We arrived a little before dusk at the DaeHan cinema multiplex in Chungmuro.
When we got in to the movie theater namjoon ordered me a chai bubble tea and a coffee for himself.
I know going to the movies was a cliché date, but, I get to spend time with Rm and that's all that matters to me.
He led me to the elevators and pressed the 8th floor button, he then covered my eyes with his free hand holding me close to him, and said, "I want it to be a surprise."
The elevator ride seem to be real short the doors ding opened announcing the 8th floor, bHe shuffled me out the door taking care that I I didn't fall or bump in to anything.
And covered my eyes and revealed a beautiful view of the city and we were surrounded by roses he seemed to be floating on the sky the sun was setting in all the sudden fairy lights came on throughout the balcony then namjoon holding a box got onto his knee and said, "please make me the happiest man on Earth, and be my girlfriend. I have had couple rings for months now for you and I."
I lost my voice so all I can do is nod my answer of yes I then jumped on him and kissing him fully on the mouth.
All of a sudden the people that I hadn't noticed before started clapping saying, "congratulations."
I could feel myself blushing as I got off of him, people started to take notice of who we are and got their phones out taking pictures.
Namjoon grabbed my hand, our drinks forgotten, and pulled me out of the Rose garden, This upset me a little bit, because if they where fan than we where just rude to them I hated being rude to fans.
We where in the elevator and I was pouting a little bit, RM asked, "what is wrong? Is it because those people interrupted our moment?"
I looked at him and said, "I feel like I was just rude to a bunch of fans. I hate being rude to people who support me and my career. The moment was beautiful and I will remember it for the rest of my life. because, it's our first day and moment."
I than got a message from Daesung wanting to meet me I showed RM and he said "there is no time like the present to tell him about us.."
We parked at a little out of the way from the dog themed cafe RM, gave me the feeling that he liked catching me on his arms and bridal style.
"My handsome yeobo why do you keep asking me to jump into your arms?" I asked shyly.
He gave me his dimpled smile and said, "I am practicing, for the day you become mine forever. I am going to carry you threw out our lives, and the first steps will be threw our home threshold when we get married."
I think this is when I knew I was going to fall hard and fast for this man, and become so deeply in love with him that, I didn't really care if he hurt me.
He than grabbed my hand and we walked in to see Daesung, We found him quickly and he wasn't alone, to my surprise he was with a cute girl no more than 2 years old, she was in a company provided high chair, not wasting any time on eating her ice cream.
When Daesung saw us he got up with an awkward smile to greet us. He sat down once we were seated and said, "surprise at least it was for me... But surprise anyways. This is Kang Young Ja my Daughter..."
I didn't know what to say and I figured neither could RM, Daesung continue to talk saying," I have only known about a week, she came to me via her mother. because her mother is sick and can't take care of her any longer. I don't know anything about children I'm going to need some help, and once this hits the media my career is over."
I grabbed his hand and said "you're one of my best friends I Won't Let You Suffer alone. but I need to tell you something too... I can no longer see you as a fun buddy, we can only be friends now, I've decided to take RM here up on his offer and be his girlfriend. I am sorry to break this to you now."
He smiled and said, "I don't blame you if I was a girl I'd go after him too. Now about the kid I'm leaving tomorrow probably on the same plane as your boyfriend here and I have no place to put her I was wondering if I could leave her with you Anna?"
I gave him a look as if he had just grown two heads and said "I'm leaving in 5 days for Japan if you don't mind her going on tour with me and being raised by a nanny... I guess I can tell everyone that she is a cousin that was dumped on me last minute... With my family it's possible."
"Young ja would you like to go stay with this pretty lady?" Daesung asked in a soft and tender way so as not to scare her.
The young girl gave me a shy look and then nodded her head she looks so much like Daesung,, that it was undeniable that he was her father all the way down to the nose.
I than said "why don't you and RM here catch up with each other I need to make a few phone calls."
My first call was to jyp himself, than to my manager, he was going to go buy a car seat and get my BMW for me to trade out with the truck.
I than search up some Nanny agencies then called the one with the best rating. I left a message on their machine stating that I needed an nanny that could travel and live with me and Money was no issue I wanted the best with the best reference.
