Entering restaurant.. I searched her.. go to the manager.. I asked about her..
They told me that today she has off.. she's not here.. maybe she will in her home..
I also told them.. if they will give me her contact number.. what if I reached her house.. and she's not there.. than.. what I will do.. I have to contact her first.. and talk with her..
The denied it.. to give me.. they told me that it's not there state to give number without there permission.. it's against to protocol..
So I told them to talk with her. And said her that I am here than asked her permission than it's not mind right..
First they didn't agree.. than I will give them some money than they finally did what I said..
Money will do anything.. thay what I experience today.. thank god I carry money with me.. if I didn't than I don't know what happened..
They called her.. they told my name.. and thank god she remember me.. she told them sand me message that..
She is in her home.. I will go straight and meet her.. she dont mind.. I thank them.. and left restaurant and ride with my bike to her house..
It's not that far away.. that was is good..
After riding good 10minutes I finally reached here house.. she already standing in main road.. Maybe she think that I will forget..
she's right.. I park my bike to her opposite side.. when she called my name.. than I turned and drive where is standing..
" I know it you will forget.." she said with smile..
" I didn't.. it's just that.. all house are looking same so.. " I said. And removed my helmet.. she come and hug me.. I hug her back..
" come let's go in.. we have lot's of to talk.." she said to me.. I nodded.. and I followed her in her house..
" Bailey told me what happened yesterday.. is that true.. you and Eric.." she asked me.. hearing he's name.. this time I shiver.. goosebumps appear in my body.. oohh damn.. what happen..
" naah it's nothing.. it's just that.. he had misunderstanding.. never mind.. can I get Bailey's number.. and also yours.. so I will contact you guys you know.. whenever I wanted to.." I said to her..
She smile.. and give me cup of coffee.. and I give my phone.. she save her and Bailey's number..
" yeah she also asked me your number but I don't your than she thought you will never again meet.. but I know that you will come today.. your stuff is here.. so.." she said. I nodded.. and drink my coffee..
After that we chat little bit.. she's funny.. and I like her.. we both than call Bailey.. and talk with her.. she is in work.. she missed it today's hangout.. but I told her that I will meet her Sunday..
After we talk more little.. I checked my phone.. it'd evening 5o'clock.. I didn't go this morning for gym.. today I have to go there.. for workout..
Talking with Keith and Bailey.. I feel little good.. and say good by to her.. I leftover her house.. and go straight to my academy.. it's fun.. going around.. I feel like I am living my life.. exploring everywhere.. it's good thing.. I thought this life I never see.. or never experienced it.. but my good luck.. I am enjoying this..
After that whatever happened.. I don't care anymore.. I will live my life..
Reaching my dorm.. I unlocked door.. but seems like it's already unlocked.. I enter there..
Saw that Janna is home.. thank god.. she's fine.. I thought I will never see her.. observing her.. I see that she's packing her things.
" where are you going girl.. don't tell me that you're are moving with him" I said to her sitting in my bed.. throwing key's in table..
She didn't reply.. she ignored me.. what happened.. why she ignoring me..
" hyy what happened.. Janna.. are you oky.." I said to her.. got up in my bed and walk where she stand..
" don't.." she turn around and said me angrily.. her eye's is red.. seems like she's crying sobbing..
" what happened to you.. are you oky Janna.. did Dan did something to you.. tell me if he did.. I will going to.." I trying to saying but she cut me off..
" kill him.. like you kill Sam right.." she said me.. and I am froze.. what she just said.. how did.. ohh no.. she know..
" what... Janna wh..wha...." I trying to said but she shut me up .
" I know you are girl who killed him.. why Ava... why you killed him.. I mean what he did to you.. " she said.. grab my jacket and yelled me bagged me.. crying sobbing.. I try to touch her console her.. but she push me back..
" you are bitch.. real bitch.. you killed him.. you kill Sam.. my Sam.. I will never forgive you.. I hate you Ava.. I hate you so much... I don't wanted to see your face ever again.. enjoy your life with Denial.. you both are meant to be each other.. both are monster.. you don't deserve here.. you both are killer.. I hate both of you.. you kill him.. " she said.. and fall in to the ground.. I try to help her.. but she stop me.. looking me up..
" why Ava.. why didn't you tell me.. when I tell you about Sam.. I share my feelings.. my secret to you.. that time I thought I can trust you.. you are nothing like others... but you know what.. you are worse that that.. maybe they are bitch.. but you.. you are more than bitch.. and I hate you so Much in bottom to my heart.. I will never forgive you.. and that asshole.. I don't wanted to see your and he's fucking face ever again.." she said.. and grab her stuff.. and left me.. totally shock..
How did she know.. fuck.. she really hate me.. she said she never ever see me.. I am worse than that bitchy friends..
I don't have heart.. I kill he's boyfriend.. I am killer.. she said I am murderer.. I kill Sam.. when I didn't.. he's live..
Why this happening today.. who told her that.. what she will do not.. is she never see my face.. or talk to me..
I know I deserve this.. whatever I did in past.. I deserve this.. I am evil...
