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Chapter 29 - Breaking Off

I can't believe they are doing this to me. I haven't even been here 6 months and they already are trying to marry me off? I fight back the tears and anger and betrayal. Not watching where I was going I bump into someone. "You know we really should stop bumping into each-other like this your highness." I freeze. I know that voice. The all to familiar silky,smooth,husky voice. One that always seems to be in my head. "I'm sorry Dex,but I really don't have time for this right now. I need to find Max." Then I push past him without looking up,because I know that once I look up I will see his eyes. And then I will want to tell him everything,I will want to fall apart in front of him and let him hold me. But no matter what I am going through I can never let him know that. I can never show weakness around him or he will only despise me further. I go to Max's room,and then the kitchen,but he isn't in either.

There is only one other place I know to go to find Max. The one place I know he will find me. I soon reach the garden where I finally admitted how I truly felt about my life to Max. The place where I opened my heart to him and got rejected. That memory almost makes me turn back,but I catch a glimpse of his figure and I immediately go to him. Once I reach him I stand perfectly still afraid to breathe. Max is held by a beautiful auburn haired girl,who is smiling seductively at him,her brown eyes piercing. My heart stops in my chest and I can't catch a breath I take a step back and a twig snaps. Max whirls around and spots me. "I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean to intrude." I lamely stutter out and quickly spin away. "Ari! Ariella! Wait! Let me explain!"

I don't stop. I only move faster. Suddenly everything about this entire castle is suffocating. I can't find peace anywhere. His footsteps crash behind me. "Ari,please wait!" I whirl around to tired and hurt to care about holding back my tears anymore. Now they run freely down my warm cheeks. "Why?!" He flinches back from my raised voice. "Why should I wait and watch as your being held in the arms of another women?!" Max shakes his head. "If that's what this is about-" "No! That's not what this is about. It's about the fact that I went to find a place where I could feel at home. Where I could find you. I went to our place. You know the place I opened my heart and admitted everything to you,and we sat gazing at the stars together? I thought that place was our secret. But guess what? I was wrong. It's for any other women you may want to entertain and trick them into admitting how they feel to you and then discard them like trash!" I know my words are harsh,but there are so many emotions running through me right now that I had to let them out. And Max was the only one here to take it.

Now Max snaps. "Do you really think I entertain that many women? Do you really think that of me? I can't believe you. You are supposed to have more faith in me than that. You are supposed to be there for me and here me out before you go making unfair accusations! Besides why should you care where I am or who I'm with when I'm there?! You can be so irrational sometimes,I can be alone with someone without you for awhile. I have my own life!" I only grow angrier.I notice that Dex and Perry have showed up to gawk at the show but I don't care. "Fine! You don't want me to care? You don't want me to care about where you are? Then don't care about where I am,you can have your own life without me in it because I won't be here!" Max's face suddenly falls the anger gone. "What?" "Where were you when I found out that I'm going to be married off to a prince of Plaidin? Where were you when I needed you there to comfort me? When all I wanted was for you to just be there? I looked everywhere for you and the one place I thought could just be ours,I find you with someone else,holding someone else?" Perry is the one who responds. "Wait. Your getting married? When?" I laugh haughtingly. "I don't know! I didn't stay to hear the details. I told them that I wouldn't marry a stranger,that they weren't being parents at all,and basically insulted the integrity of the foreign prince,then ran off. I had to get away. And leave it to me to find my best friend with another women when I needed him most." Max's face is pale. "Ariella. I had no idea." I shake my head in defeat.

All of my anger is gone now. All that's left is emptiness and despair. "No you didn't. None of you did. But you guys no longer have to worry about me. Dex I know you haven't believed in me since the moment i got here,Perry you are an amazing person but you don't have to use me as a distraction from your past anymore you can find someone else,and Max apparently I'm to irrational for you to deal with anymore so, I release you guys of your duties." They all have shock written plainly on their faces. "Princess,please think about this-" Perry pleads. "I have Perry. You guys are using me as a distraction or a reason for a fight and I can't deal with that anymore. I can't do this anymore. Deal with your own problems and stop expecting me to solve them, I don't have the answers to everything. Maybe I should agree to the marriage,then maybe then I wouldn't feel so alone anymore."

Dex is the one who reaches out for me. I almost let him touch me but pull away at the last second. "Please. Don't. I'm afraid that if I get comfort from any of you right now my resolve will break. And I have to do this. I have to find myself and how strong I am without you. So please,until you guys have figured out your own problems without me,just leave me alone." And then I walk away. I leave them standing there with mixed emotions of confusion,anger,and desperation. Walking away from them like that was the hardest thing I have ever done in my life. Once I reach my room and my door is firmly shut behind me do I fully let go. I sink to the floor sobbing. How in the world did this happen? Why does it hurt so much? Once the answer hits me it hurts even more. I fell for three different men. The problem was that,in fact it was three men,and I could never choose between any of them.