When I came back to the table there was pandemonium everywhere... There was a hyper two-year-old babbling to herself, two grown men arm wrestling and being louder than the child, by taunting each other, and a very annoyed manager trying to get keys.
I went up to the table and smack both guys in the back of the head and said "you need to get your daughter and clean her up and you..." Looking at RM " need to give the truck keys to manager Lee here. So, that he can hand you the BMW keys. He has a family too you know, he doesn't want to be here forever."
They scrambled to do their task that was given to them. I bowed to manger park and said "I am sorry for any inconvenience this may have caused you tonight."
Manager Park patted me on the head and said, "I hope my girls turn out just as sweet and considerate as you."
I turned to Daesung and asked " did her mom leave a list of allergies? a passport? birth certificate? anything to let me know about this child other than her name? is she even potty trained?"
"She has a passport her mom was a girl that I had relations with in Thailand. It was supposed to be a one-night stand. But I think it went on longer than I knew about. her mother is in the last stages of cancer so she will no longer be in the picture, and her mother's family disowned her mother, and has nothing to do with the child. I wish I would have known 3 years ago about her, I would have taken care of it, I would have married her."
I gave him a stern look and said, "not all women want to be looked after and taken care of... Maybe she didn't want to be a burden in your life, or you to be a burden and hers. This child looks happy and healthy, and like she's never wanted for anything. I set up for interviews for nannies tomorrow I figured you wanted her to go home with us tonight? though I'm going to have to wear her out before we go home you gave her sugar at night time you really are a new parent if you're going to give sugar to a child after 8pm. Lucky for you what goes up must go crashing down."
Young Ja grabbed for her father he picked her up and she snuggled into his collarbone with a shy smile I figured she understood that this was her father I looked at him and asked "are you sure you want me to take her tonight I can take her tomorrow?
Maybe you want to just spend one last night with her before she's with me for a few days. I can give her back to you in Japan you should be mentally prepared by then I'll also have a nanny for you too so be a little bit easier on you. I can pick her up in the morning when I drop off RM here at the airport."
He snuggled her close already showing signs of adorations for his daughter. The site was very heartwarming.
It made me look up at RM, I could picture him being as cute with our children in the future, if not cuter.
RM looked down at me and asked, " why do you keep calling me by my stage name call me call me Namjoon or Joonie for short."
"OK Joonie only because I love you and want to make you happy." I grabbed Joonie's hand and squeezed, giving him a smile I didn't want to have him leave in the morning for American soil.
Angels weren't as big in America as we were in Asia yet. But maybe next year we'll get our world tour with the angels and as a solo act.
Look at my watch it was 9:00 at night young ja was making sleepy eyes I could tell it was about time for her to pass out.
Daesung than said, " I'll keep her tonight when your boyfriend and I go to America in the morning you can take her. I will take her back in Japan hopefully she will be ok by then to be with me... I just don't know what to do your girl tell me what to do girls are supposed to be good at this stuff reason why I called you CL will just give me shit."
I jumped up and smack him upside the head saying "language children"
He gave out groan and said, "see this is why I think you're probably better at this than I am. I'm used to saying whatever I want in front of whoever I want. now I have to be careful of her so she won't repeat me! what am I going to do I'm freaking out here."
YoungJa gave out a small yawn and snuggled closer to her father with a happy little sigh closing her eyes.
I had to leave I couldn't take the cuteness any longer. I was going to lose any cool Edge that I had, and become a total nerd for cuteness and start fangirling hardcore.
I let out fake yawn than said, "well I don't know about you two but us girls are tiered." I was pointing between YoungJa and myself.
We than said our fair wells Deasung left in his company van with his daughter and namjoon escorted me to the BMW and help me Buckle myself in only leaving my side when he got a kiss from me.
I love this romantic side of him, it made my heart flutter and sometimes skip a beat. I really didn't know what I was going to do without him, he was slowly becoming a big piece of my world.
He was already a piece of it but now that I have decided to let him in whole heartily I felt afraid that this was the beginning of the end.
We rode in a comfortable silence, he held my hand rubbing his thumb over my hand in circles It was hypnotizing eventually I felt myself drift off.
I was awoken by two pair of strong arms carrying me up a flight of stairs, I put my arms around Namjoon's neck than kissed his jawline, I felt his pulse quicken under my hands.
