing seriously and I was in huge trouble.
While I was thinking of what to do or say, he wrapped an arm arpund my waist and pulled me against his chest. "The only person you'll ever fuck is me" he growled.
Whoa. That escalated pretty quickly. What made me freeze was the serious look on his face. The playfulness in the atmosphere fizzled out and I suddenly felt bad.
"Ryu... I was just kidding" I said calmly.
"Fuck" he cursed as realization dawned on him. "Come here". He dragged me back to my seat and made me sit down. I started to feel anxious. He should have known that I was joking. Of course I'd never be a porn star.
"Ryu..."
"Why did you have to say shit like that Aito?" he asked me. "Even as a joke"
I suddenly didn't know what to say.
"Thinking of it makes me mad. Do you have any idea what it's like to picture another man between your legs? I-I- fuck!"
I stared dumbfounded. I kinda understood what he meant though. I could never imagine doing everything I did with Ryu with someone else.
"I'm sorry" I said to him. "I didn't mean to make you mad. It really was a joke. I can't imagine being with anyone but you"
Ryu refused to look at me so I tugged in the sleeve of his uniform but he snatched his hand away. I sighed then stood up and cupped both his cheeks making him face me. I then spoke as I stared into his smoldering dark eyes.
"It's only you I like Ryu. No one else. You're the first man I've kissed. The first man I've done anything sexual with. I don't want anybody else" I pecked him on the lips to further prove my point. "No one else"
He searched my face for any signs of deception and when he saw that there was none, he kissed me back. Sweet and slow. As if he was savoring the taste of me. Every lick and nip tugged on the strings of my heart.
"I'm your first" he murmured against my lips. "And I sure as hell will be your last"