Raven's POV
I don't want to get up and go to school, not after what happened last night. I know Sean was here because he always leaves my door open on nights I have my nightmares. What makes this even harder is that I have a feeling he saw the blade in the trash. I stopped cutting my wrists because it's obvious. After I lied to my brother about not marking myself anymore – 2 years ag0 – I started doing it again...in places only I can see.
I look at my alarm clock on my nightstand to see I have already missed 2 of my morning class. Sean doesn't have work today because it's his day off.
"If I go to school, I can use it as a distraction." sighing, I get up and get ready to go to school.
I make my way towards the kitchen to at least get a banana to eat on the way to school.
"Raven…" Sean, please. Stop.
"We need to talk about-" I turn around to look at him standing next to the kitchen island.
"I need to get to class." I cut him off because I know what he's going to say and right now, I do not want to hear it.
"Raven, please."
"The next time you see me in pain because of my nightmares, don't save me." I grab the keys to his car and exit through the front door. I didn't want to sound like an ungrateful bitch towards my brother, but I don't want him to see me all weak. If I need help, I'll ask for it. As for now, this is my problem to deal with and I don't need saving. I may be his little sister, but I can take care of myself.
We arrive at Redwood High School in 10 minutes. The whole car ride was silent but the air felt heavy. Sean's worry was coming off of him in waves and I did my best not to care.
"Raven," Sean lets out a slow sigh before unlocking my door.
"I'm fine, Kuya." I reach over and hug him. "Please, just let this go."
Sean and I hug for a minute before he lets go.
"Call me when class is over, ok?" he kisses me on the forehead before I exit the car. I make my way to the front office and ask Mrs. Rogers for a note for my attendance. Since today is Monday, I have P.E right about now. I didn't bring any clothes for class, great. I guess I'm skipping this class too.
I check the time on my phone, 11:50. I make my way towards the soccer field since it's lunchtime. I'm not in the mood to eat anything for the whole day anyway. I'll just stay here until class starts.
Jackson's POV
Classes went by in the morning, like usual but Raven wasn't in today. I tried texting her a couple of times but she never replied or saw the message. Maybe she left her phone at home…or it's dead. She's already missed 3 of our morning classes and now I'm getting worried. Ever since she's started her classes in Redwood High School, she's never missed a class. After History-12 and English-12 finished, I asked the teachers for the homework papers we're supposed to take home so I can give them to Raven after class ends today.
"Jackson!" I turn around to see Atlas running towards me. Standing there until he reaches me, "Sinny boy."
"Sinny boy? Really? Atlas?" Atlas shrugs at my comment. "What do you want?"
"Well..." He starts playing around with my hair.
"Atlas," waving my hands around swatting his hands away from my head.
"Oh right..." I have no idea how this dumbass has straight A's in class when he zones out.
"Atlas!" I slap his cheek to get him to stop zoning out.
"Do you like Raven?" he asks with a smirk plastered on his face.
"Excuse me, what?"
"The way you look at her man."
"I don't get what you're saying." The way I look at Raven? I look at her like any man would. She's my friend. Yeah, I'm attracted to her a little, but we're only in high school and she has clearly stated she is not looking for a partner.
"Sin, do you like Raven the way you like burgers?" Atlas says rolling his eyes.
"I love burgers, yes...but I don't think like that about Raven."
Atlas turns around letting out an annoyed sigh and starts punching the air. "You are SO dense with your feelings, my man."
"You're being weird. I have to go and give these papers to Raven."
Raven's POV
I get up from my spot on the soccer field and make my way to the high school building. I've already missed half of the day, I shouldn't skip out on the whole day just because I'm going through something.
"Depression isn't an excuse, you're just being lazy." My mom's words repeated in my head over and over again. The next thing I know, I'm on the floor and my ass hurts.
"Raven?" I look up to see Jackson with a worried expression on his face. "Where have you been? You missed half of the day and the teachers were worried about you."
"I got here 10 minutes before lunch so I thought I should just sit and wait until it was almost time to get to class."
"Are you ok?"
....huh?
"What?"
"Are you ok? Something seems off about you."
How do you answer or react to someone asking if you're ok?
"Um...everything's fine." I smile knowing dam well it's fake.
The rest of the day I'm on autopilot. Classes were done for the day before I could process anything. Sean came to pick me up and the whole car ride was quiet. When we arrived at the house, I went straight to my room and plopped on the bed. I honestly did not care about anything at the moment. I just wanted to disappear but for now, sleep was the only thing that worked.