(Felix's POV)
I remained standing there between the two shelves, my gaze still nailed on the most beautiful woman I've ever met.
I hid myself at the back of the shelves, trying my best to get the best angle to stare at her standing in front of one of the shelves, from the small space between the books in front of me.
"Grace..." I whispered her name unconsciously.
She looks even prettier now... and happy.
I shifted my gaze to my side when I saw her boyfriend hugged her from her back and kissed her right cheek. She smiled at him, the sweetest smile I've ever seen from her.
"Hey! What? Have you found it?" I was brought to reality by my sister's voice. I faked a cough.
"Not yet. What about you?" I asked, still half awake from reality. She looked at me so confused and answered.
"Duh?? Brother dear to earth? That's why I'm asking you because I still can't find it! Are you okay? You look so out of it." She looked at me intently. Concerned look on her face. I placed the book back into that shelf and tried my best not to look at their direction again.
"Yeah. I just... I'm hungry. Let's go." I positioned my arms on her shoulder and gently pushed her to the direction of the exit. I can't let her see Grace. She's close to her. And I'm not sure if I can stand another minute seeing Grace with her boyfriend being sweet to each other in person.
I'm already suffering enough watching their happy relationship from her social medias.
"Wait! Brother dear!! Maybe you wanna let me pay for the books first??" She waved the book she's carrying at me. Shoot.
"Make it faster Lexi. I'll just wait for you outside." Just in case...
"Okay!" She said as she ran to the direction of the counter. I was about to hold the door when Lexi yelled calling me. I'm dead..
I closed my eyes as I felt my heartbeat moves faster. I slowly turned around to see my sister grabbing my ex's wrist walking towards me.
I observed her reactions. She looks overwhelmed. She's happy to see me. She looks excited. Those are just normal reactions from a good friend seeing her friend for the first time in eight years.
But why can't I feel that too? Instead, it pains me a little to see that friendship is the only relationship she can give me now. It pains me that she's happy with that.
"Kix!!" My eyes widened a little. Different familiar feelings starting to rush back inside me. that name.. She called me by the name only she calls me. The name she made so that I'll know that it's her who's calling me.
"G-grace." I don't know how I look saying her name.
"Yiee! Bro, you're still stuttering around her! Oops—sorry. Hehe." I rolled my eyes a bit. Tch. So garrulous! Teasing us in front of the boyfriend? Really, Lexi.
I heard her boyfriend laugh a little.
"It's okay. My trust for her is neverending." He said as he put his arms around her shoulders. There they smiled sweetly at each other. Grace.. my Grace..
I saw my sister looked at me as I watch the sweetness of the two. I don't know if the pain registered on my face. I can't help it. It feels like I'm being stabbed a million times in the very center of my heart. I looked away as I started to breathe heavily.
"Uhmm.... Grace, bro's been nagging me since earlier that he's really hungry, so we gotta go. . Let's catch up some other time! Hmm??" I looked at them and now they're hugging each other. I wish I could, too. And as if on cue, she walked towards me and gave me a hug. A friendly hug. I hugged back. I missed you so much my Grace..
I told her at the back of my mind.
"Catch up next time, Kix, okay?" I just nodded and faked a little laugh.
"Grace, give me your number!"
"Here. Call me, okay?" Leci just nodded at them and started to drag me away. I just waved my hand at them and turned around just not to be rude.
Lexi's looking at me worried. I gave her an assuring smile. She smiled back, a sad one, holding my hand.
"Stop staring at me Lexi. Let's just go and eat. Now I'm even more hungry."
"I love you, bro." I looked at her smiling at me. I smiled as I ruffled her hair.
"I love you too. Don't worry, okay?"
She nodded. Atleast I have a chatty sister who's always here by my side and will forever be my little girl.
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(Lexi's POV)
I really feel bad for Felix. I can see that he still loves Grace. But he knows Grace is happy now with another guy. It's been eight years but he's still so inlove with her.
He never dated again after their breakup. He just made himself busy with a lot of things. He sang, he studied, he drew and painted a lot. Like, a lot. We travelled a lot.
He now has his own business company and is one of the most successful businessman in the world.
But still, happiness seems so far away for him to reach.
"Lexi eat your food." I looked at my plate still full of vegetable salad and seafoods that Felix continuously adding. My diet!!!
"Bro, stop putting seafoods I'm on a diet!"
He just laughed and told me we're not going home untill I ate everything that's on my plate. I just pouted and started eating.
"Hey. You still love her?" I saw him stunned a little by my question. The answer's obvious. He did not answer and continued eating.
"You know I like her for you bro. But she's happy now with someone else."
"I know that Lexi. So please just stop bringing it out and just eat. Don't mind me. I'm fine, okay?" He said calmly trying to convince me. But he knows that won't work on me. I'm still worried.
