Kevin Richards was the name that somehow managed to catch my heart ,that encounter with him that day made my heart flutter I don't know for how many reasons there might be . Kevin was someone with most carefree attitude towards Life he never thought of circumstances but somehow be became considerate towards me .
Days passed and it was time for summer holidays we were not going to meet each other for nearly 2 months I made myself busy so that I can clean up my head from everything going around . Even sara was busy she called me very rare it was same for kevin as well , Kevin's behaviour showed drastic change he avoid talking with me , no massege no calls , I myself was dealing with many things . I recieved a call from sara once " Hey , can you please call Kevin and ask him to come online ?" " yeah okay I'll call him and let you know". I felt something but I failed to catch it there was a feeling of loss I knew I should not feel this way . I called Kevin " Kevin , sara wants to talk with you can you please come online?" " I will try I'm not free right now ". I noticed his voice but he was mastered in hiding his emotions . He never showed his emotions untill he thought the time was right .
It was Kevin's birthday I was out of the city and so was him . Sara was acting indifferently she very rarely talked with Kevin as well and Kevin too was ignoring her . I wished him he happily replied I was happy seeing him smile . He usually avoided sara but eventually he avoided talking with me too . But later on he started talking with me as days passed things began to change between us . we were aware it's more than friendship but we were scared to point it out because we never wished to keep our friendship at stake also I needed my best friend , there was something flashing in his eyes but he hided it so well from everyone . He tried keeping everything bottled up .
Once I was reading a book I saw Kevin's name flashing my home screen , " Hey Karen " I heard his cheerful voice " Hello Kevin " . he initiated the conversation about what if someone is not happy in a relationship ? " what if I don't want this what I'm doing ?" I told him do what your heart says , what makes you happy . " I'll support you on whatever you do ". he laughed and said " three lives would be disturbed and many of you will consider me cheap , if I did what my heart wants ". It was something I did not understood at that moment because the Kevin I knew would never hurt anyone intentionally . so this was something unexpected , but I stayed silent because on a point I was getting an idea where this is heading up to . I was too scared to accept it's not that I don't feel anything about him , untill this point in my life I don't want to be with anyone but Kevin . I knew I've fallen for kevin much before than I understood . Asking Kevin would change our lives upside down and we never wished that to happen . I was happy admiring Kevin from a distance but when he clearly showed sadness I was not sure what I was going to do, I said I'll support him but upto what extent it does have limitations because whatever we thought or we felt for each other was never accepted not even our friends would accept it . Days were passing and our bond was getting deeper I thought to stay away from kevin but It was too hard to be practical even for him too he tried but was unsuccessful . He usually kept his emotions upto him.
Our classmate was moving out from the city he was common friend of us both . He asked me one night " You love Kevin, right?" I denied but somewhere it was yes . Kevin did not react negatively on this statement he was fine with whatever he said or asked me . I asked him speaking to sara but he was too calm to tell her anything , " I'll talk to her when I feel like however there's nothing that she should know ". Kevin never told sara anything about it , I too kept it to myself as that was better than causing complications between them and us too .
We talked with each other for hours and that was a daily routine for us . I just hoped everything gets sorted without any complications in the relations around us .
That feeling of belonging which I shared with Kevin never came with anybody else I knew I could never get Kevin for myself but my heart denied it .