They say you've got to have a reason
A reason to be depressed.
But what if you don't even know?
And your smile it used to glow.
But now there's only the dark
Even in your art.
There's gotta be a reason,they say
You can hold it at bay.
Everything is just so gray
I don't even want to stay.
I'm just adrift
They say this life is a gift.
This smile, its makeshift
Like I'm on the graveyard shift.
My bones are just tired
I want to be retired.
The pressure from depression
I can't even speak in a therapy session.
It sinks below the skin.
This metal is so thin
But yet how it slices and tears.
It leaves scars on the skin.
So I'll just fake a grin.
The panic builds in my chest
It's such a pest.
How I wish to rest
I'm just so stressed.
My eyes are so heavy
This exhaustion so deadly.
But the nightmares are so scary
I'm just not ready.
And so I'll sigh
I whisper I'm ready to die
Then I'll begin to cry
I wish to be high.
There I'll never feel
The depression it can kill.
If only for a while
I'll be able to smile.
But the drugs aren't a cure
I am pretty sure.
I'll take a chance
Within this sword dance.
I wish to fly
But I'm caught in a cats eye.
So mark my words,
Here I'll lie.
This grave is cold
Underneath the stone
There are my bones
It's where my heart lies.
And i thought i could trust
But thats all turned to rust.