"Ma...ma... Wag mo'kong iwan..."
'Mama'
'Mama'
'Mama'
Argh. Hindi maintindihan ni Mikkadaise ang sarili, kung bakit hindi niya magawang kalimutan ang pagtawag ni Kendrick sa kaniya ng mama. Hindi talaga siya mapakali. She felt something in her chest. She likes it though, but at the same time, it pains her.
"Girls, guess what?... My babes is in Dean lister!!!!!"
Napahinto si Mikkadaise sa kaniyang binabasa. Malakas na nagtilian ang grupo ng mga babaeng yun, hindi alintana kung nakadisturbo ba ito sa iba.
"Sino? Si War?" The girl giggled dahilan kung bakit nabitin sa ere ang pagsarado niya sa kaniyang libro. Did she heard them right?
"Teka— P'ano nangyari yun? Di ba bulakbol iyon sa pag-aaral... Don't tell me binayaran niya yung teachers?! Gosh! Ouch— anu ba?! Wag mo kong sabunutan..."
"E, kase grabe ang binibintang mo kay crush. What makes you think ba na may money na na-involved sa nangyari? May I remind you na poor si War, beside the fact that he is ampon, though hindi nga lang pinalitan ang last name n'ya kase I don't know rin. Oh by the way! Ganon nga, I think he change na talaga kase last time I saw him in the library, busy studying... Oh I think he's planning na for our future.. Hehehe what do you think?"
Umiling lang si Mikkadaise tsaka tuluyang iniligpit ang mga gamit. She really hate how people talk about War. Hindi pa rin siguro siya masasanay kahit araw-araw nangyayari iyon simula pagkatungtong nila sa high school.
War Alvarez is really gifted. He has those magnetic deep coffee black eyes, pointed nose, pinkish lips, and not to mention his messy hair. A typical for a bad boy looks. Matalino naman ito, palaging nangunguna sa klase pero nagbago lamang iyon noong tumungtong sila ng college. Hindi rin naman niya ito masisisi. It's partly her fault. But it's not too late, she guess.
Ensaktong pagtalikod ni Mikkadaise, someone did block her way, buti na lang maagap ang taong iyon at agad nahawakan ang kaniyang beywang.
"Oops sorry. Hindi ko alam na haharap ka."
She blink several times as their eyes met. Seryoso itong nakatingin sa kaniya. She somehow feels inevitable guilt of the way he stare at her painfully.
"Sorry rin. Hindi kita nakita."
He chuckled. Napalitan ng amusement ang paraan ng pagtitig nito. "Tell me. Ano pang hindi mo nakita sa'kin?"
It sounded like a joke, but she better know, it's more likely have a double meaning. He is her friend at hindi niya sinadyang masaktan ito. Hindi naman natuturuan ang pagmamahal.
"Let go."
Umiwas siya ng tingin. Nakakailang na rin kase ang mga mata ng kapwa estudyante na nakatingin sa kanila.
"That's the thing I won't ever do. Hindi kita bibitiwan."
"I'm fucking serious, Xavier Khent Labazarte!"
"Bakit? Nagbibiro ba ako? I'm also fucking serious here, Mikkadaise Osorio. Just ask everything except for letting you go."
She shook her head. Inipon niya ang lahat ng kaniyang lakas para itulak ito. Hindi naman siya nabigo, nakawala siya sa mahigpit na pagkahawak nito sa kaniyang beywang.
She almost thanks all the angels above when she already leave that place at hindi siya nito naisipang sundan. She sigh. She really hate when she hurt someones' feeling and yet wala siyang ibang magagawa kundi saktan lang ito ng tuluyan para hindi na umasa pa.
Dumiretso agad siya sa soccer field ng unibersidad, sa pinakalikod na bahagi. She then secretly smile when she saw War, sitting below the mango tree. His eyes were too focused on the book he's holding.
"Stop drooling. I'm all yours."
Umirap siya sa hangin para pigilan ang nagbabadyang ngiti sa kaniyang mga labi. Umupo siya sa tabi nito at bahagyang sumulyap sa librong hawak nito.
