The next day I woke up to the most beautiful sight a girl could see, Kim fucking Taehyun was in my arms smiling at me.
My heart swelled with happiness at the sight of him in all his glory it made me want to kiss him hard but the taste of my morning breath was preventing that so I pecked him on the cheek than ran to the restroom to brush my teeth and do my morning routine.
It then ran back into the room and jumped onto the bed and kissed him roughly not wanting to miss any second of being with him. When we where done he got up and went to the bathroom for a few minutes when he got out he stated, "I am going to make you breakfast, since I can hear you stomach from here."
I just nodded, did he even know how to cook? when he left the room I hurried and put on my work out clothes and pulled my hair up in a ponytail. I was not going to miss the Miracle of him cooking.
While I was watching him cook sitting on the counter top, I started to humm to myself, Tae was listening while cooking bobbing his head to the beat I was drumming on the counter top.
Finishing I went behind him and gave him a back hug, I was happy to have him here I enjoyed our comfortable silence.
I didn't care if he was a idol, or that he looked like god took special care when he made him, I just love him, He is my Tae who is the one person who loves all of me flaws and all.
I hugged him tightly and a tear slipped down knowing that I wasn't good enough for this man in my arms, all I could here was the bullies speaking to me saying, "your nothing but trash." "your a stupid whore go kill yourself ""I don't know why I gave birth to a piece of shit like you. Why don't you do us a favor and die already." "the only thing you are good for is your pussy and making money." "unnie don't tell me you love me its like a germ telling it's host that I love them. You are too stupid and ugly to love. Family whores don't deserve to love or be loved."
My ears where drowning in the insults that where breaking me time and time again. But I didn't want Tae to see all the self doubt. So, I took a deep breath inhaling his smell that was wholly Tae and smiled.
He placed a hand over mine and held it. Our moment was interrupted by my phone ringing. I gave him a kiss on his back before leaving to answer my phone.
I picked it up and it was my sister telling me that she was coming over. She didn't even give me a chance to refuse her before she hung up.
I ran to the kitchen and told Tae to expect her. He nodded in understanding and finished up cooking we where sitting down eating enjoying the small talk when someone impatient started to bang on my door.
I opened it up to a sneering Ren, she pushed me out of the way and said, "move it you stupid whore. I am not here to socialize with a nasty cunt like you I want to be out of here as soon as possible."
She stopped her insults when she saw Tae she blushed then turned on her sweet sister act saying, "unnie you didn't tell me you had a guest! hi I am Ren, Anna's baby sister. Don't worry ,I know who you are, no introductions needed."
She than grabbed on his arm and looked up at a very smiley Tae I brought them to my couch and they sat down together. She than looked at me and said, "unnie mommy and daddy won't pay my school fees anymore saying I am old enough to get a job to pay for them. But, if I do that I won't be able to study will you help me out? It's just $700 you can even wire it to my account."
I sighed and said," I will pay it. But, I will go to your school and pay it myself."
She shook her head and said, "oh, no unnie you can't do that you will get mobbed by your fans you might even get hurt!"
I smiled at her fake sincerity knowing she just wanting money but I wasn't going to give it to her, saying, "It's OK, I love you Ren, and maybe if I show up with you, you will get more friends. I have no problem with meeting my fans on top of that I have fun signing autographs for all of your friends too."
She pouted knowing that if she yelled at me she would look bad in front of Tae so she gave in and said, "unnie your the best! I have to go to school now. I love you, see you later."
I stopped her and said, "all I have ever wanted was for you to be happy. I love you more than there are stars on the sky."
I used our saying from when we where real little and when she still loved me. She hesitated and said," I know unnie."
When I walked her out I grabbed my wallet and gave her the cash in it saying," I know you just needed money but now I get an opportunity to help you have a better life in school than I did. I really do love you Ren."
She sneered at me and said," he is not watching now stupid whore. I don't care if you love me or not just go and die already it will make the world a happier place." She than she left with a piece of my broken heart.
I followed her out and yelled, "no matter how much you hate me I will always love you." I really hoped she was having a OK time at home.
I than ran up the stairs to the roof and cried, I cried hard. I really did love my sister I don't know why she hates me so much, what did I do to earn all of her hate?
When I was finished crying I waited a few minutes making sure my face wasn't still red and puffy before making my way down to my apartment.
Tae was taking a nap on the couch. I went to clean up our dishes to find them already done. Smiling to myself I went and changed into my workout clothes.
I needed to go to the gym for some rest and relaxation, that and it was self-defense day. Mr. Lee would be mad if I missed today's session. We where starting kick boxing.
I decided black was my color today so I had on my black work out clothes. I was putting on my black jacket when arms where snaking around my waist. I looked up at Tae and said," I was going to leave a note. I have to go or Mr. Lee will make me stay and extra hour. Two hours away from you is already to long for me."
He kissed me and than said, "why don't we stop by my dorms and to let me get ready too and we go together?" I nodded and we left my dorms hand in hand.
When we got to his dorms we walked in to moaning the boys where watching porn very familiar porn than all a sudden I herd my voice yell Jin's name. I was frozen the camera cut to me on top of jimin.
A tear slipped out all of a sudden I herd Jin say "at least I got her to moan my name, Jimin where you even doing it right?" Than Junkook piped up and asked, "do you think Tae hung got his filmed? This is awesome to watch!"
