Chapter 4 - Lost

𝘠𝘶𝘲𝘪

Last night I couldn't sleep at all. So I decided to take a walk outside which clearly was a very good idea.

I was all alone in the streets. The night air was calm and fresh. It helped me to make myself calm down a bit. It was full moon too. No clouds, full moon and soft breeze— an amazing combination.

It was all good until I heard a 'meow' sound coming from the alley on my right. I started walking towards the source of the sound just to find a little kitten shivering in a small box.I immediately took it out from the box and wrapped my shrug around it's tiny body. My eyes went from the kitten to the box to see if there was anything else. There was a neatly folded pink paper placed in the box; 'Read,' was written there. I took it out from there, unfolded it while the kitten was still in my embrace and started reading. (Thankfully there were streetlights)

𝘋𝘦𝘢𝘳 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘰𝘯𝘦,

𝘏𝘪, 𝘐'𝘮 𝘊𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘺 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐'𝘮 𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘺𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘭𝘥. 𝘔𝘺 𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘥𝘪𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘬𝘦𝘦𝘱 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘵 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘴𝘦. 𝘉𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘴𝘰 𝘢𝘥𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘺 𝘨𝘢𝘷𝘦 𝘩𝘪𝘮 𝘢 𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦. 𝘏𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘴 𝘈𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰. 𝘗𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘧 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘤𝘵 𝘮𝘦 𝘣𝘺 𝘮𝘺 𝘴𝘪𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳'𝘴 𝘱𝘩𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘯𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳. *********** 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘶𝘮𝘣𝘦𝘳.

𝘉𝘺𝘦♡

Frankly, I found the kitten cute. Also I have never expected an eight years old to be so mature. My lips curved a smile automatically.

At last, I decided to take Astro home with me. He was very cute. I decided to contact Cathy's sister too, just to let her know that she can come whenever she wants to meet Astro.

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I yawned as my sleepy vision found their way to the wall clock to see the time. 7:00 am, huh.

Not too late, I usually wake up at five in the morning. I learned this habit from grandpa. He always used to wake up at five am and would practice taekwondo until I ask/ed him to stop. I wondered if he still does that now.

After taking a bath and changing into my normal clothes, I walked downstairs and there was a pretty sweet scene happening in front of me. Mr. Chen a.k.a Chen Huan was feeding Astro milk from the tiny feeder bottle with a huge smile plastered on his face.

I ran to them with a huge grin which was unexpected from myself.

As soon as Chen Huan saw me, he spoke before I could utter word. "Awww miss Yuqi, he is so cute," he pouted as he spoke.

I tried not to chuckle and patted Astro's ginger colored furry back, "Yes, he is cute indeed."

"What's his name?" Chen Huan asked me with his big doe eyes. Gosh.....why do I have cute creatures in my house?

"Call him Astro."

My bodyguard Chen Huan disguised as my butler Mr. Chen nodded. This man really isn't heartless. On top of that, he is my bodyguard.

Yesterday I told him to tell more about him. This man's life wasn't easy too. His father was an alcoholic and used to abuse his mother. On top of that, he used to get bullied at school for being shy. When he couldn't take it anymore, he told his mom to leave his father. Thankfully his mother did what he asked her to. The mist surprising thing was Huan was only five. One day one of his bullies tried to hurt him physically and he came back home with bruises on his body. Since then he decided to learn how to fight. And I was amazed after hearing that he was a ninth degree black belt! He also told me that one day this guy at his school tried to punch him and Huan immediately grabbed his hand, then put it down back to it's place, just like a movie scene.

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Today was the weekend, so I didn't have to go to school. But my life wasn't easy. I couldn't just chill at home as other normal human beings. I had to go to my doctor for a weekly checkup, every weekend.

It had been two years already since I was running hear and there to have a normal health and a not-so-week heart all by myself. No one knew about my condition. And when my doctor Dr. Alex transferred to America, I decided to move out too.

But the truth was, I lost all my inspiration to live already. I was tired of running to hospitals for checkups. The least I wanted was someone else to die for me. And that exact thing was happening. Everyone was hoping this person to die, except me. I might had a weak heart, but I wasn't totally heartless.

I came back from my ocean of thoughts when I got a call from my Dr. Alex. I quickly picked up the call and heard a very cheerful Dr. Alex as always.

"Hello miss Yuqi! How are you doing?" he asked, being all cheerful.

"Fine I guess."

"Ugh...miss Yuqi! That same bored tone?" I could feel him pouting from the other side of the call.

"Let's cut the call cause I sound bored."

I was about to cut the call, but Dr. Alex instantly spoke, "Calm down miss Yuqi, you'll lead a great life soon. Q-4 is so close to death-"

"Just stop!" I stated, being very annoyed. "How can you expect someone to die?!" I nearly screamed and Huan already ran towards my room.

Ignoring Huan I continued my conversation with Dr. Alex. "You are a doctor, not a murderer who is praying for someone's death! Can't you and your whole team understand this thing?" I scoffed and cut the call.

Squeezing my eyes shut in anger and annoyance, I tried to take deep breaths. My heart was aching again. I out my hand on my chest and Huan immediately gave me a glass of water to drink.

Whatever happens, I would never transplant someone else's heart with mine. I didn't want anyone to die just for the sake of me to live.

"Miss Yuqi, may I....ask you a question?" Huan asked after I calmed down a bit. I nodded as I signaled him to give me another glass of water.

He handed me another glass of water as he began, "Miss Yuqi, I know that you don't want anyone to die just for yourself to be alive. But it's not like they are killing him or something. So why don't you say 'yes' to the heart transplant thing?"

I spoke before he could add more, "I don't have any motivation to live. So I want to die, as soon as possible."

I looked down at the floor while clenching my fists. Huan who was standing in front of me sighed and left the room after getting the hint of me needing some personal space.

I really was lost.