Thinking about all I didn't eat last night.. or sleep.. so I again use sleeping pills.. eat it with water and sleep..
Ammy and anngi all girls call me for dinner.. I didn't pick up there calls.. ignore them..
I also didn't go to gym.. lying my bed.. wait for sleep but it doesn't come.. so I did again.. take pill and sleep..
I wake up on time.. in 7o'clock.. get ready to myself.. I left for tennis practice.. today I will come 15 minutes early.. whatever. Happened yesterday.. I try to not thing more about this..
Ignore all stuff.. and started to practicing... after tan minutes.. all my batch boys and girls come.. and join me.. jade come to me with me good morning.. there is nothing good in this morning..
" morning.." I said to her.. and practicing by my own..
" are you oky Ava.." she said me sweetly.. I forget all this.. and looks at her worry face..
I don't want that because of me I ignore people.. and give them stress.. I smile at her.. show her that nothing happened.. all are fine..
" I am good.. how are you jade.." I said to her.. keep plying my game..
" I am good.. can you get break for some time.. I wanted to talk with you.." she said sweetly. And little scared if I snap her.. or anything..
" not know jade.. I have to practice.. you see yesterday how coach mad at me.." I said to her.. she upset hearing this.. than she plying her own.. I feel guilty that I just ignore her.. but I don't wanted to snap her or argument with her...
After half and hours.. I take break.. and walk to jade. Where she practicing.. to talk with her.. I don't want her to sad or mad at me..
I already hurt Janna.. and lost her.. and don't wanted to lost jade to..
" hyy.. " I said to her.. she stop.. and look at me.. and smile.. I smile her back..
" hyy.. now you can talk with me right.." she said coming toward me.. I nodded.. and hug her.. I want this now.. I feel like alone.. feel like I will kill myself anytime.. when I hug her tightly.. she hug me back..
She feel that I want this.. she didn't said or asked me just hug me.. and said me sweets word's.. who relaxing me.. after that I broke the hug..
" are you oky now.." she said to me.. I nodded with smiles..
" actually I am good now.." I said to her.. we both walk to the chair and site there..
"i don't know what's going on.. but I know it will be alright.. don't stress out I don't like you face.. when you like this.. I like you when you smile.. like last time.. how we enjoy party.. how you feel free and enjoying.. I like that Ava.. not this one.." she said me.. and making faces.. I laughed when she did it..
" ohhkky ma'am anything else.." I said to her..
" I know you didn't know but I know you don't hear anyone.. you yesterday snap anngi so let me here out can you.." she request me.. I nodded.. I don't know what she talking about but I nodded..
" after you left the party.. Max to angry on you.. he literally throw some glass in ground.." she said to me.. I don't wanted to listen to her.. I ready to cut her of but she again stop me to do that..
" let me complete Ava.. than Ammy stand up on you.. " she said..
flash back..
" Max you can't yelled at her without knowing why she did it.." Ammy said to Max.. Max looking at Ammy. And surprise that because of Ava.. one more girl stand up and talk to her like that..
" now you tell me what to do or not.. never ever rises your voice to me you get it.." Max threatened Ammy.. she scared little bit she didn't stop..
" in this noon.. when Ava go cafeteria for lunch.. he try to touching her.. and call her in bad names.. he literally throw her lunch in ground.. and try to you know..." Ammy said to Max... and Max get Angry to listen to this.. he grab that boy's cooler.. waiting for Ammy to continue..
" you know that how she is.. she got mad.. she first tell him not to that he will get regrets.. she did warn him but he didn't listen.. than after that she punch him.. there is not her mistake.. what will she do.. if someone came and called her bad name's.. and touching her.. what she have to do tell me..?" Ammy asked Max..
Max got angry more listing this.. he's blood god boils.. and than he punch him in he's face.. he give me punch after punching..
" never ever touch her again or next time I promise you that you or not alive to see this world you got it..." Max threatened that boy.. that boy get scared like hell.. he just nodded.. he can't even properly see.. he can't he's state.. he just nodded.. and Max back of to him.. that boy is fall in the ground..
" everyone.. never ever called her in bed name's.. or touch her.. if you all do.. you all are face conscious.. you got it.. "he threatened all boys.. in that party.. all are nodded..
After that he left party angrily..
Flash back over...
" I mean he really threatened all boys.. you know..." she said to me.. I got surprise to listing this.. I mean really it's happen.. but why he did it.. it's not like I am he's girlfriend or anything.. why he did it.. I can't believe this..
" what happened are you oky.." jade said to me and I broke my all thought.. and nodded.. and smile at her..
" I am fine.. and I have to go to apologize to anggi.. I mean I know there is not her fault.. and just snap her.. when she just wanted to telling me relaxing me.. " I said to her.. I am regrets to doing this.. I mean who cruel I am.. I act like bitch.. when she really want to help me.. Janna really said it's all true.. I don't have heart.. I am more than bitch..
