Right now I can't breathe
But I continue to bleed.
Out on the floor
I promised you,I swore.
But a silver blade
All I did was retrograde.
My seams torn and frayed
I wish I would have stayed.
You see I've strayed
I've always been played.
Like my life is a game
I'm always to blame.
My soul has no flame
With this blade I shall maim.
Feelings will not become tame
My heart will inflame.
I swallow every pill
It's how I learned to deal.
My life has gone downhill
One day depression will kill.
My heart will go still
Never reinforced with steel.
The cuts that will never heal
My life feels unreal.
This mask I shall wear
A smile so rare.
I wished I was aware
Of how bright is my flare.
I promise I swear
There is no wear and tear.
On this soul that i compare
Oh this cross I have to bear.
At life I will glare
And death I will stare.
I won't even dare
Because I don't even care.