"How did you know that it was me?" She just raised her brow when his head rested in her shoulder. "Trust me, I already memorized every molecules of your body."
"Kikiligin na ba ako?"
"Ikaw bahala. Malaki ka na, e. Tsk."
Pa simple niyang kinurot ang nipples nito sa labas ng puting T-shirt dahilan kung bakit napaigtad si War. Tinawanan niya lang ang naging reaksyon nito. "Maging hobby mo na yan B, ah."
Her lips pouted. Naalala niya pa noong unang beses na umamin si War sa kaniya, according to him, nayayamot daw ito sa endearment nila na laging nagpapaalala na hanggang mag bestfriend lang sila. He wonder if War changed his mind.
"B?" Hindi sinadyang tumaas ang kaniyang kilay.
Nagbago na ba ang isip mo at mas gusto mong mag bestfriend na lang ulit tayo?!—" Her words shut when he matched his lips into her. Bahagyang nagulat si Mikkadaise at sinubukang itulak si War. But War nipped her lips instead causing her eyes, shutting close unconsiously.
Tinanggap at tinugon niya ang bawat paghagod ng labi nito sa kaniya. She have to admit that it was very nice feeling of them being this close. At the age of nineteen, she's surely know that her feelings for him is not a simple puppy love, it's deeper than that. And she will gladly prays that it will be an endless commitment.
Kukurutin sana niya ulit ang nipples nito nang hulihin ni War ang kamay niya.
"B as in Babe."
He seriously said without breaking their eye contact. Kinabahan siya bigla sa paraan ng pagtitig nito, not until she saw him smirk.
"You're my babe, Mikkadaise Osorio Alvarez. My. One. and. only. Babe."
Nakakahawa ang mga ngiti nito. Hindi niya mapigilang kurutin ulit ang nipples nito gamit ang kaliwang kamay. She giggled with his eyes widen reaction.
Hinuli nito ang isang kamay niya. And now, her both hands are imprisoned with his. War then chuckled. "Shit. Nakakakilig. Isa pa nga."
They both laugh. Hindi niya na mahintay ang susunod nitong gagawin, she impatiently matched her lips into him. Ginaya niya kung paano ito gumalaw. They kissed. Sweetly. And with love.
"Ano pang ginagawa mo dito?" She opened her eyes at pilit itinakwil ang imahe sa kaniyang utak. Possible kayang si War Alvarez na dati niyang minahal ay si Blare Alvarez na ngayon ay nasa harapan niya dahil lang sa magkaboses ang mga ito? They even have surname. Pano nangyari yun? Nagpalit ng pangalan? Magkamukha talaga sila, mas matangkad at mas matipuno lang si Blare. Ano yun, magkadugo sila kaya parehong magkamukha? And that made her head spin.
"Are you deaf?!" Hindi sinadyang napaigtad siya nagsimulang lumakas na boses nito. She bit her lip. Once again, nakaramdam na naman niya ang kakaibang pintig ng kaniyang puso. At sigurado siyang nangyayari lamang iyon kapag kaharap niya si War.
"I said. Why. Are. You. Still. Here?"
"War— I mean po?" How many times did she cursed herself, one? Two? Three? Hindi niya na mabilang.
She uncomfortable look at him baka sakaling mabawi niya ng pagkataranta na kinikilos niya.
Blare look at her curiously, nakakunot ang noo nito. She nervously clear her throat. "War?" Pinagmasdan niya kung paano umangat ang kaliwang kilay nito. Damn. She can't believed that his thick brow can really be attractive. "What's with those word na palagi mong binabanggit sa harapan ko?"
Again. There's still no hint of recognition in his face. The seriousness in his aura seems telling her how crazy his thought is. Binuka niya ang kaniyang bibig para sana subukang sumagot nang naunahan siya nito. "Whatever. There's no importance in it anyway."
He then walk confidently around the living room kung saan siya nito hinayaang matulog. Hindi nito alintana ang suot na sando shirt at pajama na mahigpit na yumayakap sa katawan. He walk like he own everything around him.
