Sweet dream. Cool bed. And her hugging me. That's what I always wished. That's what I only wished. She was gone for so long. And now, she's back. So, I don't need anything else.
"...Hey, little eel. My ass cheeks won't fly away.. You can let it rest.."
She's here. She's mine. She's just mine.. My name is Electra Deuce and this is my life.
"Don't tell me not to. I wanna feel you so much... You have no freaking idea."
"Little eel, I missed you too. But, we are supposed to be just best friend.. Not, sex friend. I'll have you reminded that I'm in search of a husband."
"I know. I know all that. That's why I'm cherishing the moment I live with you. I know it won't last. I know you want to be happy. I know you don't think much of me. I know you don't love me. I know I'm some kind of tool. I know Tanasha Jressa wants a future. I understand. I totally understand. But just for today, I want you. Nothing else, but you."
"...."
Looks like I went too hard on my words. It is the truth, though. And I quote it. I realised the first time we met that She was too good for me. I realised I was not her soulmate. So, I never loved her nor anybody. And I never accepted love from somebody else. I'm just a nobody who doesn't want a future.
"Well, your mouth can't seem to make words. It's saturday and I need to go to the apartment. I haven't been there for years.. Use your free time to rest."
"I thought you didn't want to leave me."
"Nash, your face lies very badly.. I csn see that you don't want me today. I can feel that something is troubling you. Take your time. I'm a phone call away if you need anything. Bye..."
I just found her and I already lost her.
"Okay.. I'll go shopping later. I'll call you..."
"...."
I wonder why she started that conversation. She knows our situation. She knows.. She sees the future. She.....
*Phone call.*
"...Hello."
"Awkard. Shopping mall, Nash??"
"Yeah. Humm...I. I.. Are you okay??"
"I'm good. We are good, don't worry, Nash."
"I don't feel like we are okay.. Forget it. I'll text you the address.. See you."
"....Sure."
Nash is cold when she's hungry. Nash is like a tamed beast when she's eaten well. Nash hates romantic movies but, she wants a romantic life. Nash uses me and knows how to lie. Nash has a mask and never reveals her trueself. Nash is coldhearted and wants warm. When Nash disappeared, I started to hate myself. I started to question myself. I came to a conclusion. Do I really need Nash?? Am I really a Nobody???