When I got to my penthouse suite across the hall from the boys I was bombarded by excessive amounts of questions from Allen and the meathead. Allen lead the way to a large white sofa than asked, "are you doing OK?"
Feeling the exhaustion from the day I just nodded and asked, which room is mine.
He pointed to the second door on the right. I made my way to my room slowly thinking about what all had happened today.
technically Joonie has not been dating me for more than two weeks but by Dahee's massages he has been dating her for more than 3 years...
Why is it that theses guys think I am up for helping them cheat on their girlfriends? I know I am easy but darn it all I have my own set of morals too.
I got tired of being surrounded by the pale blue walls of my room so I opened up my e-mail and got the information about the girl I was supposed to check out. Her name is Choi Jasmin 18 years old her picture was included in the the file that was sent to me.
She was cute I was excited to get to know her.
I hopped into the shower than let out my frustration and hurt feelings by sitting on the floor and letting the warm water fall on to my back caressing me.
Jin started to knock on the door in a worried voice he asked, "honey are you OK in there?"
I just said, "I am fine just let me be for a little bit."
After a bit suga kicked open the door and It scared the crap out of me he hurried to the shower and yanked the door open he picking me off the floor the water sokeing him threw his clothes.
At this point I didn't care my legs felt stiff and I wanted a hero, any hero would do.
He gently put me in bed and covers me up with the blanket seeing that I was cold to the touch due to the show running out of hot water he started to take his clothes off yelling "the get in here now!"
The came running in to the room lime his hair was on fire h^ than took a moment to try and figure out what was going on. Yoogi than stated,"she is too cold strip down to your underwear and get into bed with her to warn her up. "
Tae hurriedly took his clothes off and with no hesitation he got under the covers with me soon to be followed by Yoogi.
Tae had a a look of shock on his face when he wrapped his muscular arm around me and found that I was naked underneath theme covers.
Yoogi calm self as always the only difference from his face from earlier was a slight tinge of red.
Tae asked, "why hasn't everyone come back from dinner yet? Even her staff is still gone."
"I don't know but she still feels so cold help me rub some warmth into her or we will have to call an ambulance."
Yoogi said this with a hint of despair.
"why hasn't she said anything yet is she breathing? She is so blue in the face."
I started shivering at Tae's words it felt as if I was taken out of a trance
Looking at Tae in shaking voice I said," just shut up and hold me it's too cold, I need you."
"well that answers your question." Suga replied in a slow calm voice, as if him being too loud would break me.
I grabbed his hand and Tae's and pulled them closer to me relishing in the warmth that was emanating of their toned dancers body's.
After awhile they both fell asleep clutching them to me as if I was going to be taken from the at any moment.
Looking a their sweet faces I knew right then I would be OK and that I was finally able to stop being hurt by what Tae did to me I had forgiven him completely as I would Joonie. I just needed some time for the hurt to subside.
I felt that is with time went by I would have to reevaluate my life do a nice assessment of my actions and how they myself and others around me it wasn't as if I intentionally try to hurt people or be hurt by people. It just seemed as if that was how life was.
I hadn't realized that I had dozed off until suddenly I heard a glass shatter onto the hard oak floor.
The shatter woke all three of us up quickly the blankets falling off my bear torso, showing a stunned bear of a bodyguard everything that the good lord gave me.
Chul Soon was standing there as if he didn't know what to do with himself.
A tray of food on the ground with broken glass.
My embarrassment seemed to have no boundaries, soon after a very worried than stunned Allen came jogging into the room seeing what the commotion was about.
It felt like a lifetime but it was only but it was only a few moments of us just having a staredown not wanting to move and making the awkward situation even worse.
Finally as if a spell has been lifted Tae and Suga in unison covered me up with their hands each yelling "it's not what you think." "we didn't do anything! I promise!", their faces flushed with embarrassment.
It became even more embarrassing when they both realized that they had a breast each covering them up with their hands and let go revealing me for the second time this time I covered myself up with the blanket.
The guys got up out of the bed while Chulsoon watched their every movement like a parent ready to kill.