I looked at a guilty looking Tae, tears streaming down my face from all the hurt, I turned around and left.
But only after I hearing suga say "you guys are fucking idiots and will get caught. Leave me out of it, I am going back to sleep. Nam Joon better not find out he will fucking kill you all you know how he feels about her. Jungkook J you guys better not be involved she at least needs some friends left."
I than with tears still in my eyes went to Mr. Lee the only man that has never asked anything from but to take care of my body.
When I got to the gym I ran and hug him crying hard he just held me taking me to his office. He let me cry it out once I calmed down he didn't ask any questions just said, "it's time now to work out all the sadness and frustration if you're angry be angry at the bag hit those who hurt you. I am not going to ask because it's none of my business. But just remember if you need to let it out I am always here. Think of me as your uncle Lee."
I than put in my music and did my stretches when I was done I went over and got a jump rope and did some speed jumping.
While working out I had time to think and I could only come to one conclusion I need to discuss this with JYP and see what my options where. Is it illegal to film me with out my consent here in Korea like it is in the US?
All I know is I was hurt and betrayed and I was contemplating becoming a lesbian since men kept letting me down maybe CL will be my main woman I always thought if I turned lesbian she would be the first woman to try and experiment with.
When I got to the bags Mr. Lee showed me the proper forms I need to use when I got it down I saw my father's face on it and started to kick and get it as hard as I could the faces changed from my father to my mother to Jimin Jin and Tae to the old men that grabbed at me and tried to force themselves on me I was finally letting out my hurt and anger.
I kept breathing in then out with every punch eventually getting a nice Rhythm soon I was relaxing my pent up emotions evaporated for the time being.
By the time I was done Uncle Lee came up to my collapsed form he than handed me a water saying, "remind me not to piss you off I was worried you would break my bag. That and you scared off some of my customers they told me to call them when the angry female wasn't on the loose."
I giggled and asked, "was I really that scary?"
He nodded while replying, "my ex wife use to get that look where I knew she was going to try cutting my throat in my sleep. Who ever it is that pissed you off I feel for them. " he helped me up I winced in pain I knew I was going to be bruised and sore tomorrow.
I looked at the time and saw it was almost time for Ren's lunch break I went to the locker room and took a quick shower than changed into my spare clothes in my bag.
I took a taxi to Ren's school and when I entered I forgot my mask and glasses so people took notice of me I stopped a cute boy on my way in and asked Jimin a nervous voice, "mm... Excuse me student can you please show me to the office? I need to help my little sister Ren."
His eyes widened and he blushed hard gulping he said while stuttering, "y-your angel Anna!" That caught the attention of students near by so I smiled at him and asked, "would you like silica? Once I am done in the office?"
He nodded and took me to the office quickly since a small crowd of students was forming in the entry way of the school.
I paid I also paid for her other school fees, up till she was a senior and than gave a autograph to each staff member and took pictures with them also I than asked the principal if I could have Ren the rest of the day he permitted it and called her to the office.
When Ren and I left I had to stop and take photos with the students and sign autographs they where eager with anticipation as they surrounded us.
The cute boy was last to leave asking if I could take a silica while I kissed his cheek. I didn't see any harm in it so I did.
Ren when we left asked, "why did you help that loser nerd like that no one in school likes him. Why did you take me out of school today?"
I smiled at her and said, "first I thought he was cute plus needs have a way to sneak up on you and capture your heart. And second you want money and I need your help. plus I want to go shopping. You where the only one I wanted to shop with." That took her by surprise and got her curiosity.
She looked at me and smiled figuring out it was a diabolic plan I had in mind if I was asking her for help, "who do you want to destroy big sister?"
I took her to a small out of the way cafe, I told her everything about what happened with Jin, Jimin, and V by the end she was smiling. "damn I knew you were a hoe but holy crap those are some sexy men you hooked up with. Do you want to ruin their lives or scare the shit out of them I am good eaither way."
By her smile I could see she had already formed a plan. Now for negotiations, She said, she would help me for $2000 I would have gone to $5000 but I didn't saying anything.
Since we only really know American law we googled what our options were in consenting to being filmed, it wasn't good.
I didn't want to send them to jail but I did want to scare them to not do it to another girl. so we came up with a plan I wasn't scared of being in pain like she was suggesting I just hoped it wasn't her way of killing me off forever.
When we had our plan decided we went shopping it was fun we got along and everything it felt like we were young again before she started to hate me for becoming an Idol and leaving her with our parents.
When I got home I wrote a letter to the boys explaining to them how hurt I am and how I was so disappointed in Jin and Tae the most they where supposed to be my best friends the people I could trust and rely on the most.
I left them on my dresser and went to the bathtub I filled it with some hot water and mint lavender bubbles and got in. I didn't have my phone anymore I gave it to Ren she knew what to do with it she was supposed to call the home phone repeatedly for a few minutes then try to call Jin, Tae or Jimin from my phone then hers too try and get a hold of them with in a few minutes if they didn't answer than she was to call RM or suga to get them to open the door and find me.
As I cut my wrist watching the blood spill I felt relieved maybe this won't work maybe all of my pain will finally be over and they will be too late on finding me.
I became sleepy and so I closed my eyes feeling a new kind of peace wash over me. It felt as if I was floating in the vast sea of nothingness not anchor to hold me down.