One of them said to start with the littlest thing like a finger. You don't have to go all the way the first time. It also depends on if you have a patient partner.
Ryu told me he'd wait for me no matter what but with our decision to speed things up with avenging Aera, I couldn't afford to go slow.
I took off my clothes then lay on my back with my knees bent and legs spread, exposing my dick and butt hole. I pulled up a mental image of Ryu as I fisted my dick, slowly rubbing myself.
Fuck.
I started to think of the first time Ryu touched me. We were in the bathroom due to that stupid dare. He had me trapped between the sink and his body. It was so hot. I could remember being angry and attracted to him at the same time. He's so handsome. My very own boyfriend.
He had my hands pinned behind my back, a knee between my legs to keep them apart. Just the thought of it had my heart racing. I remember him shoving his hand down my pants, cupping my dick with those long warm fingers. Oh fuck. The skin of his palm was rough and the feeling of it against the skin of my member felt incredible.
My dick stood at attention now. I continued to slowly stroke myself from root to tip, fondling my balls and gently squeezing and tugging, just the way Ryu did.
I closed my eyes as I imagined his lips on mine. Demanding, fierce as always. Taking his pleasure from me, kissing me like the world was about to end.
I moaned out his name as I imagined him pushing his tongue into my mouth, swiping every inch of me as he continued to pump me. Pre cum oozed out of me and I spread it to aid my movements. Fuck. I'm always hard and leaking when it comes to Ryu. I continued to writhe and moan on the bed, jerking myself off to his mental images and thoughts of him kissing me, touching me. I remembered when he took my whole dick into his mouth holy shit!
Cum kept dribbling out of me. I led some down the line between my ass to the tiny hole there then smeared it around the rim. I took a deep breath then tried to push my finger in and fuck! It burned! I scooped more cum there, massaging it so it would loosen a bit but it wouldn't. In fact, I just kept clenching so my finger wouldn't go in at all and damn it hurt. My dick went limp because of the pain.
Damn I was scared. Too scared.
Would I even be able to do this?
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There was huge ruckus at school the next day. Sara's videos were out and it was all everyone could talk about.
They were everywhere. Instagram, Snapchat, WhatsApp, Twitter, Facebook and even the school's website. The horrified look on Sara's face was absolutely satisfying but at the same time, I felt a sense of guilt and it angered me. Why should I feel guilty? Why should I even care? She deserved it.
"Poor Sara" Ryu had said when we met up in the school library before classes. "Whoever did it is a psycho. I hope he or she gets caught soon"
I felt sick instantly. So sick that even his touch repulsed me. I had to feign a headache and told him we'll meet up later.
He was right. I am a psycho.
But they're even worse. What they did to her was worse. They took her life away from her. They took her away from me. She had so many dreams. So many things she wanted to do. Why were they so cruel?
Well, it didn't matter now. They will suffer as she suffered. Every fucking one of them!
We were having lunch when Toshiro brought up the topic. I already knew he would be the first to mention it. In fact, I'm sure he saved them in his phone to use for his sick fantasies. We'll expose him for the sick fucker he is soon.
Ugh Let's change topic please" I said to them. I was already getting fed up of hearing about her body.
They talked to the point that it was already disgusted. Besides, I was already irritated with what Ryu said.
"I agree" Haruto groaned.
Instead of doing as I said, Toshiro burst out laughing. "Dude I can't believe you banged her. You better get yourself checked. She must have banged lots of guys at that club and you don't need me to tell you what that means"
I rolled my eyes. "I'm fine". The doctor had emailed me the results and I was completely fine.
"What did you see in that slut anyway?" Yua asked. "I thought you knew better. Weren't you the one who kept calling her a slut and bitch?"
Rose agreed. "Yes Aito-kun. Everyone, including you, knows that she's a walking STD"
Okay that's it!
"For fucks sake just stop!" I snapped. "What's the use of talking about this?! What do you gain?! For fucks sake we're not kids anymore! We all have our dirty secrets! People would talk about us like this if we were exposed too. Put yourself in her shoes before you start talking about her like that. It's not like you're any better!"
They all looked shocked at my sudden outburst. Haruto gave me a warning look, telling me to be careful before they suspect something. Well fuck him.
I cursed, packed up my bag pack and stormed out of the cafeteria.
Fuck! I hate this! I hate them! All of them! I hate myself and what I've become! All because of them!
They dare talk about her like that when they weren't any different. Talking as if they're the epitome of innocence. As if they are the rulers of the world. Such fucking hypocrites! I was now itching to expose them. To see the look on their faces when the world gets to know about their shady business. What their parents would say. How the society would treat them. I'll see if they have anything left to say about anyone else.