Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance
Elisabeth Kübler-Ross, a representative psychiatrist of the 20th century, divided the psychological state of a human being leading up to death into the five stages mentioned above in her book, On Death and Dying.
Although the circumstances were different, Kwon Jae-jin's psychological state in the first round was similar to that. — he denied it, he was angry, he compromised, he was depressed, and finally, he accepted it.
If you ask what kind of grand introduction this is….
In simple terms, it means that Kwon Jae-jin had a crazy lover in the first round. — The first S-class esper. 24 years old. Seo Ui-woo.
Four years ago, Seo Ui-woo suddenly appeared in front of Jae-jin, who was a non-awakened ordinary person and kidnapped him without warning, saying that he had finally found his matching guide.
"You are the guide that suits me. You've been stuck in a corner all this time, so I've never been able to find you."
Kwon Jae-jin, an ordinary office worker living in the 6th general residential area, is a guide?
No matter how much he denied it, saying it couldn't be true, that it was a mistake, Seo Ui-woo wouldn't listen to Jae-jin's words. He took Jae-jin to a special residential area where only the Awakened could enter, confined him in his 3,000-pyeong ultra-luxurious mansion, and forcibly demanded that he guide him.
Guiding, of course, involves physical contact.
Among these, contact through a thin mucous membrane shows the greatest efficiency.
That is why Awakened people receive different sex education from ordinary people from a young age and have special concepts of chastity.
For ordinary people, including Kwon Jae-jin, acts like kissing and sex are meaningful expressions of affection between lovers, but for that smart bastard Seo Ui-woo, they were merely efficient guiding.
"It hurts, it hurts, ah, ugh! Gasp…Stop…!"
Because of that useless big-ass dick, Jae-jin had a very horrible first time where he bled from both his upper and lower holes at the same time.
At that time, he was so 'angry'..…
"My guide… I've finally found you, but… What's your name?"
The kid said that he was finally able to receive proper guidance and that it was his first time, so his heart was full of joy, and he smiled faintly. Kwon Jae-jin couldn't tell how creepy and disgusting it was to see that young face with long, double-lidded eyes and an innocent smile.
In the end, Jae-jin ended up punching the kid in the face, but Seo Ui-woo just gave him a face like it wouldn't hurt even if he got hit by a normal person.
Even the contact of being punched in the face was like a guiding light, and the face of the guy who was smiling with his teeth bared ferociously was dyed in a dark madness. It is a memory that makes Jae-jin shiver even when he thinks about it now.
"I am not a guide. I can't possibly be a guide, and even if I were, there would be a mistake. Please send me back to the 6th residential area."
"Jae-jin is a mutant."
After that, Seo Ui-woo flatly refused Jae-jin's request to be sent home after completing the necessary guidance.
Awakened. That is, Espers and Guides belong to the state and are strictly controlled and managed from birth. In the case of Kwon Jae-jin, if an ordinary person belatedly awakens to a supernatural ability, they are immediately killed, as they are classified as uncontrollable mutants and dangerous factors.
"I'll let you go, but do you want to be shot? Or I can hide you, and you can live as Seo Eui-woo's guide in my arms?"
Seo Ui-woo made an offer he couldn't refuse, and Jae-jin compromised with reality and became his guide, locked in his house.
Three 'depressed' years passed like that.
Looking back, Seo Ui-woo had become a big part of Jae-jin's life, and Kwon Jae-jin had no choice but to 'accept' him to a certain extent.
That's understandable, it's been three years.
At first, Jae-jin also hated Seo Ui-woo intensely, and he even struggled to escape the confinement situation he had been forced into. He fought until his eyes rolled back, refusing Seo Ui-woo, who clung to him, asking him to guide him. He was raped by the guy who had lost his mind after being driven to the brink of a rampage due to a lack of guidance for three days and nights. He even tried to kill that bastard. At one point, he even thought about suicide.
In fact, if you think about it, it wasn't Seo Ui-woo's fault that Kwon Jae-jin awakened as Seo Ui-woo's guide. Jae-jin was just born with a mutation.
It's not Seo Ui-woo's fault that he has no choice but to live locked up in Seo Ui-woo's house. He just does it to avoid the cruel state policy.