Trying to defuse the situation Suga piped up saying "it's official now everyone in our group has seen you naked but J-hope and Junkook. They will be highly disappointed by this. Damn baby girl you are fine to bad nothing happened."
I could feel the blush of embarrassment hit me from the roots of my hair to the tips of my toes. I finally was so embarrassed that I laid back down and cover my head with the white covers. I felt the bed cave as someone started to occupy part of the bed.
Allen's voice was a lot closer now when he said, "baby girl if nothing happened between you and these very yummy men than I bet you are very flustered and horny at the moment do I need to get that boy toy you call a boyfriend in here?"
I pulled the covers down to show I was very much not amused giving him the stink eye. A smirk was gracing his full lips and their was a mischievous glint in his eyes that spoke volumes and it didn't look good for me.
Once the everyone cleared out Allen went over to the closet where he had put and organized my things.
Allen carefully selected a pair of ripped bleached out jeans, a lacy crop top shirt that only cover my chest, leaving my abdomen exposed.
Allen after a lot of deliberation matched my white lace bra and panties set with his current outfit choice.
he than found some white high tops with angel wings and he added some silver bangles silver hoop earrings and a long hanging Gothic cross necklace.
Looking down at the outfit in his hands he examined it carefully making sure that it all looked pristine not a wrinkle in place or a crease where it shouldn't. Placing the outfit on the provided desk carefully he turned to me and out right smiled right before he grabbed the blankets and shouting, "time to dress miss nudist."
I let out a loud squeak not use to him seeing me naked than I remembered he is gay and all my girl parts probably didn't do anything for him or his libido.
I hurried inside the bathroom and took a quick shower than did my usual morning routine though I let my hair stay wet so Allen could style it to perfection like he always dose.
Still a little embarrassed about Allen seeing me naked I stayed quiet as he flat ironed my hair straight trying to avoid his eyes in the mirror.
He finally slammed the brush down on the vanity and said, "would it make you less stiff if I pulled my black cobra out and showed it to you?"
My heart about stopped I didn't know if he was joking or not so I held in the giggle for him naming his member a black cobra.
Taking deep breaths was not working at all.
so I busted out a loud snort as he was clamping the retrived hot iron down he got my ear instead of hair.
I got up fast and ran to the little kitchen area of the suit and dunked my head in the sink while running water over it and my head.
Chulsoon chose this moment to let my appointment in the door at that moment her wide eyes were the first thing I saw when I came up.
Giving a watered down smile I said, "hi what's up?"
She started to fan girl all over the place talking very fast, "OMG it's Angel Anna I can't believe it's really you your suppose to be in Korea! Not standing right there wet!"
"calm down little one, I am a person I eat and sleep like everyone else. Let me get a towel and we can get down to business."
Allen handed me a towel and whispered "I handled meeting you way better." I smiled and nodded.
Chulsoon had shown Choi Jasmin to her seat as I wrapped a towel around my head.
Allen stopped me before going to her and checked the burn on my ear he then gave a clicking sound as if he hadn't been able to fix it.
It didn't hurt anymore so I knew I wasn't scared.
Jasmin was absorbed in her thoughts when I sat down in front of her on the suits provided white couch.
I waited patiently for her to snap out of her fan girl daze before I asked, " would you like anything to drink or eat I can order room service. I honestly have not eaten today so I am going to be rude and order something."
Her large green eyes got wider than she said, "oh man I am early and I messed up your breakfast. Though I was so nervous meeting JYP that I haven't even eaten anything too."
I smiled at her frankness I liked her so I asked, "allergic to anything?"
She was star struck again and just shook her head "no" I picked up the phone on the glass side table and dialed out the man on the other end said the hotels name and ask how he could serve me.
"I need to put in a order to the kitchen." he said one "moment please"
Than on the other end another person said, "kitchen may I take your order?"
"3 scrambled egg whites with Munster cheese fruit salad no bread anywhere and a tea set for me for my guest..." I looked at Jasmin she said, "the same. "
So I replied, "she wants the same so two cups my staff will have a all protein breakfast with fruit and hashbrowns. Make it a serve yourself. When you bill my room make the tip 30% of the bill. Thank you."