"The sleeping princess has awoken I see. Did you know you talk in your sleep?" he said while looking down at me.
I blushed ant said, "yes, but only when I am comfortable and feel safe. Now what weird thing did I have to say?"
He shook his head no and said, " I will never tell its a secret that I will cherish for the rest of our lives. Maybe when I am Grey and old in a rocker will I tell you."
We arrived to my bedroom or should I say our bedroom and he placed Me Gently onto the bed with a kiss.
I then slowly took off my dress only to be captured by it, he held my arms above my head, blindfolding me and only leaving my mouth open to him with my dress.
" I think I've waited patiently enough all day to worship you and your body. I'm going to take this advantage while I can." He said this and then captured my mouth again.
Moving his free hand slowly across my mid-drift, then underneath my bra wire slowly caressing the tender flesh of my breasts with his thumb.
I let out a impatient whimper ready for him, just his touch made me wet with desire, and lust.
He snapped his fingers at my bra clasp and it came undone it was quite impressive.
He then pulled my bra and dress off in one swift move, then explored my breasts with his mouth, still holding my hands above my head. I was steadily getting inpatient.
My need for him was growing in an intensifying great at this point.
He would rub his hand on my little patch of pubic hair getting close to my area but not on it teasing me and taunting me.
When I thought I couldn't take it any longer He Slipped his fingers inside of me rubbing his thumb on my clit.
I let out a moan and satisfaction raising my hips to give him better access, In no time he had me arching my back and pure pleasure asking for more for him.
He finally gave in to my begging and pleading and inserted his monster that he'd freed earlier inside me with such pleasurable Force that all I could do is gasp and then let out to a inaudible scream of pleasure.
He was gentle he let me get used to his length and girth before he started rocking his hips slipping in and out of me.
He released my hands and I held on to him wrapping my legs around his waist giving him more access wanting him inside me deeper I've been held on for dear life.
His powerful thrust had me moaning his name I eventually lost control and bit him in the shoulder as to not scream in his ear I knew his back was going to be torn to shreds from the multiple orgasms he was giving me.
We both orgasm multiple times fell onto the bed and an exhausted sweaty Heap, when he went to remove himself from me I stopped him, I liked the feeling of being complete with him inside me, and told him as much.
he was large enough flaccid that he obliged and just snuggled with me after setting his alarm for the morning.
we fell asleep in each other's arms happy and blissful at that moment, It felt as if I'd only been asleep for 30 minutes when the alarm woke me up.
I slowly got out of bed feeling last night's activities from my aching and sore muscles, not last night was worth it.
I went to the bathroom did my morning routine quickly by the time I left the bathroom rubbing a towel on my hair form my shower, I noticed that namjoon was still asleep.
Since he had a nice morning wood going on, I would just give him a blowjob to wake him up I brush my teeth again after.
I kissed him first on the mouth seeing if that would wake him up, when that didn't work I started trailing kisses Down until I got to a shaft and then started sucking on him slowly at first until finally I was deep throating, him he woke up once I started deep throating him with a "fuck that feels so good... I want to wake up Like this for the rest of my life." he than came unto the back of my mouth. I swallowed everything sucking him dry.
Getting the satisfaction of a job well done I got up saying, "get ready I am going to go get dressed, than make a quick breakfast for you."
He grabbed my hand pulling me back to bed saying, " stay with me for a couple of minutes, I still have time to hold you."
I don't know why but this act of sweetness broke my flood gate that I had been trying so hard to control.
I curled into his arms and started to cry I was going to miss him, he held me until I was done than asked, "my sweet Anna its really been hard on you hasn't it? Don't you know that even though we are apart we wont be apart in our hearts? We have Skype video calling and all sorts of electronic advancements that will keep us together." I just nodded into his head agreeing with him.
then all the sudden I got the hiccups, I hated when I got the hiccups after crying, I sounded like a mouse or squeak toy.
I buried my head into his chest trying to hide the fact that I was hiccupping, His laugh indicated that I wasn't doing a good job.
I went to get up out of embarrassment but he held me closer saying, "you can't take a monsters squeak toy away from him it's not nice, or should I call you my cute little mouse?"
