"Mom, you know what lets about this some other time. Im depressed, i can't go to work, with your news im still shocked. I am deeply shocked, so if you want me to keep living please spare me as of the moment. Im in pain, because Dad died and now im in pain again because of you. Is our family cursed? Its looks like God hates me the most."
I said and frustrated walked away in the sofa but i cannot even step far away from the sofa i found a baggage, it's my Mom's baggage. And i heard the doorbell rang that made me look at the door, is my Mom going away? Is she going with his so-called boyfriend? Will she leave me alone because of that man?
"I will open the gate." my Mom said and i saw her standing up and wiping her tears. "No need, i'll open the gate." i clearly said and walked and opened our gigantic door and walked ti'll i've arrived into the small gate of our mansion, where the side of this gate is a bigger gate.
I slowly opened it, while still wearing my pink lingerie. And as i opened the door my eyes met with a familliar eyes of a man. A tall man wearing a white shirt and a black pants entered my eyes, he's also wearing a new edition of rolex, he's white, he's arms is full of tattos, and he had biceps and undeniable muscles.
A figure of a familliar man, and the dark brown eyes he had. I knew this man.
"Director Archante? What are you doing here?" i asked because when my eyes met his, i've knowned it for that moment. He's face is still serious, usually when he was even on set. "I am here to fetch your Mom." he just said that made my brows frowned.
"To fetch my Mom? Are her friend? Where are you going?"
"Didn't she told you yet? Im his boyfriend."
After he said that i feel like a deef because of silence, in fact i don't want to accept the truth about what he said. Its impossible my Mom wouldn't date a guy younger than her age, my Mom wouldn't humilliate me like this, my Mom would not date the Director i've worked with once.
"Sebastian." i heard a voice from my back and i turned around and saw my Mom's wonderful smile in her face that i thought i will only see when she's together with Dad. She rushed and even didn't mind me standing here, she run towards Director Archante and she hugged him tightly like what couples do.
Is this still my Mom?
I felt like again, i lost the only hope i had to be happy. My Mom turned to look at me and her sad eyes again came back, i felt like i am her sadness, it looks like i am her sadness, it looks like i am keeping her sad and it looks like i am the one who should let her go just to make her happy.
Everyone is taking their own happiness, but how about mine? How about my happiness?
"Mom, im afraid you can get your luggage tommorow. Cause' the pain is coming again, i thought your happiness can also give me happiness but i am wrong. You are taking your happiness, while Dad is also taking his happiness, everyone is taking their own happiness yet i don't have one. Pain is consuming my whole body, what should i do to make this pain left me? I am sad, really really sad that i cannot even face the sadness that i have." i said and looked at Director Archante who's face is still icy serious.
He is staring at me and i also did the same. "What did i do to deserve this pain?" i asked while staring at his eyes and finally closed the gate i want to close. The second i closed the door, is also the same second my tears started flowing.
My legs is shaking and because of it i ended up kneeling in the floor while crying. In all man my Mom can have, why Director Archante?
I started sobbing and i put my hands to my mouth while sobbing really hard, i am crying. Our perfect family is ruined just like this and i cannot do anything except crying.
When can i accept this? It was difficult but i still got up and ran into the big mansion, which im only the person left. I walked to the coffee table and took my phone and dialed Calla's number. After a couple of rings she answered it finally.
But i didn't say anything except sobbing really hard. "Amora?! Amora are you crying? W-What happened to you? Its still early in the morning what happened?" she asked.
"Calla, am i not a good person?"
"What are you talking about?! Amora, you're a good person, and a good daughter why are you crying now? You are scaring me Amora."
She said that made me cry with lots of tears and i closed my eyes and just feel the pain stabbin in my heart. "T-Then why? Why is this happening to me? I still can't get over to my Dad and now im ruined again because of my Mom. Is being good a sin? Is being good had to have a punishment?"
"What happen? Tell me Amora! I'll go to your house together with Nathan you better explain everythine their!" she shouted and ended the call i dropped the phone to the floor together with my knees to drop on the floor and my tears won't stop and my sob continued.
"Amora, you better be strong or you might defeated by your pains. Pain will defeat you and when that happen, you will have hatred, and when you have hatred, you'll do something you'll forever regret." a husky voice behind me said that made me open my eyes and i turned my head around and i found a serious face of Sebastian Archante.
"Then tell me what should i do?! I-- Im in pain, i-- i don't know what to do anymore. The pain that my mother had, she gave it all to me and it blew me away. She wants me to pay for her crimes, she is happier, livelier that she could ever do, while im lonely, hurting and sad. My mother is that heartless... just to continue loving you, Sebastian."
I said and stand up to be in front of him, i wiped my tears using my hands and depressingly looked at him. "She wants me to give you two a blessing, when i know i can't do that. Because i f*cking love you, and im sure you know it. I love you so much that i d*mber and d*mber when im usually not, how can i agree with this? I love you so much but you're telling me you're choosing my Mom?"