I then gave them my room number and hung up.
Now I was focused on Jasmin she started to fidget under my stare so I asked, "how long have you been into music?"
She mumbled, "I started to play instruments when I was 16 so two years I have always liked music though."
This was a problem she was far behind the others in her age group.
"if you want to come to our country and company your going to work hard harder than others and with out complaints. Can you do that?"
That when I saw the fire in her eyes she said a determined "yes"
"I watched your YouTube videos your good will you want to stay with your band or branch out?"
"my members are all going to collage they are all brains I not stupid I just feel like I am supposed to do something else with my life."
"I feel you may have some miss conception about my life. I have several collage degrees in music and business I did that while training and being an idol, you sign the contract you will be signing yourself to us to be controlled for 7 years, from your diet all the way to your personal life you won't have anything it's like the army but with out phones and personal time. But we will make you the best of the best if your willing to put in the time and effort and after 7 years if you feel like we did a good job you can stay with a new contract and shares in the company."
I was interrupted by a knock on the door Allen let the waiter in to set up.
I got up and went to the table Jasmin followed.
I sat down and placed a napkin in my lap. The food looked good but since I was going on tour I had to have strict diet so the bland food was what I got, thank god for fruit.
I smiled at Jasmin and asked, "is this alright I am on a diet for Tour and this is breakfast, Enjoy."
She dug in and ate fast while I slowly chewed each bite knowing that lunch and dinner were going tpo be a lot less.
When my breakfast was Finnished I looked at the sausage and bacon on Allen's plate like it was a long lost friend.
I did steal some if his hashbrowns they were like the ones you get at McDonald's I missed McDonald's.
Jasmin asked, "so why are you here and not JYP himself?"
"he had some pressing business to attend with and since my boyfriend was here I got the offer to do your interview. I am also taking mental notes on what we will have to work on." I took a sip of my now warm tea.
Jasmin asked, "what are they so far?"
I really liked her so straight forward.
"manners like table educate how to dictate your words with out mumbling no spacing out its rude, how to conduct an interview and be in one, how to dress for an interview and a few other notes."
She nodded than said, "that's a lot of notes what's wrong with my clothes?"
"next time a mid calf pencil skirt with a unstained blouse a pair of pumps or high heels your Nails need to be be chewed up and painted panty hoes not fish net stockings we are a lady not a street walker. We also brush our hair nicely not in sailor moon buns. I don't mind the pink hair As long as it is styled nicely with your pretty big eyes soft large curls framing your face will do nicely in any color your make up is heavy which brings out wrinkles. If you would like I can have Allen show you what I mean."
She nodded curious about what she would look like if she took the pop princess advice.
"Chulsoon I need you to pick up some things for me I will text you the pictures of what I want and what size when you get to stage. Here is my card expensive is good plus you look like you need some more nice button ups that one has a stain. Now be quick."
He nodded his head keeping his thoughts to himself before leaving I quickly pulled up stages web page and found the things I wanted and sent him pictures.
I found the look I wanted Allen to do and showed him he got excited and started clapping his hands.
Allen looked at Jasmin, "baby girl your head is in for a treat I am going to wash and blow out your hair than so some awesome curls. I will then take that mess you call make up off you and fix it. By the time I am done with you even my boyfriend will be looking at you."
It took us half an hour but when we were finished she looked beautiful. Chulsoon came back with bags in hand his large frame looking out of place.
He handed me the bags keeping one for himself I was hoping he took my advice and got himself a couple of good shirts.
As Jasmin was changing her clothes, their was a knock on the door, to my dismay and joy it was Joonie I had mixed feelings for sure but I wasn't going to let him mess me up or my career.
I had to put on a show for everyone it pisses me off last I'm did it anyways I would act like a adoring girlfriend and as if nothing was wrong or that I wasn't pissed.
"Joonie you're here!" I gave him a long hard kiss to tease him I knew he always got hard when I kissed him, he did even if I took him off guard.
"my angel have you stopped being angry with me?"he grabbed my shoulders and looked into my eyes he was desperate for me to believe in him.
