I left the house and walk as faster as I can and I see Ray standing to there car parking. I run and hug him throw that my stuff in ground and hug me tightly. So he does. We stand there like that. It's feels right. Than he push back and broke the hug. little tears come out with my eyes. It's happy tears right.
" shall we.." he said to me wiped my tears open the door for me. I get in the car and said to him." We shall." With smile and I get in the car. Lock my seatbelt. And site comfortably.
The drive is silent. He is all eye's in road to drive safely. And my mind was in my and Max last encounter.
20minutes before..
We all stood up. I said to Ray that I will grab my stuff who's I already packed. Ray said that he can wait for me out side. I nodded. I rush toward my temporary room. To grab my stuff. In that all time I feel Max eye's all on me. To see my all movement. I ignored him. Finally I am happy that I am get out this. But I also sad about he's lost.
Reaching in room grabbing my stuff I left the room and close the door silently. And walk toward downstairs. When I reach downstairs. Max is standing there and looking at me. I ignored him. And open the door for exit. But he come fast toward me grab my hand push me to wall hard. I shocked his sudden behavior. What is that. it's little hurt me his sudden push me in wall..
He looking at me coldly. I know he hurt angry he has mix emotion but I can't do that. It's not my business. He ready to kill me or hurt me but he didn't do that. Why all this happening..
We are both are stood by closer to each other. My heart is beating fast. He come closer to me and come to ear to say something. My breath hissed. Shivering my body. I never feel this before. What happening to me.. and what he doing..
" be ready for what I said to what I wanted to you for myself." He said in my ear. I am scared. I know I am plying with devil. My body get full of goosebumps. No.. No. I ready to push him but...
He step back and we both stand by face to face each other. I about to cry but I hold my breath to not to.. not to front of him. I don't know what he mean by that. But whatever is in mind it's not give me good vibes.
" whenever I killed Justin in front of you in one by one pieces. After that I killed you. Whatever reason is that you killed my brother but I will never forgive you about that... wait for that time.. I will feel you what I feel when my brother killed front of thousands people." he said and back off. That is I never thought about it that he said like that. And when he tell me it's mean he's serious about this. And I know deep down I am deserve this. I just can't believe this it's happening.. he threatened me..
" get out before I lose my temper" he said angrily. Without saying anything I open the door and get out from here.
I hate him so much. I hate this feeling. I hate me more it's all my fault.
Flashbacks over.
I really hate him. I hate his attitude. I hate his behavior. I hate his voice. I hate is eye's. I hate his face. I hate this when I weak front of him.. I hate this when he controls me.. All above most I hate him so much.
Thinking about all this ray stop the car to my academy parking lot. I looking at car window to my academy. And the turn to face ray. And smile nervously.
"finally" I said to him. Unlock my seatbelt ready to get out from here..
" yeaa finally." He said to me and stop me before I come out to the car. " are you okay Red." He said to me. Looking at me to worry eye's. I know right now Ray is best thing in my life. I owned him. How can I forgot him.
" I am fine. Don't be worried. You know I am strong and..." I assure him. Than dont to worry me. Even I know that I am scared. Tensed. I know that. I dont have that strength to fight anymore. But I have to. I don't want give him more trouble. It's my fight. It's my problem. I have to face by myself.
" thanks for everything. Its really means a lot." I said to him.
He still didn't agree but he nodded. He know how I am stubborn.
" I will call you" he said to me and come closer to me and kiss my forehead. I give him last small smile and give him hug and out of the car.
After good bye to ray. I rush to my dorm. Finally reached my dorm room. I still standing there in front door to my room. Thinking that should I open the door or not. I know I have to do that. Now or later. Have to face this. And I have to do this. I know when I open the door I have to face Janna. And her all questions. I have to face them. I have to face my friends. I know they are not my real friends. I don't have to explain anything related my life. But I know deep down they cares for me so I have to say them another lie to save there and my back. And dont want to that they worry for me. Because its all my mess I will clean this. I don't wanted to know anything about this to anyone. It's all my. So let go all this.
Just open the damn door. I told myself. And I did.
I open the door. When I entered. I see.. its empty. I quickly check the time. Its for my dance practice time. Maybe Janna is there. So I don't have to face her for now.
I take breath. And than throw all my clothes to dry cleaning. This one first think come to my mind to do that. Than after doing that I will go for gym to some work out. For now I want this to clear my mind. My thoughts. And think about this when I face them how to explain them everything my sudden absent in here.
All I thought about that conversation. That fight. And I am really wanted get out of my mind all this things. I wanted to clear my mind. I just wanted to more concerned about my competition. Nothing else.
After finishing my all work. I ready for go to my gym. And open the door and step out to the my dorm. And lock it. And rush for go to the gym.
In 2hours. Ray 2time text me and call me. To check on me. That I am okay or not. I was fine or not. I know he to concern about me. He know that one wrong move. I am in trouble. But I wanted to be now alone to think. I tell him I am fine. Don't worry about me. And that time I little bit louder almost I yelled him. But after that I said sorry to him m it's not good he helped me and now I am burst out my all anger on him. When there is nothing he's fault.
I think about James. What he tell me about this academy. He already told me that take care for myself. He already told me that don't talk to rich people. They are maybe dangerous. They don't give damn about low class people. He know how they react. How they treat people who they not there standards.
Now I know that they actually are heartless. They don't have heart. They only think about there self. And we are no were in there standards. We can't afford them. How Damn much we can prove them to our all power all our strength. They always know that how to throw that and show them were are we. I always hate there attitude toward us. There legacies. There ego. Every time every damn time they throw like trash. But this time its not going to happen. I will do not win them this time. This time they wanted to face my dark side. This time I have nothing to lose. I have nothing that they hurt me. I will break them one by one. I will have my revenge. To hook or by crook. No matter what. And that is promise for myself.