It was a true statement Kevin Richards captured my heart I don't know from how long now . I knew Kevin's feelings as well but I was not sure about it atleast not yet when he acted soo mysterious . It was undenied , something was there between us and the picture would be changing soon but who will take the initiative still contained uncertainty. We talked for hours and somehow Kevin knowingly did gave me some signals but I refused to accept them because the Kevin I knew loved sara atleast he portrayed the same I was not understanding where did it got changed . They way he talked about sara , his caring nature , the missing thing each and every moment was messing up in my head I decided talking to someone but I never want to open up anything that would have no logic in the future as I myself was unsure about Kevin's behaviour. I shared it with one of my friend . " Riya I do think there's something wrong with Kevin's behaviour these days ". " why do you think so did he said anything to you ?" " No he did not said anything but I noticed he's too distant with Sara , he's not that Kevin whom sara introduced me too as her boyfriend".
" Is he talking with you yet ?" " Yeah he is and also my instinct says he likes me ". " If he says he loves you , what will be your answer?" I became silent for a moment because if I said yes I'll loose my best friend and if I said no I'll loose my love .
However sara was acting indifferently , she talked with me very rare also I've heard many things sara speaking behind me , but I was not paying any attention to this stuff as I had enough on my plate ." I'll say yes to him because I love him too ". With this everything became cleared to me if Kevin asks me out I'll accept , and it does not asks I'll ask him out because it was enough what we were going through . I heard from sara Kevin was not talking with her from last 4, 5 days she tried calling from her mobile but he never recieved , I called him from my phone he recieved the moment he heard my voice he replied , it caught me off guard . when he heard Sara's voice he said I'm busy right now will talk with you later . Sara was too angry on this thing , somehow I calmed her down and sent her home . Next two days we did not have any contact with Kevin . One day sara and I were sitting in a cafe she was calling Kevin but his phone was off , I tried calling his friend and he recieved he passed on the mobile to Kevin he said his mom took his mobile as he was too diverted from his studies . I told sara she asked "why does he don't want to talk with me ?" I knew the reason but how could I tell her. " He's in college so might be busy it's okay he'll call you ". I consoled her , I thought so that day I went home I tried calling Kevin again but to no avail ,I don't know when did I felt asleep . When I woke up I saw my mobile flooded with Kevin's messages
"Hey Karen I'm sorry my mom took away my phone " " Hope you reached home safely ".
" Look I'm really sorry I'm missing you I've missed talking with you please call me asap".
I was hell happy as well as shocked why did he missed me ? was a big question infront of me and I got the answer for it too . I prepared my self I need to talk with Kevin , but on a second note what if Kevin doesn't feel anything for me , what if I loose my friend ship with him in all this stuff going around . It will not lead us to anywhere but also its not right to hang in there in between without any conclusion to be made . so finally I decided I'll talk with him if he doesn't I hope I'll not loose him forever .
Being with Kevin was everything I wished for and somewhere I guess it was same for him too ,but each coin has two sides , there were many ifs to consider in this case too , it was different dilema I was dealing with I need to consider many factors here . I made up my mind I'll talk with him inspite of all the consequences we'll be dealing with.