I groaned inwardly as I realized the answer was yes. I wanted to know what he feels like. What he tastes like.
Toshiro rushed back, waving his phone in his hand. He looked so excited. "Guys guys! You won't believe what I just saw!"
I peeked up. Maybe he got dirt on someone I hate. "What?" I asked.
He sat down then beckoned us to lean in which he did. Then he whispered, "I saw Dai in the bathroom, on his knees, sucking dick and I got it video"
He looked so happy, waving his phone about as he wiggled his brows.
We gasped. Knowing Toshiro, that video would be all over the school by tomorrow.
"How did you do it without them finding out?" I asked. And how stupid is Dai? Doing something like that in a public bathroom.
"I'm a pro in this Aito. That's how I made my name" Toshiro said proudly, making us roll our eyes.
"As if gossip lord is something to be proud about" I muttered to myself then went on munching more of my chicken.
"There he is" Haruto said, gesturing towards the toilet entrance. We watched as Dai walked out, wearing a stupid smile on his stupid face. Few minutes later, an older looking guy came out. He seemed like someone in his late thirties. Toshiro was busy recording everything.
"Think we should ruin their date?" Sakura asked. "I want to see the look on his face when we tell him we know what he did"
"Yes Yes Yes" Toshiro said excitedly.
"Let's use the video to blackmail him" "Wait. What if that man is someone we shouldn't mess with?" Yua asked.
Toshiro rolled his eyes. "Ugh you're too damn cautious Yua. We don't need to fear anyone. We've got our bro Aito and he's got our backs. We're basically invincible right bro?"
He looked at me expectantly and I smiled. "Of course"
He turned to Yua. "See? Now let's go and ruin their gay date"
Toshiro basically convinced them and they went to make trouble for Dai. I, however, was not in the mood.
My mind trickled back to Sara and Ryu. Sara is a girl who spreads her legs for any hot guy while Ryu is actually a decent guy. They weren't a match at all. Maybe I'll have to warn him. Sara is not good for him at all. If he doesn't believe me, I'll just have to expose her. That way, Ryu would lose interest.
After a few seconds of peaceful eating, a commotion began at Dai’s table. I didn't need to look to know my friends started it.
I felt my bladder protesting so I made my way to the toilet. I didn't even glance at my friends who were giving Dai and his older boyfriend a hard time. I went in and relieved myself. I was drying my hands when Ryu walked inside and from the cold glint in his eyes, I knew he was mad.
"Go stop your friends" he said to me.
I frowned. "Why? That's their business"
"They're hurting him and they're gonna put his video online. They're gonna ruin his life! Doesn't that mean anything to you?" Ryu asked.
"It doesn't actually" I answered with a shrug. In fact, I wanted it to happen. "He ruined his own life by being gay. He's just getting what he deserves"
Ryu shook his head. "I'm disappointed in you Aito. Why are you still doing this?"
"You keep talking as if I'm the only one. You don't see me out there bullying him do you?"
"But you're not helping either!"
"And why should I help a fag like him?!" I shouted, rendering Ryu speechless. "Huh? Why? He's not a man. He's a fucking wimp and he's reaping the fucking consequences. He deserves every bit of it! Every fucking goddamn bit!"
He took a few steps back, letting out a bitter laugh. His cold eyes swept over me, making me shiver and I've never felt so much anger from him before. He was livid.
I noticed the twitching of Ryu’s perfect brows. The way he kept clenching and unclenching his fists. Was he trying to contain his anger?
"Ruin his own life by being gay? A fucking wimp?" Ryu repeated what I said. His voice was deadly calm and that scared me even more. "What's that even supposed to mean? He is who he is. Why do you hate him for it? He's even better than you in many ways. At least he has the courage to be who he wants to be. To do what he wants to do and you? In my opinion, you're the fucking wimp. I've seen the way you look at me. I notice when you avoid me in the hallways at school. I saw when you were looking at me and Sara. You want something but you can't man up and go for it. You can't admit that I kissed you and you liked it. You don't have the fucking guts to do anything. Before you go around insulting people and pointing out their flaws, you should first think about yours"
I stood there, dumbfounded.
He turned to leave but then paused at the door. "You should help him. Your homophobia shouldn't be stronger than your compassion as a person because no matter what..." He gave me one last chilling glance. "...he's also human"
And with that, he left.
I'm the wimp? A fucking coward?
Ryu is right. Dai is living his life. He wears his tight clothes, paints his nails, wears makeup, sucks older guys in public bathrooms and I? I couldn't even gather the courage to touch the one person I want. I don't have the guts to kiss him even though I long for it. I'm so fucking stupid.
By the time I left the bathroom, Ryu and Sara had already gone.
My friends, Dai, and his date weren't in the restaurant too. I guess they got kicked out for whatever they were doing. I was glad I didn't join though. I didn't want to be banned from the restaurant. It was one the best places that served the best food.
I settled the bill then walked out to see my friends surrounding my Jeep. "Yo Aito, come see the video I shot of Dai!" Toshiro shouted excitedly.
I went over and collected Toshiro phone. I didn't press play though. Instead, my finger hovered over the delete icon. All that kept swimming in my head was when Dai made Aera cry. He and one of his friends broke into her room and took a couple of them took her underwear. They jizzed on them and hung them around school with her posters. On it was written, "Aera, the cum dumpster'.
We all saw her underwears stained with dried cum hung almost everywhere. She was thoroughly humiliated. How can I help someone like that?
"You should help him. Your homophobia shouldn't be stronger than your compassion as a person because no matter what ...he's also human"
Ryu words echoed in my head and I thought, wasn't Aera also human? Did they show her any compassion? Any mercy? Did they try to understand her pain? Did they sympathize?
No! No! No!
In fact, they paved her way to death. They constructed the goddamned road for her so why should I show any mercy? Why should I help him?!
Still, I found himself doing what I'd never do before. I deleted the video and since Toshiro was an iPhone, I went to 'recently deleted' and removed the video completely from his phone then handed it back.
With a completely straight face, I said to them; "I erased the video. If you have copies, delete them too"
I then entered my car and drove off, leaving them stunned.