JIN
Y/n wasn't answering any of my messages and for an odd reason it bothered me a bit. When I was trying to contact her I received messages from Samantha, she wanted to see me. I didn't know what to say to her, I couldn't say I already had plans with Y/n because I wasn't sure, but I really wanted to spend the day with her today.
Because of my annoyance and the fact that I couldn't find a good excuse, I agreed to spend the day with Samantha. After talking with her and sent my lasts messages to my neighbour, I felt regret, but it was too late to change the plans, again.
We spend the day walking on the streets and visiting different places. We drunk our coffees at a café, we ate lunch in an Italian restaurant and we spend the afternoon at the mall. We bought new clothes and make up; but we also bought random things, we found them cute.
Samantha was nice, she made me laugh, I've to say that she was better than I expected. Maybe it was because she was older than me? I had a great time with her, we decided to meet each other on Wednesday to go to the cinema, it was the film's premiere.
When we got home, I leaded Samantha to my room to let all the bags there before going outside and meet the others. The music was loud, the smell of alcohol was heavy and I could see all of them were having fun.
"Jin, I didn't take my swimsuit." Samantha said, looking at me with puppy eyes.
"Don't worry, you can swim with clothes." I joked, to make her feel better. The only thing I received in return was a punch in my left arm.
"My clothes are more expensive than your handsome face." She said. I laughed, but I played offended at the same time.
"Come on, let's meet the others." I said, walking towards the pool, but I felt her hand grab my arm.
"Wait." She said, intertwining our arms. "We can go now." She smiled at me, I smiled back and we start walking.
We went to the pool, I greeted everyone and I presented Samantha to my friends. Hoseok gave me a drink, it was a beer. I looked at my left side, I saw four people in the Jacuzzi, I assumed Y/n was there because I haven't seen her with the others.
We walked towards the hot tub, they were laughing, a lot. I wondered what they were talking about. They didn't notice our presence, it shocked me seeing Y/n drunk, she didn't drink alcohol the other times we celebrate something. I couldn't avoid seeing how close Jimin and her were sitting.
"Hello guys." I said, they all looked at us. I stared at Y/n looking for some kind of answer about what she was feeling or thinking. Samantha was grabbing my arm and she didn't like her, but her expression was the same. She didn't say anything to me, any of them. Instead, Jimin whispered something into her ear, making her laugh, a loud one.
I didn't like it for some reason. They were friends, but we were closer, why she didn't say anything to me? Even though when they stopped laughing, she just took another sip staring at nothing.
"Oh, hi Jin, hi Samantha." Ashley said, with a smile.
"Hi hyung, how was your date?" Jimin asked, teasing us.
All them laughed. Samantha a nervous one.
"It wasn't a date." I said, without any emotions on my face. "We're just friends."
"That's what everyone says at first." Yoongi said, putting her arm around Ashley's shoulders. Were they dating and I didn't know it? I shook my head and looked at Y/n again. She had a smile on her face, her cheeks a pinkish hue. I wanted to talk to her, but she didn't even say hello. Was she mad at me? She looked too happy to be mad. I decided to move to her side. I kneeled, so our faces were more or less at the same high, she looked taller than me."
"Hi Y/n." I said, looking straight into her eyes. She made a little laughed before hit me softly on my shoulder.
"You didn't answer any of my messages. I was sleeping, okay?" She said, the last phrase screaming. I looked around us, only the 2 boys and the 2 girls were looking at us.
I sighed in frustration, I couldn't talk with her here.
"Can we talk? I want to spend some time with you." I said softly, with a small smile. She only nodded. I helped her get out of the water, I put my arms around her, she was shivering, even though the ambient was nice.
"Samantha, can you bring me a towel?" I asked her. She only nodded an left.
Y/n put her face near my ear, I moved my head away as a reflex, but I stood still when I noticed she wanted to tell me something.
"She looked at me bad." She whispered, "When you asked her for the towel." She finished with a giggle. I only patted the top of her head gently as an answer, I didn't want to spoil her messy bun and she didn't know what she was saying.
"Are you letting me alone?" Jimin said, with a pout.
"I will come back Jiminie." Y/n answered, giggling. The two of them were laughing again. I only sighed. Yoongi splashed water at Jimin and mumbled a 'You're so dumb'.
Soon Samantha came back with the towel, it seemed forever since she left.
I put the towel around Y/n's body. I grabbed her hand, leading her to the bench. It was silent for a few minutes, until Y/n looked at her hand, followed with a sighed.
