Hi, people from the age of 18 who still appear in my heart. How are you?
In fact, for 3 years I keep this feeling in our friendship, I failed, right?It feels like I've had a lot of stories with other people and your stories with other people all this time. However, this time it felt different. It feels like "we should have" because this is the last chance for you, for us. However, you instead chose someone else. How's the new guy? Aren't you tired of repeating everything from the beginning? when there is me who already understands each other with you.
Oh well...I can't do anything right? I'm tired of every year feeling like I want to let you go, I'm tired of every year saying I should stop loving you, I'm tired of saying I can't meet you again because every time I meet you the feeling will come back, I'm tired of accepting you as you are. I'm tired here...
In fact, I'm trying to make us equal, but I'm not the one you want, right? Did I offend your ego? I hope that one day you will see me and regret your actions all this time when I was happy with someone who will be my last place. Better to stop, right? I'm tired of closing my eyes to all your evil deeds to me. I'm tired of turning a blind eye to whatever you put me through. I am very tired. I want to forgive you. Always happy, right? I loved you first.
I miss you... but I can't say it, right?In fact you only hurt me, in fact you never cared about me, in fact I fought alone, in fact the facts slapped me to stop being here. Fly high for me, so that you can no longer reach me someday.
I'm sure I will find someone who suits my type, the best from God. I'm sure of that even though I can't lie that our story is very painful. But, just go and disappear from before me. Good bye...