I got a knot in the pit of my stomach. I was in love with this man who just hurt my trust in him, as long as I am in a relationship with him I will be second guessing him, and will be suspicious of his every move.
My heart said stay but my mind said no I need to look out for myself first I would give it six months but I can't for my hearts sake do any longer.
I lead Joonie to the couch and had him sit I knew Jasmin would be back any moment so I said in a low voice where he could only hear, "I am interviewing a girl for JYP and she will be back in a moment."
I looked him straight in the eyes, "Behave yourself I am very much still pissed off but I am a professional first it's our job to fake it until it is acceptable to breakup with out it hurting both of our careers, or do you want me to do it now and make you a social leper."
"Fuck I was hoping that I could Make it up to you I don't want you to leave me I love you Anna, I want you and only you." He said this so quietly that I almost didn't hear him.
I wanted to cry nd hit him and ask him why he lied to me, I wanted to know if he loved her too, I wanted to go back before I knew anything, I also wanted A lot of things I knew I wouldn't get.
Jasmin came into the room and she was jaw dropping her black pencil skirt with a dark silk ruffled blouse looked good on her ChalSoon even got her pearl necklace set panty hose and high heels.
I took out my phone and took a picture than I waved her over to sit with us asking, "do you know who this is?"
She looked over at Joonie and gave him a unmasked hostel look and said, "yeah I know him he is the scumbag that made my friend cry yesterday. He is no idol of mine."
I really like this girl I was going to keep her and that was final hell if Appa Jinyoung didn't want her I would start my own company just for her.
I looked at her and smiled saying threw my teeth, "he is unfortunately my Current boyfriend who is currently trying to earn back my trust in him. So you know Dahee as well?"
"yeah we work at the same club she was so excited that this ass was coming she saved for months only eating ramen to buy a outfit that was high class and would make him show her off. Then when he showed up he blew her off until he showed up at our job then he couldn't keep his hands off of her I guess a fan was there and got some photos to sell to the tabloids."
She looked in his eyes never wavering as she spoke about Dahee she never once looked at me as if I was the other woman I respected her.
Joonie was feeling ashamed of himself he lowered his head and said, "I loved her I really did but when she got out of prison she didn't even ask if I was okay with her leaving she just assumed we would be a long distance relationship I tried I really did than I stopped trying really I than fell for Anna I still loved Dahee too so I figured Dahee would be my American girlfriend while Anna was my Korean one who would it hurt they would never find out the live on the other side of the world from each other. Than Anna and I got caught beong romantic so our companies decided to make us official I was still getting away with it so I agreed. I wanted Dahee and I to be out of the public eye so this would not happen. I didn't want to hurt anyone."
I could feel the ice coming my heart again I knew it was time to send Jasmin away before I showed her how hurt I was and embarrassed that I brought this upon myself again.
I smiled at Jasmin and said, "well now you and I know I think I will call you another day on if you got in, I will vote for you but the board will have the final say. Thank you for your time, Chalsoon and Allen will will escort you home."
I think she understands that it was time for me to commit some kind of violence and I was getting rid of any kind of witnesses, the two big and bulky men and Little Asian girl took no time to leave.
When I knew that we were alone I didn't cry or hit him I just calmly asked, "why do you men like hurting me am I just that easy? Or do I just deserve it in some way? I try to be a good person and I know I love easily but I feeling are genuine."
"Anna I am sorry if I had know you would get hurt I wouldn't have done it, your so easy going I didn't think it would hurt you until it was too late." I knew he was being sincere but I kept ask8ng myself is he an idiot.
"how on god's green earth did you not think cheating on her and turning me into the other woman not going to hurt me?"
I started to dig my nails into my palms to control myself, "I am easy but I do have morels I don't like being used to cheat on some one."
I could feel myself starting to crumble a bit, "I think you need to go back to your own suite across the hall. When you get back to Korea I will let you dump me. Until then don't call email or write don't text me or have any of your members contact me on your behalf."
My body betrayed me in that moment and a tear slipped out I didn't want to cry and show him how much I was hurt by him.
He got up and with one final look back he walked out of my life forever.