"why is it so cold today.." Amy was shivering. It was raining hard. "you should've wear something more warm."
Bella said while going through the notes. "How can I, what if I ran into him. I really want to look pretty in front of him". Amy's face was filled with lights. " Lucky.." Bella thought while watching her face. "we should leave now for class." Amy said after taking a look at herself in the mirror.
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"Maybe today..." He said it to himself. The cigarette was about to end. "It's almost a week you've been standing here." His friends were frustrated. He turned back. "what about your last girlfriend, when you begged me everyday to go with you to that club". He said it while throwing the cigarette that was burned long ago. " why are you bringing that up, I'm still upset about her".
"I'm gonna leave now" one said, "yeah me too" And slowly all of them left.
He put on his earphones..
*"always watched from a distance
늘 멀리서 지켜만봤죠
Because it seems like it's my love, you
내 사랑인 것 같아서 그대
I thought you were the same mind
같은 마음인 줄 알았죠
I looked somewhere else
다른 곳을 보았지만
Like the wind, like this dust
바람처럼 이 먼지처럼
Can't be caught
잡히지가 않아
I can't see
보이지않아
Remember love you
Remember love you
I love you
I love you
I believed it was love
사랑인 줄 믿었고
I called it fate
운명이라 불렀죠
Remember love you
Remember love you
I love you
I love you.."
It was still pouring out there. He closed his eyes while listening to the song.
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"Hey Amy...we're giving dinner to Mrs. Steve, it's a farewell she's leaving the college, everyone's going you guys should come too." It was Sarah, their classmate.
"we should go there too, it'd be fun" Amy was tried convince her when she was discussing the points with Sarah. "let me finish this first". She answered.
"Can I join you guys too..?? she heard a husky voice. " why not.." she heard Amy's voice.
"but I'd like to ask for a favor, I came on my bike and it's raining could you guys give me ride for a day?" She heard Amy's excited voice "yeah sure, you're our senior, we can do this for you."
She turned back to Amy, but she was alone, no one was there.
"Sorry Bella..." Amy was standing making a cute face to convince her. "Do I have another choice??" "No.." Amy said it with a smile. She laughed at her being mischievous.
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"Where is he???" Bella began to get irritated with all waiting. "He'll be here in a minute or two". Amy was nervous.
"what if he didn't came?" Her heart begun doubting. "He'll come for sure". She tried to calm herself. And just then she saw him running toward her. Her heart began missing the beats. "I'm really sorry for being late." He said it while panting. "I was caught up in something at the last moment". He brushed his hair with his hand.
"oh.. It's him" Bella took a look at him and was remembered the first day of college.
"uh.... it's fine, everyone left, we should too". Amy said while avoiding to stare at him.
Amy sat on the front and he went to the backseat. Bella started driving once they were seated.
There was slight awkwardness in car. Amy was glancing both of them from time to time.
"I should be thankful to Sam , if it wasn't for him, I wouldn't hear that conversation and might have had missed the chance to be here with her".
"Bella at least say something." Amy glanced her.
Instead of saying something, she just turned on the music.
*"Nice to meet you, where you been?
I could show you incredible things
Magic, madness, heaven, sin
Saw you there and I thought
"Oh, my God, look at that face"
"You look like my next mistake"
Love's a game, wanna play? Ay"
He shockingly looked at her. With a thought that it's for him, a smile appeared on his face.
"Screaming, crying, perfect storms
I can make all the tables turn
Rose garden filled with thorns
Keep you second guessing like
"Oh, my God, who is she?"
I get drunk on jealousy
But you'll come back each time you leave
'Cause, darling, I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream"
"She wants to tell more about herself , is it her way of doing so". He thought while watching her at her side pose. From her hair, her pointed nose and the to her lips. He was trying to save that picture in his heart and mind for the rest of the journey.
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Everyone was taking pictures with Mrs. Steve. " Asher, you should take one too". She heard someone saying his name. " I want one too" Amy said. She took one with him. She was happy to see Amy being happy like a kid who got the star she wished for. but couldn't help with the sadness showing out on her face.
just then, she heard some mixed voices. Girls were gathering around a table.
"what's going on ". Amy asked her. " I don't know". She said while looking at that table.
Just then , some girls standing next to him went back to their places.
"He's here". A light was spark through her eyes and face.
Everyone surrounding him were going back to their tables.
"Eli, you're more famous than I actually thought". She said it with a beautiful smile.
Her face went black. she couldn't help but to look at him with eyes filled with tears.
"Bella.." Amy worriedly called her. "Are you okay..".
"I'm fine.." She wanted to answer her, but the tears couldn't let her speak.
"It's Eli.. That RJ". She heard some excited classmate's voice. Some went to him for picture. She just stood there with those eyes.
He took a picture with her classmate. "He's smiling". She thought and turned her back.
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*"A broken heart is all that's left
I'm still fixing all the cracks
Lost a couple of pieces when
I carried it, carried it, carried it home
I'm afraid of all I am
My mind feels like a foreign land
Silence ringing inside my head
Please, carry me, carry me, carry me home
I've spent all of the love I saved
We were always a losing game
Small-town boy in a big arcade
I got addicted to a losing game.."
The song was playing on repeat for the last two hours. She was sitting in the same position. Her head on the the steering wheel, eyes closed opened, that scene being played in her head.
"All I know, all I know
Loving you is a losing game.."