She trust me.. and I broke her trust like it's nothing.. she tell me about how much she love Sam.. and I didn't said her word that I was the one who killed him.. it's all my fault.. she's right..
Someone bell the door.. I stood up and open the door.. Denial come inside.. answer locked the door..
I see him. I grab he's cooler.. I will kill him.. how dare he told her.. why he did this.. I lost her trust.. I made her hurt.. heart broken again.. because of me she is in this state.. she will never forgive him..
" listen.. I didn't know anything.. I am sorry.. I know that it's my fault.. but its happened " he said to me.. I really wanted to kill him right her right now.. I don't care about anyone.. who after that judge me.. or said me that I am murderer.. but I really wanted to kill him..
" whyy.. why you said her.. why you did this.. why..." I said him.. saying this.. I didn't see that I also crying.. fuck it's hurt like hell..
" I didn't tell her.. she just.. let me explain once.. " he said me.. he know how angry I am.. I will kill him.. if didn't explain and tell me that how it's happening.. I back off.. and loosen up.. he jark he's shirt..
I walk and site in my bed... waiting for him to come and explain me every detail..
" everything going good.. after you left party.. she asked me how I know you.. I told her that we know each other long time.. she asked me that why didn't I tell her that.. but I said her some lie.. she keep asking me.. irritating me.. I literally shouted her.. when Max saw this.. I just control my anger.. and than I said her that come with me my house.. it's going well.. everything going good.. she did stop asking about you.. and than we made out.. " he said looking at me.. I didn't feel jealous.. I feel like she feel jealous that Dan know me but didn't tell her that.. and here it's not my job to tell her that I know Dan long time.. because know how girls are.. they get jealous fast.. I waited him to explain everything..
" I really bored with her you know.. when I said you that I want you it's really I am saying this. Because I can't tolerate her anymore.. she always bagging me that why can't I give her time.. I mean I only with her because I know that she's close with Max.. my main point is to catch Max any how.. that's why I am dating her.. but she I know that it's not going to happen.. after he's bothers death.. they both not talking.. and always make distance so that's why I brought her my old mansion.." he said.. it getting me agree.. I know it.. he only using her.. I know it..
" I told you to not to hurt her.. why you can't just listen to me.. why you play with her.. why denial.. you so wanted to kill Max why you can't go straight and kill him.. why you wanted to play games with others life" I shouted to him.. I am so mad at him.. how can he do that to her.. he continues..
" you know how my old mansion is.. there is ours photos.. we take it in past.. I want to know her.. I wanted to break her heart.. I can't do that straight you know I love playing games.. so I thought this.. and brought there.. she saw over photos.. and bagged me to say what's all this.. I told her that.. it's you and me.. and we both are dating in past time.. and you working with my bother Justin.. and you are fighter.. and you kill Sam.." he said like nothing happened.. I mean all this thing to him.. it's all game for him.. huh.. he never thing what happened to other.. he never see others feeling.. how they react. How they feel..
" you are disgusting denial.. I never thought you will did this like this.. I mean seriously.. why you used me to this.. why you did this.. you broke her heart.. you play her.. you broke her trust.. because of you.. she don't wanted to see my face.. you know what that mean.. you bloody bitch.. how dare you drug me in all of this.. " I shouted him.. I don't care anymore.. he make me mad.. I never forgive him..
" don't ever rise you voice in front of me.. you know that what I am capable for.." he threatened me.. Oohh really Dan..
" do it.. what will you do.. tell Max.. or who.. Justin.. goo.. go and tell him.. I am standing right here.. tell them.. I don't care anymore.. go and tell them.." I rising my voice shouted at him.. looking my this behavior.. he panicked..
" listen Ava.. I am sorry oky.. I don't have to side her all this.. but she annoyed me like hell.. what I do huh.. it's to irritating.." I cut him off..
" she loved you damn it.. she's not come to you.. and fall for you.. you made her fall for you.. it's all your bloody plan.. not her.. you know what.. get out.. get out from here before I killed you.. get out now.." I said to him.. show him with my hand to exit.. and said him..
Can't my day go in all good.. why always this all happened.. can't I live my day without stress.. without worry..
I feel freaking lonely..
She left me.. now I am totally alone in this dorm.. no one here.. its only me.. like my old Times.. when James go for he's work.. and I am lying to my bed alone..
No one care... I am live or I am gone.. No one.. this room feel like hell to me.. I am in again hell..
I Didn't know what to do. I can't feel like sleepy.. I can't forget and sleep like I always do.. this all this stuff.. janna's hate towards me keep eating me..
Even I can't tell her that.. her Sam is live.. he's love you still and waiting for you.. why can't I am said to her..
Why can't I explained her that why I did it.. she just know that I kill him.. and I am killer. Why can't she thinks that why I DID it.. what's the reason I fight.. I kill him.. why.. huh.. Now she hate me.. and that end of matter for her..
And I lost friend like her.. for her I am killer... murderer.. nothing else..
And deep in down in my heart I know that... I deserve this..