And her eyes can't help but to shamelessly stare his round sexy butt while he's not looking at her. And this is not good dahil bigla itong humarap. The bulk between his thighs surprised her.
Agad siyang nag-angat ng tingin para itakwil ang makasalanang imahe sa kaniyang utak. Nanlaki ang kaniyang mga mata nang nagtagpo ang kanilang paningin. He smirk then chuckled. She can feel the heat in her face. Nahuli siya nito!
"Tsss. Isang gabi lang kitang pinatuloy dito sa pamamahay ko, dapat pagkagising mo, umalis ka na. And now you're eye raping the handsome goddess in front of you. I can sue you for that." Nanlaki ang kaniyang mga mata. Ang kapal. "Excuse me?!"
"And that attitude of yours, it's annoying." Nakakanganga lang siya habang pinagmasdan ito. "Ikaw pa ang tinulungan ko, ikaw pa ang may ganang pagtaasan ako ng kilay."
Mikkadaise forced a breathe to maintain her calmness. And now she confirm that she's in crazy state to think that Blare Alvarez is the man she's longing for a long time! War may encountered changes but he never treat the people around him like a shit. War has a good heart and very opposite to the man in front her.
They maybe look alike , same smell, same voice, almost the same built but they're different. Totally different, even though he makes her heart beating insane.
"Yeah right. I should've known that your help was unwillingly. Hindi ko na dapat tinanggap iyon! Kung alam ko lang na kasing sama mo ang ugali ng demoyo, 'di bale ng matulog sa gilid ng kalsada habang nagbebenta ng damit para magkapera at makabili ng underwear!!"
Nanlaki ang kaniyang mga mata, hinihingal pa siya sabay takip ng sariling bibig. Oh no. Hindi niya napigilan ang sarili. Damn her bratty attitude. Lumabas pa talaga kung kailan hindi niya kailangan. And now she's in trouble. She didn't know but she's very much frustrated. Dahil siguro nawala na lang bigla ang munting pag-asa sa kaniyang puso.
"How dare you to shout at my handsome goddess face! Ni hindi ka pa nakapagtooth brush."
Aba. Namumula ang kaniyang boung mukha, ito pa talaga ang galit. Damn it. Sinasabi ba nito na may bad breath siya!
Dahil sa hindi mapigilang inis, lumapit siya sa direksyon nito at bahagyang tumingkayad nang nagkaharap na sila para ilapit ang mukha niya sa mukha nito. Gusto niyang patunayan na kahit hindi pa siya nakapagtoothbrush ay wala siyang bad breath.
"Smell that fucker!! Wala. Akong. Bad. Breath. Hha!" She even breath at his face while his mouth is a bit open.
Napalunok si Blare dahil sa lapit nilang dalawa. He seems uncomfortable — plus his morning erection is totally annoying.
Gano'n ang posisyon nila nang may dumaang ilaw sa pagitan nila dahilan kung bakit napaigtad si Mikkadaise at lumingon sa pinanggalingan ng flash. Only to find out that Kendrick is just a meter away or two. He's holding a camera and looks really cute with his Naruto pajama. Humihikab pa ito. Napanganga siya. Nararamdaman niya na naman ang kakaibang bugso ng damdamin habang papalapit ito sa kanila— sa kaniya pala.
"I took a picture for a remembrance. Mama, karga mo ako."
Unconsciously, her heart race. He's calling her mama like he is really her child. And fuck her longingness inside. Gusto niya ang pagtawag nito sa kaniya ng mama. Napalunok siya ng wala sa oras at tsaka tinanggap ang kamay nito at kinarga. Ngumiwi pa siya sa kabigatan nito. And right away, nawala ang pagkainis niya ngayong umaga.
"Itimpla mo'ko ng milk. Three cups. Dali." Nananatili siyang nakatayo at dinadama ang kakaibang emosyon sa kaniyang kaibuturan. Holding Kendrick in her arms made her feel at ease.
"Mama. Anu ba?! Wag kang tanga. Itimpla mo na ako ng milk."