I reach school on time and I am happy that i am not late. When I reach my locker and grab my books and all and started to clam myself down. It is so tired. I wanted to sleep. I feel like I can't take it anymore.
I thank myself that I started to use pills. I know we sometimes forget to use condom and don't want to be pregnant this time. And with him.. no way in hell..
When I close the locker Jake come to me and give me big hug. And I hug him back and smile.
" Good morning my favourite person.." he said to me. Girls also come and than hug me. We greet each other. And I hug them back.
" Guess what.." Becca said and me and Jake look at each other and than look at Becca and Zoe also look like full of good mood.
" What.." me nad Jake said. And she smile at us.
" We have new transfer student. And everyone saying that he is so hot as hell. " She said. And Zoe excited to hearing this. And Jake look at that. That is making him Angry. I rub he's arm and Making him clam.
That's the best things that he did listen to me. We both have that bond that we can understand without knowing each other. Than one is also make it disadvantage that I can't hide things from him. I don't know what will he do when he know about my friend with benefits with Tony.
" Excuse me.." someone said. And I turn around and look at that person. I never see him. He look handsome. He's eyes are blue and he give me nervous smile.. hmmm... Intersting.. he do have dimples and that are cute. i mean really. Look like he is good guy with cute smile with attractive eyes. I give him smile.
" Hyy.." Zoe said to him. And than he look at Zoe. And give him smile.
" I want to ask you guys will you help to give me direction to the homeroom.. " he ask us. And he's eyes again lead on me.. he give me again one cute smile. Which i don't know how to react front of him. That make me soooooo nervous.
It's not that I never dated lots of guy's or anything. I mean I never thought that I do act like fornt of boy. Jake grab my arm pull away from him. To make me come to the realisation that I am standing front of him and starting at him like dumb.. I wanted to yelled at to Jake but i also want to thank him that he did that. I am totally act like fool front of him. Stupid bitch..
" Sure come one we all are also heading there.." Becca said. And he nodded and thank us. I walk with Jake holding he's hand because I know I don't have trust myself. I don't think that I can be act front of him to normal.
" By the way my name is Jacob Wilson" he said to us. And I murmured in my breath he's name 'jacob' mmmmm
" Oohh nice too meet you Jacob myself Becca and this is Zoe and this is Madaline but you can't call her Maddi and this is Jake.. " Bacca introduce us. And we all walk to the homeroom.
Jacob are some of my classes. He did seat next to me. We wanted to talk about whenever we look at each other. We lost in each other eyes. And nothing come out. But he did compliment looking at my eyes.
" You are so beautiful " he said he's hucky voice my face is get full of red Tomato. First time some boy compliment me. I mean.. I don't know.. what I am thinking..
I want to said thank you or somthing but than door brust out open than our schools bad boy walk and seat in my back.
I turn to look at him. He is not in good mood. He look like he is Angry. What happened to him. He is okky when we both are together. What happened to him suddenly. But than again our class started concentrate in study.
When it's about study I am always focus on study. And I don't think anyone other than what I am learning it.
In lunch time Jake and Jacob both are walking together and talking I am happy that Jake is not jealous type of and I know he already told about the lecture stay away from Zoe.
I look at Jacob he look little bit nervous and than seat beside me. We both look at each other and smile at each other.
" How far you like this school.." Zoe ask him.
" Hmm nothing like my old one. I am happy that here is everyone is given each other respact. No one show each other there place. I mean talking about bully" He said. Zoe nodded with he's head.
We started to eat our food. All are asking questions to Jacob about where he from and all.i listen to them but didn't said anything. I am already tried and I don't have that stemina to bear it anymore. I want to go home and sleep but I just can't.
" What happened Maddi you look so tired." Jake said and massaging my muscles. Which is appreciate that. I did feel clam..
" Nothing I just tired I didn't get sleep last night.. " I said and grab Jake's arm and sleep he's arm. I really need to sleep right now.
" Why somthing happnd." All eyes on me. Even Jacob also looking at me I know they are worry about me.
" I don't know I did try to but I can't help it. But don't worry I will try today.. " i told them. Today i am going to be sleep like I never sleep before. I needed it.
" If you don't feeling well than I can tak you home you know.. " Jacob approach me.
" Naah its oky and thank you for your concern. But I am not going anywhere I never ditch any classes.. " i told him.
" It's still are second day. Don't think to much and go to Home. Your health is important. " He said to me. I smile at him and hug him tightly. And that make him suprise and he hug me back.
When we broke the hug. I feel somthing is looking at me. And I look at the same table of he's he did looking at me angrily. Why he is look at me like this. Did he know how much he make me weak. And also turn me on looking at me with angrily and lusty eyes. But he is Angry at me. I look away and than i decide to go home.
I talk with principal and take half day. It's better to be go home and take rest plus it is Friday so I don't have to worry about it. Me and Jacob exchange our numbers. So that we can talk. Hugging all of my friend's I get up grab my things and leave cafetaria.
I text mom that i am coming home. Than she ask me what happened to I told her that I am not feeling well. She did know that something is going on with me. I mean I did sneak out from the house sometimes to meet Tony for doing our business. I do lie to her and it is making me guilty but still I know one day I will told her and I know she will understand me. She always do.
Talking with principal I walk to my locker whole corridor are empty. I know now all are is in there classes. So no one is there.
Walking to the straight someone grab my arm harshly and than pull me to empty classroom. I literally yelled and shock i don't know who it is. But I also know that who always do this. And than I feel fimiler smell. And i did clam down and sigh.
He's lips attack my neck. And I try to not to moan. This is not time. I am already so weak. I need sleep I need food. Not this. I push him away and make sub distance between us.
" What are you doing.. don't you have class to Attend." I ask him. Looking at me. And he's hand keep touching me. And I like it when he do that. So I didn't jark away.
" Same question to you. Why are you not in class." I hate it when someone question me back without giving answer of my question.
" I am going home.." i told him. And he look at me. And like I said. We never mind our business so he didn't ask me more and than nodded with he's head.
" Come I am taking you home." He said to me. Grab my hand started to open the classroom.
" Wait.. no.. I will go by myself.. i don't need your help.." I told him. And stop him and pull away myself from him.. he did notice that I am keep pushing him away for me.
" And how you will go.. did you forget that you didn't even bring your car. " He said to me. And I know he is right. And I don't have intention to walk home. I am already tried. I know I can't walk. No way in hell. I look at him and he smrik he know he is right. I do want he's help. I take deep breath and rolle my eyes and than agree with him.
" Don't.. don't rolle your eyes at me Princess ever again. If you want punishment than I dare you.. " he said to me dangerously. I glup and I don't want to do this now. I didn't said anything than he again hold my hand smoothly and we both walk to the parking lot.
I am looking everywhere that no one see us. I can't risk it. Its only second day of school and I don't want to know this anyone.
I am happy that no one is here. And whole parking lot is empty except empty cars and bikes are parks there.
I told him that I will meet him where is drop me in morning. He want to argue with me about it. But I walk away before somthing happnd. I don't like it argue with him.
I like silence. I know it's weird but we both are weird. And we both like this peaceful silent. Not to talk much. Just enjoy each others company. No more talk. No gossips. What I need.
He drove me home. When i getting out to the car. He pull me last time to him and kiss me hard. I need it more than I want it. I want him to inside me but I can't. Not now. And I know he also know this. So he didn't pleasure me and kiss me one last time and I did kiss him back. And than we broke it.
I told him to thank and he nodded with he's head. He still there waiting for me go into the house. And I did when I turn around see look at me one last time nad than speed away.. and I unlock the doors and run to my bedroom and jump on bed. close my eyes and sleep.