But Jae-jin needed someone to blame, and since there was someone he hated right in front of him, he couldn't help but be sharper than necessary.
Well… anyway, after going through all kinds of, um… swearing, tears, pleading, bloodshed, suicide attempts, and such dramatic situations, living together daily, sharing each other's growth process, and so on… ha, it was awkward, but the two came to understand each other to some extent.
Seo Ui-woo, who was born as an Esper, could not help but harbor an innate fear of going wild.
If he, an S-class Esper, goes berserk, it will be a disaster that is difficult to prevent. Many people will die or get injured. That is why Seo Ui-woo has repeatedly received much more detailed and systematic mental education than other Espers since childhood, to fear his berserk state. From the perspective of an ordinary person, it would be nothing more than brainwashing.
In any case, Seo Ui-woo had no choice but to desperately seek guidance, and for a long time, he was in a desperate situation because he could not find a guide with a proper matching rate. Since there was a limit to how much he could endure by replacing guidance with similar drugs, he had to live with chronic side effects such as headaches, fever, dizziness, shortness of breath, insomnia, and loss of appetite.
In this urgent situation, it was only natural for him to roll his eyes when he finally found someone who could properly guide him.
However, Kwon Jae-jin was born as an ordinary person and grew up as an ordinary person, so he couldn't help but be different from Seo Ui-woo, who is not afraid to make contact. It's just unpleasant to have to come into contact with someone you don't like and be hostile.
Kwon Jae-jin desperately tried to explain to Seo Ui-woo what the average person's concept of chastity was. He insisted that kissing and sex were only between lovers. After much effort, Seo Ui-woo understood Jae-jin's thoughts… and immediately launched a confessional attack.
"I understand that you may be uncomfortable with sexual intercourse between lovers. Then, if we become lovers, the problem will be solved. Go out with me."
That crazy little bastard!
Of course, he thought he wasn't serious and rejected him outright, but that bastard Seo Ui-woo was persistent.
Later, Kwon Jae-jin's side even begged him not to just ask him to date him, saying that he would guide him unconditionally.
However, even though Seo Ui-woo guided him, sucked him, and fucked him as much as he wanted, the kid was unmoved.
For a whole year, he kept asking Jae-jin to date him without getting tired of him, he said he liked Jae-jin, he said he was special, and so on…
Seo Ui-woo's face is actually quite acceptable…
There are no facial features in the world that are so harmonious.
Well, it's not like we started dating because of his looks.
Face…. Is it the face?
Was it because of the face?
He doesn't know….. oh my….
Anyway, that's how the two became lovers.
HAPPY END.
It would have been nice if it had ended with a neat happy ending like this.
One sunny afternoon, the gate in the yard burst, and Kwon Jae-jin, who was caught in it, died with his limbs torn off.
BAD END.
This was the first life story of Kwon Jae-jin before his regression.
***
The slight headache gradually subsided.
Jae-jin forced himself to frown and opened his eyes, only to see a familiar bedroom.
Seo Ui-woo's three square meters luxurious mansion.
Both walls were made of large glass, and outside was the calm, rippling sea. The ceiling was also covered with a round dome-shaped glass, so it seemed as if stars would pour down onto the bed.
For your information, all of that glass is specially treated, high-strength bulletproof glass.
If you ask how he knows, he can only say that it is because Kwon Jae-jin shot at it himself.
"Oh, you're awake?"
At that moment, a familiar face suddenly appeared between Jae-jin's legs.
Seo Ui-woo was taking off his pants from below. Without hesitation, he opened his belt, unzipped it, and pulled down his suit pants to below his knees.
"...."
Kwon Jae-jin watched Seo Ui-woo's face silently, whether or not his clothes were peeled off.
It's a face he's been seeing so many times over the past four years.
Those characteristic thick, dark eyebrows were still there, as were the drooping eyelids inside the deep-set eyes. The long, thin eyelashes that tickled his cheek every time he sucked on his tongue were just as he remembered.
Most of all, he misses those gray eyes.
Seo Ui-woo's gray eyes were a color that had both coldness and warmth. At times, it seemed deep and affectionate, as if you could sink into it, but at other times, it felt eerie, like a twisted and misaligned crack.
Jae-jin remembered the moment when he locked eyes with that kid and just stared at him, swallowing all kinds of emotions.