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What is that horrible sound that always wakes me up
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I turn over and put off the alarm. Sitting up with a yawn I feel so disoriented that I use a minute to take stock of myself. I feel realxed and languid and my whole bed is all scattered. Slowly the memories the past night start coming in
Oh Godd I moan while covering my eyes. I feel so embarrassed and I wonder what Jake will think of me when I just slept with him on the first date. Speaking of Jake where is he? I slip out of bed and put on a robe and leave my room. A quick search of my apartment shows me that he is not there. I imagine that he might have gone out to have coffee but deep down I have a sick feeling that he left.
Three hours later I have finally come to terms with the fact that he has left.
Which is why I am happy when Bella comes back home.
Annie?
In here I answer from my room
She bounces into my room in all her beauty. Ohhh wait I never told you how Bella looks. She is blond with a tanned skin and long legs that seem to go on forever. She also has huge blue eyes and a beautiful shape. Next to her I just seem dumpy with my boring brown hair and brown eyes but I can't seem to resent her for it because I love her so much and she is a wonderful person
Ooh what has got you so happy I tease her
Oh shut up she replies me with a huge smile.
Come on. Spill I coax her
Alright alright. Chill. So I basically met the most wonderful guy last night at the club. He is so dreamy and really handsome. We spent the night together and it was simply magical. I really think he is the one she finishes saying on a sigh.
I stare at Bella dumbfounded. Uhm Bella I start tentatively are you really sure you should be this invested in the relationship this early on. I don't want to see you heartbroken I say
Come on Annie. I have a really good feeling about this one. I really think he is the one so just wish me luck alright
Of course I wish you luck I reply I just don't want to see you hurt. And you don't have such a great record with guys although I don't say that aloud.
Oh Annie you should have seen him she says with a smile while she lies down on my bed and closes her eyes for a few minutes. I just stare at her.
She must have felt my stare because she suddenly sat up and says alright spill what happened. I noticed you have been moody ever since and I can smell a fish
Well I also met a guy last night I tell her
That's so great honey. What's his name. When do I meet him she asks
Well that's the problem I say while suddenly trying to hold back tears. It's the guy from the cafe I told you about. He came to the cafe yesterday and hounded me till I went on a date. It was so beautiful and we seemed to connect and we came back to the apartment and had the best sex I have ever had in my life. I suddenly have to break off because I am suddenly crying. Bella passes me tissues and says oh I am so sorry honey. What happened
Well this morning when I woke up he had already left. It's almost as if he disappeared. No note, no nothing. He just left me Bells. I thought we had something I say while crying. Bella just hugs me tight while I cry and I am forced to admit that she is a really wonderful friend.
I pull back and say I am so sorry Bella for dumping all these on you. I don't want to spoil your good news.
It's alright honey. I love you and I am always there for you she replies me.
This just makes me hold on to her and cry harder.
It's been two months since that night with Jake and I will like to tell myself and everyone that I have forgotten it but in reality I still cry every night and I always think about him. I know it's pathetic but I can't seem to help myself. It's almost as if he is everywhere. I have managed to stop myself from browsing him but it has been so hard. But last night I slept well and it gives me hope that I might not be so miserable throughout my whole life. Hey I might even stop being miserable by the time I am fifty. That's something. I see a customer calling me and I immediately go to answer him.
A week later I know I am in deep trouble. It all started five days ago. I kept having more sleepless nights, vomiting everytime and I never seemed to be able to keep anything down. Then Jane had to go on and talk about her cousin that just gave birth and that got me thinking about babies. I suddenly remember that I am late for my period something that has never happened and I didn't notice it because I was so caught up in thoughts of Jake. So I go to a store and buy a pregnancy kit and take the test while seriously praying it will all just be a joke and I can move on with my life. Five minutes later my life is completely turned around. As I look at the two lines on the stick, I am struck with the realization that my life is about to drastically change
Oh God I moan as I slide to the floor of the toilet where I promptly begin to cry.
That was how Bella found me maybe minutes or hours later I have no idea. Annie what's wrong. Are you okay. Are you hurt. Talk to me darling she asks me but I can't seem to form any words but I just keep sniffling and rocking myself. I hear her leave the toilet and hear her talking to someone. Is she okay the person asks I don't know but j am going to find out she answers. I think you should go and I promise to call you honey. A few minutes later I hear the front door open and close and some moments later I feel Bella sitting beside me.
What happened Annie. Come on she asks me
Wordlessly I pass the stick to her. At first she is confused but I see when the realization dawns on her
Oh God she whispers which just makes me cry harder.
She comforts me and helps me out of the bathroom, cleans me up and puts me to bed.
What are you gonna do Annie Bella asks
And for the first time since I found out I say truthfully I don't know.