"Are you okay?" I asked, putting my left hand on her right tight.
"I lost my drink." She said like a little girl, poutting as she had to start crying. I laughed.
"You finished it."
"I want another one." She looked at me, still with a pout.
"Wait, you need to put your clothes on first. Where did you let your things?" I asked her, looking around.
She sighed, but pointed towards the umbrella. "There."
"Can you go alone in the living room?" I asked, standing in front of her.
She grimaced. "Of course, what are you thinking? I can do it all alone." She said, standing up. I had to grabbed her arm stopping her from falling.
"Yeah, I see." I said, rolling my eyes. She let go of me.
"I can do it alone." With that, she started walking towards the door. The lights of the living room were open, I forgot to close them. My bad.
While I was going to grab her things I saw she almost bumped into her own foot. She giggled, making me laugh softly.
When I arrived in the living room, she was sitting on the sofa, the towel still around her body. She looked at me when she noticed my presence.
"You're so slow." She said, looking at me.
"I got here 10 seconds after you." I said, defending myself.
"Still slow." She sighed.
"Oh come on." I laughed. "I've your bag, go to the bathroom and change yourself."
She asked me to walk her to the bathroom we had in the living room. I stayed outside, making sure she was doing fine. When she came out we went outside. I looked for Samantha, I found her sitting near the pool, talking with Namjoon. I felt bad for a moment, she didn't know anyone and I let her there alone without any warning.
"Why we've to go there?" Y/n asked, extending the last word. I supposed she didn't like the idea of the way she said it.
"Don't you want to go with the boys?" I asked, softly. I didn't want to upset her more.
"I don't want to see Samantha. She doesn't like me."
I put myself in front of her, my hands on her shoulders.
"Hey, she does like you, don't worry about it. Tell me, who doesn't like you?"
"Oh well, I don't." She pushed my hands away and start walking towards the pool, yelling 'Hobba give me another drink'.
I sighed.
...
We all were at the pool, Y/n was drinking and talking with her friends while I was listening to Taehyung's story, but always keeping an eye on her. She'll regret it tomorrow.
"Can't you watch where you're going?" I heard Samantha asked, with irritation in her voice. I heard Y/n's giggle, that's when Hoseok, Jungkook and I got out of the pool.
"Hey, what's wrong?" Jungkook asked, to none in particular.
"She threw her drink at me," She pointed Y/N. "On purpose." I frowned, but Y/n start laughing.
"I didn't want to, but you were on my way." She said, Jungkook holding her by the waist.
"See Jin, she hates me." Samantha said with a pout. "She even ruined my dress."
" Is horrible by the way." Y/n said, giggling.
Samantha's face was becoming red, while she had her fists closed, in anger.
"Okay, okay. Calm down." I said, standing in the middle of the two. "What happened?" I asked to Y/n's friends.
"We don't know, we weren't looking at them." Zoe said, almost in a whisper.
Y/n and Samantha were behind them, they couldn't see anything unless they had eyes on the back of their heads. I felt stupid, but it didn't last long because the blonde girl spoke.
"I need to change, quickly." She said, disgusted.
Jungkook made sure Y/n could stand by herself, but she ended up using Hoseok as a support. Jungkook kneeled down, asking Zoe if she would go with him. She needed five seconds to react, but she came out of the pool, with Jungkook's help. The only woman clothes we had were Y/n's. Such a great idea.
"It was an accident, I promise." I looked at Hoseok's and Y/n's direction.
"I know, don't worry." Hoseok comfort her.
"I'm sure it wasn't. You wanted to ruin my night." Samantha said.
"Hey, whatever happened, it just a dress, right? Besides, she's drunk, you're lucky she only did that."
"It could be worse." Ashley added. I nodded.
Well, I never saw Y/n drunk before, but it didn't look good.
"I know you're all her friends, but why nobody is defending me? Jin, you know she doesn't like me." That was true, maybe she did it on purpouse after all.
"That's why I won't say 'I'm sorry' to you, 'cause I'm actually not."
"You're only behaving like a stupid teenager. You don't know how to be an adult."
"At least I don't pretend my hair colour is natural." Y/n said back. "Bleached blonde." Samantha let out a gasp.
"At least I'm not a dwarf like you, I'm a woman, not like you. Men like me more than you. Of course, who would like a person like you? They'll prefer everyone but you." The situation didn't look well.
"Okay girls, stop." Taehyung said, firmly. He probably came when he heard the screams. Y/n is his best friend after all.
