*On the way to the Mini Market*
I don't know how to start talking to him, especially since we're in the same car. What should I ask first ?, will I say hello, or will I just keep quiet here and drive.
I know you are confused ,but yes I do feel awkward, because this is the first time I will be with him, this is also the first time I am next to him closely.
It's not tiring to follow Denis every day on campus, like, you just enter will direct you to the opposite side of their room and hide just to catch a glimpse of his face.
I've been following denis since my first year of college, I'm always looking forward to him on campus, even though many women like him, I still don't lose hope that one day the two of us will be together.
I've been waiting for two years, but still nothing is happening, because he doesn't know that I like him. I can't admit or have the courage to tell him how I feel.
And when I collided with him earlier in the restaurant, it was like, I was floating in a cloud with only his face I could see, I can't deny that my heart was so happy because I saw him.
I can't think straight while in front of him because who wouldn't be surprised when the one you've admired for a long time is in front of you.
Maybe now I feel more than admiration for him, I know that 2 years of following him on campus is not enough but I know in myself that he is the one I want to be with.
I know it's impossible, because he doesn't know me but I'm ready to gamble even if my heart is hurt or injured. I will fight even if I know I'm at a disadvantage.
Maybe now that I am with him, I will dare to admit to him, as long as I wait, this is probably the signal that I confess to him. I will not waste this opportunity.
"Here we are" I told him.
"Hmmm" he whispered.
"Thank you for the free ride" Denis said.
"Ah, nothing, as long as you need help anytime, I'm just here" I returned to him.
It's a bit awkward for me to tell him that, but maybe it's time to feel it.
"HMM, okay thank you again" Denis said.
We have entered the market, I will not lose sight of him, will I follow him or not?
What's the use of my lying before if I don't follow him. I just said that I will also come here so that I can be with him, of course for a way.
I followed him secretly, but he still saw me. I turned around and pretended to be looking for someone.
"Oh you're still there" Denis said to me.
"Hmm yes, I also have something to buy" I replied to him.
"Ahh okay" he returned.
As he gets away from me, I get closer to him.
"Are you following me" he asked me.
I was nervous at his question and at the same time thrilled, how come I won't be thrilled, his tenderness speaks.
What shall I answer? Shall I admit it? Or will I refuse? Hmmm?
"No ah, it's just a coincidence that we have the same purchase" I snapped at him.
"He just smiled" he said at the same time "ah is that so"
After a few minutes Denis went to the counter, while I had nothing to buy, I didn't buy because I wasn't really going to buy, I'm here for Denis.
Denis came out with what he had bought, and I hurried to follow him.
He is waiting for a ride again but ...
"Hmm Denis, I can just bring you to your house" I invited him.
"It's enough when you brought me here, besides maybe you have something else to do," he refused.
"I don't have anything to do, besides, why aren't you busy for me, besides it's hassle to commute especially since you have a lot stuff with you,I just want to help especially when you are" I insisted.
"Huh?" he asked.
"Ah, no, I said I just wanted to help"
I slipped.
"Ahh go ahead, I don't want to refuse your offer, you might get upset" he returned.
My heart beat faster because of what he said, I don't know why I was quickly confused even by his simple words.
He put it in, even though it hurts, I mean he put the things he bought in my car.
The two of us also went in and I started driving while tooking him to his house.
"Hmm where do you live?" I asked him.
"Huh? Live?" he asks.
"Yeah, what are you thinking?" I asked him sarcastically.
"Ah, living, hmmm in Marcus Village"
he replied.
I didn't know what else to talk to, I really missed him, I couldn't even stare or make eye to eye contact with him.
But go ahead, I'm going to talk to him, I don't want to be awkward, besides what else might he think.
"Aren't you studying at Maxwell University, Engineering Course?" I asked him.
"Hmm yes, but wait, how did you know where i am studying and my course? He answered me in surprise.
It killed me, why did I ask him that, with a lot of questions ,why could I ask him that stuff, that's all.
What do I say?
"Ah because I also have a friend who is taking an Engineering Course, I also see you when we go in together" I blurted out
"Ah that's right, what's your friend's name, maybe I know him?" he asked me.
Really dead!
"Hmmm, which street?" I asked to change the subject.
"Ah on Virgo St." he replied.
Woahh that's really good, and I thought of excuses.
We have arrived at their house and their house is quite close to us so I can see him ...
"Hmm Frank thank you again, sorry for the inconvenience" Denis promised
"No it's my pleassure, I want to take you to your house" I replied.
I know that I said before that I will not miss this opportunity, I want that before he can enter his house, I can say how I feel for him.
It's very easy to say that I want to confess to him, but it's hard to stand up and do when you're in front of it. It's seems like the wind is easy to feel but hard to see.
But this is it, this is probably the right opportunity to admit to him.
Although there is no certainty as to what his answer will be.
I will admit not because I just want him to know that I love him, I will admit because I want to make him feel that I want to be with him, I want to love him as much as I love myself.
*As Denis was entering his house I suddenly shouted ....*
"Denis I wants you!"
Denis suddenly stopped and looked shocked but he suddenly smiled, and entered his house.
I don't even know what her smiles between her red lips mean, but I hope that behind those smiles, there is love reserved for me.
It's nice to feel like you've confessed to the person you love, like taken away a thorn in your throat.
Even though I don't know the answer yet, I'm happy because he found out that I like him.
I got in my car to be back to my house with a smile and joy. This was the best day I have ever experienced but I know that there will be many more days to come full of joy and sorrow.