The warm smile she used to give every time I come home after school was long gone. It's been almost 4 years since they got divorced and mum's still crying as she cried on the first-day dad left us. I mean what's the point of crying when you know he's not gonna come back? What's the point of hanging with the past when it only brings you sadness?.
I never understood the reason why she's crying over a person who doesn't love her anymore. I couldn't see her like someone who lost everything and is on the edge of a cliff to end her lifeless body. My mum was the smartest person I have ever known, but now she's the dumbest I ever encounter.
Don't know when my dejection towards her turned into hatred. As the days started passing, the relationship between us started fading just like dad complained. I don't like to see her swollen eyes from crying or listen to her hoarse voice from muffled cries.
Well, even in her grief she taught me something. If loving someone and getting into a relationship ends up like this, there's no way I want one. Nothing's much horrible and suffering than love. Sacrificing for love, crying for love is what a weakling like my mum does, I don't wanna end up like her.
The outside world is nothing like the romance novels people read. Now, I know why people like to read novels it's because they are afraid to face the real world so they hide themselves imagining being in the fake noel worlds. Such assholes, huh.
At present, if you ask me what's the thing you hate the most. I answer not one but three because they always compete to win the first position. One among them is the word 'Love', well I don't need to explain why, you guys must have known it by now. The next is my mum, I don't need to explain this either and the final thing is 'Hug'.
Well, it needs a little bit of explanation, doesn't it?. A hug is something that we use as an act to show our love or care towards a person we love. I read on the internet that, hugging the person we love decreases our anxiety and calms our mind. It's been years since I hugged someone and if you hug only the person you love then I would never hug a person, cos I'm an AI who wasn't programmed to love.
Even after all these so-called philosophical talks, we can't avoid some circumstances. Even when you don't want something in life, your fate will always be there to bring in it your life. The same has happened to me when I was 15. I was in my school, opened my locker to take a book when I saw a pink envelope with lots of weird symbols on it in red, which people refer to as the 'Heart' symbol.
Hah, I don't know why they call it a heart symbol when your heart isn't that shape and even if it was, your heart isn't the reason for your feelings. I was wrong about most of the things but I was right that the world is filled mostly with morons.
I sighed and kept my book back in the locker and took that stupid envelope. I opened it and like I expected it's a love confession with weird love quotes and worst words chosen to express feelings.
'Morons' I mumbled while reading that so-called 'love letter'. A confession letter from a girl... I guess, it ended with 'I Love You, Kiet, I have always been'.
I hated seeing my name after those three filthy words. When I looked around I saw found girls in the corner staring at me while giggling and smiling like total idiots, must be from one of them. I smiled folding the letter and saw the girls, they were smiling ever more after that. I went towards them and stood in front of them.