I first met the thirty-four years old Sebastian Archante in our first filming of my new movie which he directed. The first time i laid my eyes on him, i flushed because i didn't know that this famous Director is this handsome. I heard that he's really an idol to the people but i've never expected him to be that handsome. We are not that close but we're talking to each other during the set.
I said to him 'i think i like you, no, i think im inlove with you' that time i was very confused of my feelings for him. I asked myself everyday i just met him, why would i love him that fast. We become closer and closer and he even laughed, that time i thought i was really smitten to him.
We last talked to each other was a day before the award ceremony. I felt proud actually because i made the cold and serious Director Sebastian Archante laugh. I thought i finally got him, i thought i finally got his attention, after of almost months of loving him, i thought i can finally be able to make him mine but i can't. When i met him outside of the gate i know it, deep inside of my heart but i denied it yet my assumptions are right.
He is now in front of me with his usual serious face, but i cannot make myself smile like i usually do when i meet him. Because right now he's not just Sebastian Archante to me, because he is now my Mom's boyfriend for a year.
"Sebastian you knew how i love you, how i adore you, how so much i want you. I want you to be mine, and i said it countless of times to you, but i was just making a fool out of myself. You knew i was your girlfriends daughter, if you said it earlier i might surprass my love for you, if i know this would happen i wouldn't have loved you." i said while my tears is again started pouring non-stop while he's looking at me.
He took a step and wiped my tears using his thumb. "Didn't i already said it? I pushed you away, and i said it was wrong for you fall inlove with me."
"Then you should pushed me harder, Sebastian! How can i face my mother now? How can i accept this? You want me to accept."
"I want you to tolerate it, not accept it. I love your, Mother and i also want you to accept it. But i just want you to tolerate it because i know you can never accept it, i am just your friend your love for me will die down and in the end you will love someone else and not me. I am just your friend, Amora so you should forget me."
It actually hurts, that your love said it with his mouth that he doesn't love you. I know it, i knew he wouldn't love me like i do for him. But its hard to accept that instead of someone else it is actually my mother whom he's inlove with.
I step backwards that made me far away from his touch, his smell and him. I wiped my tears and smiled even though it hurts. "I guess you are right, i will definetly love someone else, my feelings isn't that deep right? I will definetly forget you, and i will love somebody else. But i am begging you Sebastian, hurting me is enough but don't you ever hurt my mother. Maybe now i am angry, but i still love my mother. If i will choose to let go one of you, i will choose to let you go. Because letting you go is my own way of saying i love you."
I said and pointed my Mom's luggage not that far away. "I guess you entered here for that, please get it and go out now. I don't have time to entertain the likes of you." i said and walked away and go to the kitchen to get a bottled water in the giant fridge.
I heard the rolls of the luggage and the door closed as i opened the fridge and got a bottled water and drink.
If i can turn back the time i will definetly choose the time where i met you, and i would not fall inlove with you. Sebastian Archante.
The giant door of the mansion opened and i turned to look if Sebastian came back but i was hopefully wrong, Calla entered while carrying her chils and she is wearing a scarf, a hat, a sunglasses and a mask. She looked at where i am and she beastly walked towards the kitchen counter in front of me.
"Calla what's wrong with you, you look a haggard b*tch who is following her husband." i joked and put the water bottle in the kitchen counter while she put the cute Nathan in the kitchen counter. She then removed her hat, scarf, glasses and mask one-by-one.
"Then how about you? You look like a depressed wife whose crying for over a month because your husband left you. Tell me now, Amora! What happened in here and i saw the Director Archante with your Mom outside they're full of intimacy what the h*ll is going on?!"
She said with full of curiousity, i bitterly smiled and just looked at Nathan whose sipping his own hands. You cannot deny that maybe Nathan's father is indeed a gorgeous man because i guess Nathan never had a feature from his Mom.
"Well they're couple so supposedly they should be intimate, they're afterall together for a year, and my Mom choosed to go away because she choosed him over me. I just also know that my fathers heart attack is also because of this mess, and now i let go my love and happiness to my, Mom. Is that the answer you want me to tell you?"
I said and looked at Calla whose face sadden, her eyes is full of care and sadness. But i choose to gave a fake smile which i think she also know what means. "Director Archante isn't that handsome, he's not that a loss. And in fairness of your Mom who really choosed a young man! Your Mom is also kinda that 'S' word you know."
"Calla!"
"Chill im just saying the truth i saw your Mother and Director Archante outside and they're lovey dovey, your Mom feels like she is a teen even though she's not. Your Mom wouldn't let go of Director Archante because she looks very inlove with him."
And again, i hurted myself with the truth that i really need to let go. Letting go is the truth that i should choose because i never gotten his heart from the first place, it's has always been Anastasia Beatriz Monteverde-- my mother.