I lay in my bed that night unable to sleep. Ian's words keep running through my mind and the pain in his eyes as he recalls his painful past. No matter what I do I am restless. I toss and turn for about another hour then just give up on trying to sleep. I throw my blanket off and put my slippers on,grabbing my robe off ofy bed post. I tie it around my waist as I walk outside my room into the barely lit hallway. I take a left down the hallway and push past the doors to come into the front of the castle.
It's full of all of the tapestries that I first saw when I got here. I stop at the tapestry with the person on a cliff. The one I told myself I would come back to look at. I am studying it so hard that I don't hear him come up behind me."That's the legend of the Savior Goddess." I whip around and throw out my fist. He catches it mid air and smirks. " Nice reflexes princess." I jerk my hand out of his grasp. " I'm not in the mood,Dex. Just leave me alone." He doesn't even bother acting like he heard me. " This tapestry was made over 600 years ago. Back then clues of war were rising but the actual war did not start until much later. However disease,and death ripped out across the world no one was safe from it. Then one day a self proclaimed prophet said that he had a dream. He made this tapestry dipicting that dream. Of a person who would heal the world. At the bottom you can see the ground shifting from black to green. A sign of the world healing. The light shooting from the person's hands are the 7 holy virtues. Faith, Hope,Charity, Fortitude, Justice-". I interrupt him. " Temperance and Prudence.". Dex looks at me sideways. " What? Just because I am new here dosent mean I haven't studied." I might be seeing things but I swear I saw Dex flinch a little bit at my words.
I rub my forehead. " Look Dex. I'm going back to my room. Goodnight." I turn to leave and only get a few steps before a hand wraps around my wrist and stops me. "Wait." I whisper under my breath. "Dex let me go." I don't even bother trying to keep the venom out of my voice. " No. I need you to hear me out.". I huff. " Dex. I don't want to talk to you. Let me go." His grip tightens around my wrist. I fight against him. He spins me around and pins my hands by my sides. " Stop fighting against me." I don't listen. " Dex let me go. I don't want to be around you right now." All of his words come rushing back,the words he said in the forest. "After everything you said to me how could I stand to be around you." Tears start to form but I don't bother wiping them away. "You have no concern for anyone's feelings. You blame everyone for what happened to you 7 years ago. But Dex it's not everyone else's fault. It's yours. You were the one who said those things. And now you let what she said to you be an excuse for you to be rude to anyone who wants to get close to you." Dex has released my arms and is just standing there listening.
" I told you that one day after you kept pushing people would stop trying to be close to you. And Dex I am so tired of trying to do that for you." I wipe away the tears on my cheek. " I'm done trying. You are so afraid of letting someone care about you because you think that everyone will wind up hurting you like she did. Well news flash Dex everyone isn't her. So quit being such a jerk. I'm sure you believe that to love is to have pain but it's not. To love and to be loved is amazing. You feel like you have something to live for." Dex finally speaks. " I haven't felt like that in a long time. I don't let myself feel like that." I pull my robe tighter around myself. " Maybe you should. Maybe then you would stop bringing everyone down with you." " What are you talking about?" I can't believe he's playing dumb. " Don't play dumb Dex. You know you weren't the only one who fell in love with Amelia. Your brothers did to." Dex looks supposed at the news. " Max and Perry both fell for her,but they knew that you fell for her first so they said nothing. But you should have at least as their brother known how they felt. Maybe if you had payed attention to them you would have been able to act rationally when Amelia told you she would never love you. They could have cooled you off. Because like it or not Dex the world dosent just revolve around you. Your brothers cared for her too and you brought them down with you the day you snapped on Amelia." Dex rubs the back of his neck. " When I went to the village with Ian a few weeks ago we stopped in a bakery. There was a family there. Hustas,jolee,Arnold,and Amia." Dex starts at the last name.
" They were talking about an accident that happened 6-7 years ago. Amia had a bad attitude towards me. They were talking about what happened with you and Amelia weren't they? Amia is just a family name for Amelia isn't it?" Dex's face gives me my answer. "I thought so. Ian looked pretty pained when he saw her walk out to. I just didn't say anything." Dex's face goes from pain to a quiet quick anger. " Your calling Oxford by his first name?" I look at him in surprise at the anger in his voice. " Well yes. I do. What's wrong with that?" Dex laughs darkly. " It's not proper." I get angry at having this conversation again. " Oh my Lord Dex. Again? Its not proper? Who the hell do you think you are to tell me what I can call someone!" I spin around and start walking away. Dex grabs my wrist again and spins me around. Before I know what's happening I feel his warm lips press against mine. I'm to shocked go really do anything. At first I just let him kiss me because of the electricity that shoots through my body. But I come back to my senses and push him off. I wipe my lips angrily and rush away from him down the opposite hall. I hear Dex calling my name chasing after me. Tears well up in my eyes as I run. I'm not watching where I am going and bump into something. I look and see feet. More like someone.