"You know what, I think you should start dating already. Maybe the reason why you can't move on is because you won't give yourself a chance to try again. Grace is happy now. And I want that for you, too, bro.. I want you to be happy again. It's been eight long years and you're still caged in the memory of your relationship with Grace. Please bro, I want to help you. But you should help yourself first." He looked at me for a while and then smiled.
"You're right. I'll think about it." I smiled back at him. That's enough for me for now. I want to help him to move on for him to move forward in life. He's not getting any yunger anymore!
"Eat your food Lexi."
"You want me to look for someone you can date?" He laughed a little.
"You're not that excited, are you?" I shrugged.
"Just to be sure you're really considering my suggestion, bro." I said as I started eating again.
"Lexi, it's not that simple. Although the reason I would do this is for me to be able to move on, I still want to do it with someone that I know I'll eventually fall for. I don't wanna use somebody just to get out of my past. I also wanna try investing feelings again." I looked at him with my eyes widened. I can't believe he's saying this. But omygod I'm so happy to know that's what he's planning!
"Go Felix! I support you! Hey! Don't choose a girl that you know won't please me!"
He laughed at me.
"Of course not! I won't even date someone I know you won't like. That's why you have to trust me."
"I trust you bro." And we continued eating
After that, we went home straight for I have so many paperworks to deal with. I work as Felix's secretary. That's my own suggestion.
He doesn't like the idea of me being a secretary at first. He wanted me to be the financial manager, but I insisted.
I'm not ready to see him being close to another girl except from me and his highschool friends. I saw how head over heels the girls at the company for Felix. I Can't blame them though. He's really that handsome. Plus he's rich.
And no. Even though I suggested that he should date girls already, I don't want him to date his secretary if ever I was the financial manager. Eww it kinda looks like a gross affair that I watch on tv dramas.
And it's not imposible for that to happen since Felix doesn't really talk much to other people unless really needed. So, I insisted to be his secretary since we're close and it's normal for us that we're always together so there's no much difference .
"You know I can hire male secretary, right Lexi?" I looked at Felix who's now leaning his back at the doorway side while watching me doing some paperworks.
"What is it again? I am being comfortable already with this position, okay? Besides, I wanted this position to avoid further adjustments since I won't be away from you in this job. This industry is so busy, so I don't think we will be able to see each other that much if I end up in different faculty." I didn't mind his loud laugh. I know he'll laugh at me but that's really what I feel. I need to keep an eye on him until he finds a girlfriend. But fpr now, I wanna be the acting girlfriend for my brother dear.
"You are one heck of a clingy little sister, Lexi." I just pouted at him. He just shook his head in disbelief and went out of my room.
I stopped what I'm doing and think for a second. I'm not yet ready to separate ways from my brother... The idea even makes me want to cry.
I was brought to reality when my phone rang. I answered it even though the number is unknown. Ahh! I should call Grace later to catch up a little. And for her to save my number too..
"Hello?" I answered.
I was shocked when I heard the voice of the caller. She's giggling. Oh my god!
"Trixxie?!!!" I shrieked her name in surprise.
"Bestieee!!! Omg how are youu na?! Please let's meet! I'm in the ph right now!" I can't contain my happiness with that news. My bestfriend's here! I need to tell Frlix later!
"Since when did you arrive? Why didn't you tell me? Omg you're so unfair! Let's meet tomorrow! I'll invite Felix too!" I said almost jumping from my swivel chair in excitement. I frown hearing her teasing laugh.
"Why?" I asked.
"Let me guess. Still no boyfriend?." I didn't answer that made her laugh out loud. I rolled my eyes.
"So what Trixxie? I have Felix. I don't need one. Why? You have one?"
"Of course girl! He's so sweet and handsome! Omg you should meet him soon too! I'll ask him if he can come here earlier so I can introduce you two."
"Wow! Congrats bestie! Omg I would love to meet him and tell him every stupid things that we've done in highschool!" I teased.
"Shut up, girl! Atleast I got one. How about you? I can't believe you still don't have one? You can't tell me no one's approaching you because that will be so impossible girl." She's right. There are bunch of guys who wants to try. But I always rejected them. I have a promise to myself.
"I just don't feel like I should have one already. I'm still a baby, you know."
"Yeah. Babied by Felix, yes. But don't you want to be babied by someone, you know, romantically?" I scowled. No. Not yet..
"Psh! You know what, we'll talk about this tomorrow, okay? I have things to do now. I'll finish this all tonight so I would be able to have time for our catch up tomorrow."
"Okay then, virgin. Let's catch up tomorrow then. See yah! I love you!"
"Psh! Bitch! See you! I love you too! I'll text you okay? Bye." And I hung up.
Not yet Trixxie.. I promised myself I won't have a boyfriend until that day.
Until Felix's moved on already, and until gets a girlfriend.
Then when everything's finally fine, maybe that's the time I'll be considering having a suitor. But for now, I'll remain as bro's baby girl.