The sound of a door being gently closed wakes me up. Looking at the windows, the blinds are closed so I can't guess the time. I take a few minutes to get my bearings and suddenly everything starts rushing in from the scare to the wait to the discovery that I was pregnant. I suddenly feel nauseous and I rush to the toilet where I proceed to throw up the almost non-existent contents of my stomach. Few minutes later I feel slightly better and I slide down the door. What am I going to do I moan to myself. After a while I realize I can't hide forever in here no matter how much I want to. I stand up, brush my teeth and wash my face. I then put on a robe and walk to the kitchen. I am almost at the kitchen when I bump into something solid and by solid I mean hot solid. I look up into a face of a very handsome man.
Oh hello. Sorry I didn't see you there. Are you ok. Bella I think something is wrong with your friend he says and that snaps me out of it. I realize I must have been staring at him like some sort of creep (although in my defense I was caught unawares and he is so good looking).
I then realize that this must be Bella's new man.
Sorry. Hello nice to finally meet you. You just be Joseph. I have had so many things about you I say politely
Good things I hope he says with a chuckle while pulling me along with him to the kitchen
Honey, don't stress Annie Bella scolds
Ohhh it's alright. Morning Bells I say
Ohhh honey, Bella says while walking around the kitchen counter and dragging me in for a hug. How are you doing.
Well I had a little bit of morning sickness but I am fine now I reply and I suddenly feel brave
Well how are you feeling about the baby. What are you gonna do she asks
Look I don't know Bells. I am just really trying my best not to freak out yet and I am trying to take things one step at a time. All I want right now is breakfast ok I reply her and I am embarrassed to find my eyes burning
Oh of course. I am gonna make you some breakfast but I just want you to know that whatever you decide I am there for you alright she tells me while sharing a look I don't bother identifying with Joseph.
Thanks Bella I murmur although I am beginning to freak out
Three hours later and I am fully freaking out. I try to distract myself and I tell myself that of course I am not freaking out. Then I see a baby outside throwing a tantrum and I begin to freak out again. The day seems to crawl by and all I want to do is curl up on bed. I feel so tired but I know I don't have the luxury of saying I won't work. If I want to have a baby then I must save as much as possible. That thought sends me into a new wave of panic and I feel my knees getting weak. I hold onto the counter for support. What am I going to do. I notice Jane staring at me with a concerned stare. She had already asked me twice that day if I was alright. How I wish there was some sort of manual on how to make life decisions. Hmm or maybe there is. I should Google it. I am bringing out my phone to do exactly that when a voice behinds me makes me fly around on a squeak
I don't believe I pay you to play on your phones all day miss my manager
Stuart says behind me with a glare
Sorry sir. I just wanted to check something on the net I timidly reply
Well do that on your time and not on mine he scolds me.
Yes sir I reply
He turns around to go when he suddenly turns around with an expression on his face that makes me sick.
Are you alright dear. Do you feel sick. Maybe we should talk about this over dinner. Come over to my apartment and I can make you forget all your problems he says with a leer.
I have to force myself not to gag and I say in my most gracious tone I am fine sir. Just need to catch up on some stuffs
Alright if you say so. Your loss he says in a slightly hardened tone. He turns and leaves and I breathe a sigh of relief. Turning back to the counter I try to forget.
As I walk home after my shift I suddenly don't feel like going home so much. I walk to the park and sit there. I am watching the ducklings in the pool when my attention is suddenly captured by a man playing with his daughter. The girl couldn't have been more than three but the devotion and love in the man's eyes are unmistakable. I have to lower my eyes to stop the tears and at that point I know I have to tell Jake about this baby. It doesn't matter that he was a jerk to me I know he should know if not for me then for my baby because I already love my baby so much that I would do anything for him or her without hesitation. After sitting there for about thirty more minutes I get up and walk the remaining way home.
On getting home I call out Bella. Are you home. I don't receive a response and after a quick search of the apartment I realize she is not home. She must be with Joseph I think. Good for her. After having a quick dinner of soup I sit down with my ancient computer to browse. I figure if I want to tell Jake about this baby then I must know where he lives and know more about him. Pulling up the search bar I type in Jake Andrews and I immediately recognize him. And that is how I spend the whole night. Reading about Jake Andrews and crying.