Y/n let go of Hoseok, she started walking towards Samantha, I was sure I heard a sob. "People also like me, I don't need to be a clown like you." She screamed, before pushing Samantha into the pool. The water splashed us when Samantha's body touched the water. Everyone puts their attention to us.
Jungkook and Zoe were looking at the scene with their mouth opened, in shock. We all looked like them, but Samantha's loud scream returned us to the reality. Jungkook run towards the pool, trying to help her, but she only was splashing water with her arms and legs, she looked almost like a whale.
Y/n wasn't there anymore, I saw her running as fast as she could towards the door. I wanted to follow her, but Taehyung was already hugging her tightly. She was crying.
...
We tried to light up the mood when Samantha left at 3:00 am, with the same clothes. Taehyung came back when Samantha left, he spent 1 hour upstairs with Y/n.
I grabbed his arm. "Hey Tae, how is she?" I asked him, worried. He only made a face and walk off. I sighed. I didn't know what to do. I looked at my friends having fun, and I decided to go upstairs.
I knocked on Taehyung's room. "Y/n are you here?" I asked, even though I could hear her crying.
"Leave me alone." She said, between sobs. I decided to get in, she needed someone. I sat beside her on the bed, I put my right arm on her shoulder and she hide her head on my bare chest. I saw she changed her clothes again, now she was wearing one of Taehyung's summer sweatshirts, it had straps.
"Shh, I got you." I said, caressing my hand through his long hair, that was no longer in a bun. I did it trying to calm her, but it made her cry more. She had a scarf close to her nose, but I could still notice her tears on my skin.
I waited a few minutes before I moved my arm away from her. She stayed still, grabbing the fabric in her two hands. Her tears kept falling, she was staring into space. I knew it was something else, but I didn't know what. Was she still drunk? Maybe she was feeling the dark side of the alcohol, after all the happiness it makes you feel.
"Why are you crying? Is not for Samantha, is it?" I asked, staying calm.
"You don't understand." She whispered after a few minutes.
"I can if you explain it to me." I kind of begged. I didn't like seeing her cry. She shook her head quickly.
"Are you mad at me?" I asked. She shook her head and I sighed in relief.
"I'm not mad at you either. I wanted to spend time with you, I meant it. But I think it's too late to bake the cake now." I joked, trying to make her at least giggle. She only smiled, but it was a sad one.
I raised her chin, carefully. "Tell me what's wrong, I can't help you if you don't tell me what it is." She started crying again, I sighed.
"Is Samantha the problem?" I asked again.
"No." I nodded in relief. I knew it couldn't be her. "It's you." I frowned, trying to understand what she said. She was crying like that because of me?
"But you said you weren't mad at me." I said.
"I'm not. That's the problem. I can't get mad at you. I'm always right if I'm with you. You make me feel good, you make me laugh, I feel I'm myself when I'm with you. You can only cheer me up the way you do, but not now, not Today." She said, between sobs, looking at her lap.
"Why not? We're friends, right? You can trust me Y/n, please." I said, hopelessly. I grabbed her face with my hands, caressing my fingers through her cheeks.
She looked at me straight in the eyes. I couldn't understand what her eyes were trying to say. "Don't say that. Why you always have to say that we're friends?" I didn't know what's wrong with her. I was scared.
"What are you saying? We're friends, we're okay." I said, putting my hands in my lab. I felt my eyes wet. I didn't like the way she was and I didn't like what she was saying.
"You are okay." She tilted her head. "You really don't know or are you playing dumb?" She said, her voice was trembling. Her comment hurt me.
"I really don't know what you're talking about." I said, desperate.
"I love you." She yelled.
"But I love-" I cut myself when I saw the pain in her eyes. The tears, the way she was looking at me, it was all signs of a broken heart. The reality exploded in my face. She meant she loved me as she is in love with me, I almost said I loved her too, but in a friendly way.
The silence and her sobs filled the room. I didn't know what to say nor what to think. I couldn't say anything even though I wanted to. I tried to remember any sign of it whenever we were together, but I found nothing. I looked at her, my tears were already dropping down my cheeks. She was embracing her legs with her arms, her head down.
"Leave me alone, please." She begged, in a whisper.
I was still in shock, I would probably act differently if I was on my normal state, but I wasn't okay after what she said. I stand up, I looked at her for a few seconds before walking towards the door. I closed it slowly, I didn't want to leave, but I couldn't stay either. I stayed there a few seconds, listening how her sobs increased, before walking away.