I quickly took a bath and changed into my white hoodie with some logos over it ,with my denim shorts. I grabbed my books and made my way towards the school.
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"Thank God, I made it in time." I said looking at the watch on my left hand that showed 5 minutes to school. So I quickly made a stop at my locker to gather my books.
I grabbed my Ap Calculus book and note books to make my notes. I turned around to find Jason walking in my direction but his focus was not actually me. I turned my head to find the queen bee standing there fanning herself dramatically.
I rolled my eyes, "Of course, he would be with her."
I was about to turn away when I saw the queen bee slamming her lips on Jason. I looked at them shocked. I waited. I waited for Jason to push her away. But what shocked me was that he didn't. He just further pushed her into the wall next to her and deepened the kiss just the way he just kissed me yesterday.
I felt my eyes stinking it felt as if someone had stabbed the last knife in my heart. I quickly averted my head and closed my eyes to stop any kind of tears from slipping out of my eyes now.
I made a quick run to the bathroom. I stood in front of the mirror looking at my reflection. I looked at my pale face with lifeless eyes. The girl looking at me was a complete stranger to me who was shouting at me with her silent blank expression.
"You had only one responsibility, That is your mother's well being none other. Jason is not the person you should be associated with. He is way out of your league."
I washed my face again and again. And calmed my heart after a few minutes.
"It's alright, You are strong Alicia! You can do it. It does not matter. He does not matter. " Alice aka my conscience gushed at me.
I wiped my face and made my way out of the bathroom in a completely empty hallway. That made me realise I was again late for my class.
"Oh shit," I muttered under my breath and ran towards my classroom.
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After a whole lot of eternity in the hell of classes I made my way towards the cafeteria to grab my lunch and to move to my old lone cave, to the gardens.
I was sitting in the sophomore's garden after successfully managing to avoid Jason or any other kind of trouble coming my way.
I quickly ate my sandwich and decided to calculate the money I had more to gather to pay mom's this month's hospital bills.
"580$..."
"600$..."
I still need "200$..."
I realized that I still had to find another part time job to pay for bills.
"Well, let's go to the job hunt." I said to myself faking enthusiasm.
I again started to pour out my stupid packed up emotions, as I usually do. Yeah, I randomly started singing out my thoughts.
"I'm tired
Of waiting
For something I don't know yet
And I'm hating
Everything I once liked
I'm tired
Of things taking
So much time and space
Feels like there's no room left
For me to figure things out
I'm losing myself
Don't wanna go back to how I was
I'm losing myself
And it's better that way
I'm done feeling
Done believing in all the things they say
'Cause in the end I'm the only one
Who'll always stay"
I found tears all over my face and quickly wiped them away. I softly sobbed in my own palm as I knew it was not worth it.
I cleared up my face and checked the time on my phone and made my way towards the next class I had.
I walked in the class and made my way towards my usual seat in the centre of class near the window where I had a complete view of gardens. I was looking outside, completely held in my own mind when I heard Mrs. Johnson enter the class to start our Chemistry class.
After gathering all my stuff from the class. I made my way towards the locker to drop off all the books I didn't need for the day.
I was placing my books in the locker when I heard, "Hey Alice,"
I didn't need to see to know who it was. It was probably Jason because
1- Only he dares to talk to me
2- Only he calls me Alice
3- Only he uses this cologne that smells like that of woods and the sweet .....
I suddenly realised that I was not supposed to think that way, he was just kissing some other blond bimbo in the morning when he kissed me yesterday night.
I shook my head. And didn't bother to look back at him. I made my way out of the school.
"Hey,"
"Hey!" I heard muffled calls behind me, but I didn't want to be hurt again by the same person. I just was not in the position right now.
I quickened my pace and turned the corner.
"Job hunt here I come," I mumbled.
I was walking around in the shops asking if they needed some help aka if there were some job vacancy available.
Well just my luck I didn't receive a single, A SINGLE FU**ING YES, From all the 30 shops I went into...
I found my hope depleting when I saw a piece of paper hanging on the billboard.
That I certainly could do. Here I come.