I hit him on the chest pouting than tried to get up saying in between hiccups "neither....squeak.... I... Squeak.... hate... Squeak... how... Squeak... I... Squeak... sound... Squeak!"
He just laughed than let me go so I could take care of my problem.
I ran downstairs and to the kitchen I grabbed a glass of water and put a straw in it than plugged my nose and drank until all the water was gone.
This worked every time my older cousin Kendra taught me this method when we where little and it worked every time like a magic spell not only did the squeak annoy me it actually hurt my throat and diaphragm physically.
Since I was already in the kitchen I started a traditional Korean breakfast for us since I knew he wouldn't get any good Korean food in America.
I cooked, a bowl of steamed rice, with ordinary banchan right out of the fridge. Doenjang soup (soybean soup with vegetables), kimchi, bean sprout side dish, spinach side dish, steamed egg, roasted small fish.
By the time I was done Namjoon was downstairs helping set the table, I ran upstairs when finished and got quickly ready.
When I got down stairs we ate our breakfast with nice small talk enjoying what little time we had left together.
When it was time to leave his manager and the boys showed up they ate what was left of our breakfast since I made too much as always.
Than we went into my BMW that's when the questions started since I had a car seat in my car.
Taking it out and putting it in the trunk with the luggage I said, " I am going to be taking care of a 2 year old for awhile that's why I have a car seat. Her mother, Is dying and her father has to work over seas and doesn't have the means to take care of her since I am going to the airport anyways I am picking her up there."
I got in the middle of the back with Jin and Namjoon leaving a fully awake, and hyper JHope up front with their manager.
Namjoon put his arm around my waist bringing me closer to him, I placed my head on his chest taking in the smells of his aftershave cologne and something that was purely him, his own unique smell.
we eventually fell asleep together I woke up to snickering and "how cute" than all of a sudden a couple of flashes penetrated threw my eyelids.
I opened my eyes and saw that the car was still moving, I then saw a cheeky looking JHope and Jin and knew that they where the ones that woke me.
I looked at them and asked, "how many pictures did you take? Would you send them to me?" Jin fiddled with his phone for a second than my phone did my message ding.
JHope smiled and said, "I want to keep mine to myself since you already got Jin's."
I just gave him a thumbs up knowing that I couldn't really argue with the hyper and happy puppy, than snuggled back to Joonie's warmth waiting for my happy moment to turn sour at the sight of the airport.
The rest of the ride I just held onto Namjoon watching his sleeping face trying to memorize very detail.
When the airport came into view I gave Namjoon a quick kiss hoping this would wake him quickly but it failed so I took his ear and started to suck on it that didn't work either so I started to do what Jungkook dose and tickled him this worked like a charm.
He started flailing about under my fingers since I had Nails I guess it tickled them even more finally I stopped and gave him time to breathe he then looked at me and asked, "why'd you wake me up? I had this dream that you kissed me, and you even played with my ear in this incredibly sexy way, I was hoping you'd go farther."
I pointed out the car window and showed him that we were already at the airport, thankfully no fans were out to waiting for us, they thought that the boys left yesterday.
We went to the VIP section and handed the keys to the valet to be parked after we got the boys bags out of the car and onto the cart Jin was kin d enough to replace the car seat for me.
We went through the Airport headed straight for the VIP lounge that kept us away from everybody else.
we had our sunglasses and mask on and our hats, you couldn't tell who we were, just that we didn't want to be noticed or bothered.
In the VIP lounge I took my mask hat and sunglasses off, as soon as I did this a little body came and attached herself to my leg.
I picked up the little girl making Jin and JHope squeal, because they love children, the two guys kept pestering me to hold her but she clung to me like a spider monkey.
I smiled at YoungJa and asked, "now where is your silly appa? He must be worried and looking for you."
Than I noticed a sleeping Daesung and manager, Than said to the little one, "its been tough on you hasn't it? Well until they have to go on the plane with your daddy I have two friends that want to play with you. One is a handsome prince the other turns into a horse, you want to come and see which is which?"
she nodded understanding what I was saying and I took her over to Jin and JHope. She grabbed for JHope saying, "handsome prince me want handsome prince!"
I laughed at Jin's Fallen face he really did think he was the most handsome man of all then said, "I guess that makes Jin the horse."
