It's has been thirty six months since I have been living with Taylanand I was still feeling homesick.After my traumatic ordeal at the Satyr base camp I was forced to live under the watchful eye of Seryan. This was because the Satyr officials had not been fully convinced regarding my identity and how much of I threat I would be to them ,even though I told them EVERYTHING.
After Taylan rescued me from the tree higher rank officers snatched me from him ,to take me in for further 'questioning' ;more like further interrogation.I was cooped up in a dark cell for what felt like eternity. I was deprived of food and got lucky only with a bottle capful of scum water. My life was just a monotonous rhythm of going back and forth between my cell and the reeking interrogation room.Funnily enough my mind kept enquiring doesn't this country have tax payers . My mind was too preoccupied with why the place had not atleast looked presentable - silly of me I know ,but that minute distraction offered me an opportunity to keep on going.
When Taylan came to get me I was elated. I thought it meant I would finally return to my home sweet home,but not was I mistaken . I was being released ,sort of . I had to live with Taylan ,but during the course of my stay I was commanded to do daily physical appearances before my interrogators and narrative every single thing I did throughout the day ,without any inconsistencies and fill out a whole book narrating the very same things I had just uttered before them. That was not all .The other catch was that I had to announce to Taylan my every move and I'm not kidding when I say that. Even something as trivial as standing up to go to the next room had to announced to him. It did not stop there also. I had to be chaperoned by him wherever I went .
According to Taylan I was being ordered to do all of this to spare my own life . He said that the authorities feared that if had been left to my own devices for as little as a second I could cook up and execute a plan that could possibly wipe them out . Ridiculous I know .But if this warranted my safety than so be it.
The first few weeks were tough . I felt very suffocated . Taylan tried to lighten up my burden by taking me to normal places ,such as the cinema and to dinners and parties which his family had organised. He tried to make holidays festive ,but it was not the same as back home,no matter how much he attempted .
Everything changed when I got the letter I had been so eagerly waiting for from the Satyr officials. It read as follows:
Dear Meya Nacie Bay
The State of Satyr would like to let it be known to you that the ongoing investigation regarding your true identity has been concluded. It has been apparent ,according to our findings ,after thorough and state of the art investigating that the state has found that the identify you provide the state with is in correlation with the state's findings. Therefore the investigation against you has been discontinued with immediate effect and you are to leave this country within twenty four hours , commencing when you have read this letter.
Failure to depart in twenty four hours would result in immediate life imprisonment.
Yours Sincerely
Sergent E.K .Derum
I was extremely elated and ran to the plastic kitchen cabinets and grabbed a handful of plastic bags to fill with my clothes. While I was stuffing the plastic bags with my clothes, Taylan walked in.
'Hey,what are you doing?'
'Oh,hey, I'm packing.'
'Why??'
'Oh,I got a letter from the authorities that it was time for to hope along back home. '
'Oh,uhmm.'
He seemed to be holding back something so I carried on to ease this uncalled for tension,so I tried to ease things up.
'So how was your date?'
'It was fine .'
'Is that all you can say .' I chuckled
Taylan looked down . 'Yeah. What do you want me to say. Nothing really interesting happened.'
I shot him an incredulous expression. 'Come on! She seemed like a really nice catch and seemed quite interesting to me . Tell me atleast something about her. Her name for instance.'
He lazily leaned on the doorframe.' There really isn't much to tell. Other than the fact that her name is Lihanna.'
'Wow. That's a very nice name and it's quite rare. So are you guys going to go out on a second date?'
He rolled his eyes at me and shrugged. ' For goodness' sake can you just please stop trying to distract my attention ,by asking me all these pointless questions.'
'What?! Why?! You are my friend so I think I have all the right in the world to ask these questions. It's not like I'm asking you top secret questions ,and what else could possibly be more important to talk about ?'
'Are you being serious right now?! "What else could possibly be more important " than my date is what you currently doing!'
'Packing!!Are you being serious right now? You think me packing more important?? You have to seriously be messing with me.'
'Could you just stop seeing the amusement in all of this and just take me seriously right now.'
The pitch of my laughter increases. 'But why?! Like ,why on Earth would I do that ?I'm finding it amusing because you are just being ridiculous right now.'
'And exactly how am I being ridiculous?! Please enlighten me!'
'Well first of all we are getting into an argument about me PACKING!!!'
'And so??Do you not see what this is about?'
'Well clearly not.'
'Well it's about you just uping and leaving without even taking a second to consider how that will impact our friendship.'
'Well I don't exactly have time for that right now. Did I mention I only have to be out of here in twenty four hours. Infact make that less than twenty four hours before I get tossed into one these hell holes ,which I'm pretty certain the Devil himself would not even want to spend a second in.'
I wasmet with a mere blank stare ,which egged me on .
'Yiu know what. I don't even why I am bothering explaining myself to . After all this time I have been here - away from home , and you witnessed how miserable I have been . Don't you think I deserve to have some happiness after all I have been through . Can't you just place your selfishness aside for a minute and think about what I want! Hell ! I want to do things without having to report to you or be spied on during all the hours of the day . Hell ! I want to walk by people who don't speak a foreign language just for one day . I want to be able to count the change like the back of my hand . I want to be able to go to the local library every Friday , eat my own countrymen' cusine, not take a bad during the weekend and capacitate the whole house with my body odour just because I have been engolfed in my PJ's warmth and comfort ,so much so that they began to feel like a my second layer of skin.I want to sit by the window and immerse my eyes in the spectacular orchestrated by nature on her grand garden - that is so belittled and ignored by her rejectors of the soil. I want to spring from bed and embrace all the trees like my life depended on it - even though it does. I want to pollute the air with my inner most thoughts that have been do compressed that my mouth has declined and hurled it back to the further most outer end of my oesophagus. I want to kick up my legs to the rhythm of tempos that seduce my hidden innuendos. I want to not put external self together because you know what ,I already have my internal self plucked together. I want to LIVE! TO BE ME!That is why I I did not bother brain with thinking of all that you talk about . I want to run away and never look bad . Am I a bad person for just wanting such a simple pleasure to make my journey to eternal slumber a little less mundane and unworthy of boasting about to young doomed caretakers? Well my vessel upstairs stared me in the orbs and said "Darling clutch it like your pearls depended upon it and fly ." And I am doing , because it would be a pity to neglect it and live with regret when it's best before date arrives.'
'Well , atleast now I'm in the know .' Uttered Taylan and propelled the door shut as he left my sight
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