I tried writing this chapter differently but this seemed like the best option. Hope u enjoy it.
Hao Tieng's POV
It's been a week now since I tried connecting with my Dragon but everytime was just as pathetic and sad as the last. There is something weird about sitting down on the grass in just pants , eyes closed , trying so hard to concentrate yet your actually making a poopy face. It's been the same routine for the last seven days.
Waking up at six in the morning, having a light breakfast then sitting down on the wet grass to start my connection but all I see is Gang Zhi's face. I'm really starting to miss him. Sometimes I sit down and think where I would be now if I hadn't met him. I wouldn't have found that am a Dragon. Wait scratch that.. A Dragon Prince and the supposedly destined mate of The Quadbrid. It's all so frustrating.
Sure I don't mind the changes and falling in love with the most handsome man I've ever seen but what if this was a mistake. What if I'm not Gang Zhi's destined mate? What if I fall so hard for him yet he doesn't feel the same for me? What if I'm not a dragon? What if I'm just me, a normal guy who got dumped over an answering machine, has no job and this was all a dream. What if meeting Gang Zhi was just a dream?
"Concentrate!" I hear my mom's commanding croaky dragon voice and it brings me out of my daze. I know she's just as frustrated as I am. I bet she's pretty disappointed in me.
"Stop thinking too much. Just concentrate on the Earth's sounds. The Wind. The Chirping birds. My voice" she said softly
"But your voice isn't an earth sound,Mom" I said honestly cause there's nothing earthly about her croaky dragon voice.
"You stupid child!! Do you want me to burn that mouth off your face?"
"No Ma'am"
"Then instead of asking for a death wish , you should concentrate."
Concentrate! Concentrate! Concentrate! That's all am trying to do. I'm tired of hearing that word. If I don't connect and turn into a dragon today, am done. Am FUCKIN!!! done. I'm going back to work and living in my lonely apartment. But if I did that then how will Gang Zhi look at me. He'll possibly see me as a disappointment or a man-child . Uhhhhhhhh!!!!!Am a grown man!!! I shouldn't give up yet. Just one more try. One more try. For GangZhi. Just for him.
"Breathe in. Breathe out. Think of the saddest moment in your life." I hear my mom's voice. "Picture that moment in your head. I want you to go back to that exact moment."
That exact moment. The saddest moment in my life. I breathe in and out. and recall the saddest moment in my life.
It's nightfall and I am standing in the middle of an empty road in my work clothes. It's like I've been transported to that exact moment. I remember this day. I was drunk and I missed my immortal. I missed Gang Zhi so much that I didn't want to live anymore. This is the night I tried to commit suicide. I can't hear my Mom's voice anymore. I can't even feel her presence. All I feel is pure loneliness. It's like I have this hole in my heart. It's like a piece of my heart has been taken away from me.
I hear a noise coming from not so far away from me. I turn to my left side and see the headlights of a truck. An empty truck coming towards me. I try to move but it's like I'm stuck to the ground. Like a deer when it sees headlights. As the truck gets closer and closer, I close my eyes and wait for my doom.
After several minutes of closing my eyes and waiting for my doom that seemed to take longer than I anticipated. I slowly open my eyes and am left dumbstruck.
Infront of me is this big creature that I've only seen in movies. It's so fuckin large!!!! with pale blue crystal eyes ,vast translucent wings, blue scales all-over it's body and the truck is like a frozen popsicle.
"Y-y-yo-u f-r-r-o-z-z-e th-a-t " I stammer. Oh God it's so fuckin scary.
"Why are you stammering? Are you afraid of your ownself?" it asks me. It's voice is larger and croakier than my family's. Ownself? This is me in my dragon form. Shit!! I'm so damed scary. I wish my dragon wasn't weakened. If I had it in me in highschool, I would've shown that stupid bully what scary really means.
"I remember him. He mistreated us everyday." I hear it's croaky voice. Wait a moment!!! It can read my mind!!!
"Ofcourse I can read your mind. I'm you after all" It says and I watch it as it flaps it's wings and covers itself. With a bright blue light, I watch it as it changes in to ME!!!!. It's ME. The only difference it's that it has wings, scales and it's pale. It's like when GangZhi transformed to show his mark. SO DAMN COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
"I tried showing up when you needed help but I couldn't since Mom used a lot of power to surpress me." It says. It's like looking into a supernatural mirror.
"Why didn't you show up when I tried connecting with you this whole week?" I finally master up the courage to speak.
"Because you didn't want me to show up." It answers and I furrow my brows in confusion. Didn't want it to show up. Like come on. I've wanted it ever since I found out am a dragon.
"What??? What do you mean I didn't want you to show up?"
"You just wanted to see if your parents were right. You just wanted to see if you were actually a dragon. That's why I didn't show up. For me to show up, you had to want me to show up not just doing it to prove something. Since today you actually wanted it, I showed up plus trying to commit to suicide was a wrong idea. Actually at that moment I was going to show up and save your dumb ass but our love saved you or us." It said with a smile.
"OUR Love....."
"Yeahhh Gang Zhi. You know you love him right. Your destined to be together."
"You... I ...We might be a dragon but that doesn't mean that we know if that's true or not."
"Then why did you save him when he was attacked by those shadows."
"Wait.... So it was really me who saved him? But I was a baby by then."
"You might have been a baby but you're powerful and that mark that both of you have glows when one of you is in danger or when you.... You know... finally mate..."
"So all this destined stuff is all real."
"Yes...Now give me your hand so that we can finally be together once again." it said and I gave it my hand without hesitation. My Dragon is back!!!! and am destined to be with Gang Zhi!!! but what about Bing Wen. How's he going to feel about all of this. He's going to be heartbroken and he's----
"Don't worry about Bing Wen. He has his own destined mate." it says and I smile at that. I just want us to become besties again.
As our hands intertwine, there's is this bright blue light and that can blind anyone's eyes. I close my eyes as I wait for the feeling of being connected with my Dragon once again.
I open my eyes and see my mom's face. She's smiling. Why is she smiling?
"Why are you smiling Mo..." I can't even finish the question. Why the heck does my voice sound like a FUCKIN generator? Wait..... Croaky voice.... Am I???? I stretch out my hands to look at them and... I'm a Dragon!!!!! I'm a dragon!!!! I can feel the wings in my back. The scales, my breath is so cold but it doesn't bother me. It's comforting. This is who I am. A dragon.
This is my Trueself.