YoungJa was petting HoSeok's Face happily babbling to him how pretty he was.
I patted Jin on the back and said, "we can't win them all some girls just like what they like. Now I am going to go slap her father awake and get on to him. You two good with her?"
"Yeah we are good I am going to win her over with my dazzling personality combined with my good looks." he than gave me his finger hearts and went to play too.
I than went behind Deasung and his manager and slapped them upside the heads asking, "where is YoungJa? You idiots! Did you forget her?"
They both got up in a panic with wild eyes they started to look for her under seats I then stated, "she is with Jin and JHope, but she was running around here unsupervised your lucky she wasn't stolen!"
I then turned my heal and went to spend time with Namjoon until he had to go, I sat next to him and held his hand and started to sing quietly to myself, As I was singing YoungJa came bringing the guys with her she got into my lap with a sleepy yawn and as I finished my song she was fast asleep along with JHope and Jin.
I took a quick photo of the two who looked funny, Namjoon looked at me than said, "you need to send this to me."
I nodded not wanting to wake YoungJa with my voice I Edit it a little than sent it to him when he got it he busted out laughing.
The all call for all of their flight was then announced everyone but YoungJa woke up and got up, still holding YoungJa I got on my tipsy toes and kissed Namjoon.
I grabbed the diaper bag and YoungJa's little suit case with my free hand.
I walked them as far as I could, with one final hug from everyone they than turned and left us standing there.
When I couldn't see them any longer I took the sleeping child and all of her things home, YoungJa woke up mid car ride crying and asking for her daddy.
I felt bad for this child having to be passed from one adult to another, not really having any stability.
I pulled over at a vacant park and tried to calm the upset child I than asked if she was hungry.
I dug threw her bag and found some cereal in a zip lock bag and a sippy cup full of juice.
When YoungJa was settled I went home, Today was already starting off exhausting and its only 5 in the morning.
When I we got home I sent Joonie a message saying, "got home safe already miss you. ❤ -A" I knew it would be a while before he would get the message.
I made breakfast for a now fully awake YoungJa while she was watching Pororo and playing with the stuffed animals fans had given me.
When breakfast was done that's when the nanny's came for interviews, Who knew that nanny's came in all shapes, sizes, age sex and temperament.
there is one lady who told me that she believed in corporal punishment and if I didn't like it she didn't care.
Another told me that even though she was going abroad with me not to expect her to be with the child at all times and she only worked 2 days out of 7.
I had a religious nut that asked me if I was saved and if I wasn't I was going to hell.
I had an old Mrs. Doubtfire type who complained that she didn't want to go overseas because of her hips and knees then there was a young 20-something lady who had piercings all over her face and very dark eyeliner she was a little scary.
Their was also Manny Yao Chen a Chinese American that I recognized from when he was a trainee at jyp.
He was a little embarrassed that he quit and became a man nanny Manny for short.
I remembered that he had a hard time at jyp he couldn't find what he was passionate about he was okay at rap and he was okay at dancing and singing but nothing ever really stood out what he was great at other than taking care of everybody else.
His resume was immaculate he knew seven different languages and went through all of the child education classes required of nannies Plus he knew CPR and the Heimlich for children and adult he had basic first aid training and YoungJa, Took to him like a duck to water.
by the time he left I've made up my mind I liked him I knew him so I was going to call the agency and tell them who I picked and not to send anybody else.
We got to know each other again he told me that he was a Manny to pay for college he wanted to be a teacher and this was good experience.
He was dating a guy that worked as a hair and make up technician, This made me feel little at ease about leaving YoungJa with him.
I told him that blackpink stole my hair and makeup Tech, and that he should give my number to his boyfriend.
I then asked if he could start immediately because towards the end of our conversation, I got message from Shay saying emergency at work with a back up dancer/ trainees.
I packed up the diaper bag making sure there was extra everything because I didn't know how long I was going to be at work. we all then loaded up in my BMW, Wasting no time getting to the jyp building.
when we got there all hell is breaking loose I hurried and parked the car into the parking garage trusting that YaoChen could take care of YoungJa I hurried inside leaving them behind yelling "take her straight to my office on the 3rd floor! It has my name on it!"