It's been a long time since i saw mother smiling from the bottom of her heart.
i still remember that day , the day i got my grades, they were the highest , i thought she will give me two simple words like congratulation , dont give up , have a nice life you will be proud of.....
But , at that moment , she became crazy , she start crying laughing i didnt understand her feeling she scared me ,also her words affected me and made me think a lot "everything will turn to the best right haruka , dont look at me this way , dont look disgusted or terrified haruka , right , im your mother , HARUKA ARE YOU LISTENING TO ME ,HARUKA !!!!!!!
i zone it out that moment , "everything will turn to the best" can i call it a joke or a lie i dont know but i realized that no one will be my side all this road even him , i dont blame him he is too far , i want to see him so bad ....
" mamaaa , life had just begun"
Many people hated me as much i hate it my self, i was bullied a lot for being studious for being an orphan for having no friends i dont know anyways i didnt care i only focused on my self my studies nothing else but still i was a kid of course it hurted me a lot but i didn't show it in front of them to not look weak or for attention thats why i hold it until i head back home and enter to that darkness covered by that creepy silense made me remember about the cemetery .
the funural day , mother told me to stay at home but i didnt , i followed her to the cemetery with a bunch of people i tried my best to be hiden but i will never forget that feeling the cold wind of that spring day , the cherry blossom of the cemetery bloomed the sad atmosphere ,the beautiful day ,another pure soul gained the after life i wanted to cry but i felt something didn't let me to and was by my side to wipe them if they dropped , i couldn't take it anymore i runned home between the arms of the darkness then i entered to my room ,empty head and sleapt all the day.
Not gonna lie i was a sensitive person but my classmates called me "ice heart" for "having no feelings" , for real i faced many types of bullying like the cursed puppets the death threats and many others but they never tryed to put a hand on me for some reasons, they compared me to a psycho or a serial killer just like in movies ,kids thoughts, for being quiet calm and cool in every situation , im not gonna deny it , if one of them touch me i go crazy.
To look more into it i study in Tokyo, so be sure that most of the students around are bullies , and for that reason our school literally have the worst reputation ever , for the biggest amount of suicide and this case that liturally haunted all of us .
Sawaki senpai ,13 years old , class president , one of the biggest genius i ever met . He got bullied alot for telling the truth found dead with five corpses of his classmates and some old students stabbed in the school gym , the police repport was so mysterious and incomplete , senpai was dead after being rapped also they find out that his body was full of ugly scars and the others were stubbed to death .
i thought that our school will close its doors but still it didnt and every years many new students enter to it without any fear of the rumors.
People come and go , i wanted to be appreate it but strangers with memories hit the most.
TO BE CONTINUD