" yeah I know right.. after you left us no cafeteria.. she cry.. and I feel sorry for her.. Ammy and we all are console her.. but she didn't stop.. and than she also left cafeteria.." jade said to me..
I really hurt her.. I have to talk to her.. and it's important..
" now smile.. please.. " jade said. And I laughed her behavior..
" you are cute you know that.." I said to her..
" did he know that.." she said.. and looking at opposite side where all football time practicing..
" oohh he... ummm.. which one just tell me.. you never show him who's that lucky one.." I said to her.. and change topic..
" that blue t-shirt.." she pointing him.. I saw him very hot boy.. heighten.. and good looking.. woww.. I mean he's totally bad boy in look like.. but than I see observing him.. see that he's to silent focus time.. I have to talk to him about jade.. but question is.. that he will talk to me.. why not.. why he didn't talk to me.. if he don't.. than I will make him to talk to me..
" I will be back.." I said to jade.. got up on my site.. and walk there.. where they are practicing..
When I enter there court.. they all stopp practicing.. and looking at me.. when I observe them.. they are seniors.. and I am standing here to interrupt them..
" sorry to bother you guys.." I apologize to them.. and walk towards that blue t-shirt guy.. who's confused like what's going on.. he's cute.. no matter what.. I don't thing that he's bad boy.. he's shy and silent cute.. And very handsome attractive boy.. jade's choice are to good.. I like it..
Looking at that boy.. I thinking about that Eric guy.. mystery guy.. wow I am thinking about him.. what the hell happened to me..
" what ARE you doing here.." Max come forward said.. I look at him.. rolling my eye's.. and stand front of that shy boy..
He's little panicked.. And scared.. oohh my.. he's scared of me..
" what's your name.." I asked him.. and it's totally stunt by him .. also myself.. I mean I never did this.. I mean I did it.. but never interrupting anyone..
He looking at me with wild eye's.. after he looking me to my back.. I know who's standing there.. and why he scared.. I take he's hand.. to focus on me.. not anymore.. he's eye's landed me again.. I smile at him..
" I wanted to talk to you.. can you meet me cafeteria in lunch time.. " I said to him.. I feel it he's shaking.. and scared.. panicked.. but he nodded.. and than I also nodded.. and turned around.. look at Max.. and than see he's angry face.. and than rolled my eye's.. and left the spot..
All are stunt what I just done.. also jade looking at with me wild eyes.. ooh my god.. did I really did this..
" jade.. he's so cute.. damn.. I am proud of your choice.." I said to her.. and she blushed..
" thank you so much Ava.. what he said.. what you talk to him.. please tell me.." she said with excitement.. I told her what happened there..
" what if he didn't like me back.. or anything.. Ava.. I am scared.. oohh damn.. " I cut her of..
" don't be.. he will never do that.. trust me.. now come on.. I am getting late for my dance practice.." I said to her.. and we both left the court.. someone's eye's on me.. I know who's he.. so I didn't look at him.. and ignore him.. and I told jade about our dance performance..
Listing this.. she's so excited about it.. she also tell me what song I will going to dance.. well that also I didn't think about it.. but I will do it.. something about it..
After that we said good by to each other.. and said to meet in lunch time.. I handed to dance studio..
When I enter there.. I searched anggi.. Janna is also there.. and she's with scarlett.. ohh my.. what's going on her mind.. why she doing it..
I ignore them.. and see that angii sitting alone.. and still upset..
I walk there.. and site besides her.. she look up and look me.. and than when she know it's me..
" ooh I am sorry.. I will get out from her.." she ready to get up.. I grab her hand.. and stop her..
" stay.. I wanted to talk to you.." I said to her.. she still nervous and scared.. I don't like it when people scared of me..
" Ava I am so sorry for yesterday.. whatever I .." I again cut her of..
" I am sorry.. I really sorry anggi. I know you don't have intention to hurt me.. you don't have to say anything.. it's my fault.. and I am sorry please accept my apology.." I said her genuinely.. she look at me.. and hug me.. I hug her back.. I hope she forgive me..
" don't be.. and I am accepting your apologize.. and I am happy that you come.. you know.. I miss you.. yesterday when you left us.. I feel like it's because of me.. you left.." she said.. and her voice literally cracked..
" no no.. I never do that.. your my first friend in this academy.. and I will never do that again without listen full conversation.. I promise.. and I am sorry again.. I miss you to.. I feel sorry.. guilty. So much.. " I said to her.. she smile.. and than it make me relax.. and I smile back..
" don't be.. you are my friend and I know you angry.. so I feel like sorry to said you that in wrong time.. but now I understand.. now friends.." she said.. she's act like funny.. I smile and nodded.. now I am happy that she's not angry.. not upset..
Looking at her smile.. I feel happy.. and I will try my best to not hurt anyone of my friends again.. I don't want to lose anyone...