I headed straight to the bar grabbed whatever the hell I could see and drank it. Alchohol was terrible, I mean it didn't even taste nice but it did help me forget about everything for a while. This made me happy. I drank 8 shots of I don't even know what and an entire bottle of vodka. Smoked some weed. I got to admit I did not feel anything after this. I was totally drunk,high and messed up but it felt really good at the same time.
I went straight to the dance floor and moved my body to the beat of the song. In that moment I felt alive. I didn't know I could be so happy and so sad at the same time. The smoke and all the colorful lights in the dark gave the dance floor a disco look. The lights made my head spin abit or was it the alchohol thing is I'm not even sure. I noticed the familiar face that was next to me.
Christine ofcourse who else could it be aggh.
"Ashley!", she says with the biggest smile I have ever seen on her ugly face. Gosh did I mention how much I hate this girl. Well I hate a lot of people but this chick was just something else.
"Fuck off.",I say with the biggest smile on my face. I walk to the bar and grab another bottle of vodka. Dancing with the bottle in my hand.
"There's no need to be nasty Ashley, I was just going to tell you that I can hook you up with someone if you would like." Christine says with a smirk on her face.
"Not interested." I said with a irritated tone to my voice.
"Josh and I just shacked it up really nicely in that bathroom right over there." She points with her finger to the door behind me.
I don't know why but I actually felt a little bit jealous. This girl was really starting to piss me off. See what I mean I'm not a bad person but people like Christine force that dark side out of me.
"I got to admit Josh really knows what his doing when it comes to..." she giggles and bites her lip. "You know what I mean darling."
She taps my shoulder, smirks at me and walks away like she's walking on eggs and trying to make her butt look bigger.
I just stand there biting my jaw. I see Josh standing in front of me with a group of guys. There was this one guy I dated back when I was popular and I noticed him standing next to Josh. I walk over them with a smirk on my face.
"Hi Sam!", I say and wink at him.
"Ashley, What in the world are you doing here?" ,Josh says.
"It's so good to see you here Ash.", Sam says and gives me a hug. "Would you like to dance with me?"
"Sure!" ,I say and follow Sam to the dance floor.
Josh comes with us and I just have this confused look on my face. While I am dancing with Sam Josh stands next to us.
"How do you know Ashley?"
"Well, we go way back Josh. Ashley and I dated for about a year."
" Why do you care Josh?" ,I ask him with an annoyed look on my face.
"Why don't you just go bang Christine in some bathroom or shit, I don't know, leave us alone man.",I add
"Why would I do that Ashley?"
"Josh, is there something going on between you two?" ,asks Sam.
"No, I mean yes.",Josh stutters.
I look at him with a raised eyebrow and a slight part of me can't help but wonder if Josh might have feelings for me...but oh well who cares...not like I'm capable of giving my broken heart out to anyone at this point in my life...or not like he even cherishes it,he will always put me second when it comes to Christine.
"What do you mean yes ?,"I ask Josh
"Come on Ashley let's get you home,you are in no state to drive anywhere.",Josh says.
"What do you mean Joshy poo I'm fine.',I got to admit I was drunk off my ass at the moment but I would never admit that to Josh.
"I'm just feeling really hot...are you? I think you should take your clothes off Josh",I say and giggle.
He throws my arm around his neck and takes me to my car.
"Where are your keys Ashley? "
"Under..."
"What do you mean under..."
"Under my dress Josh..."
Josh looks at me with a raised eyebrow.
Did I ever tell you guys how handsome Josh was. He was literally like a mouth watering juicey mango that could quench any girl's thirst. He was pretty amazing.
"You serious?"
I smile at him and something tells me my dimple was showing.
"It's called a thigh band Joshy poo."
Josh puts his hand on my thigh catching me by surprise. His hand is really warm and goose bumps run down my spine. Is it weird that my hormones were on fire right now.
"You know Ashley...well you probably won't remember this tomorrow so here I go... you have a really nice body, I havent really noticed before cause you know you kind of always wear huge clothes to school and stuff like that."
"Oooh, do you like it?", I giggle.
"Uhhm let me just drive you home okay."
"Josh you are really sexy you know that, I really really want to see you without a top. I want to touch your skin with my bare body.",I giggle again and play with his hair.
He looks kind of nervous and swallows hard.
" You are drunk Ashley you don't know what you are saying."
" Hayyy weeee almost home Josh."
Josh makes a hard right that causes me to go flying into him. Damn the guy smelt really good. I couldn't help but start kissing his neck. I placed small kisses all over his neck and his jawline. I licked his neck going all the way up to his ear and I gently bit it. Causing him to let out a little groan.
"Ashley stop please, this isnt right. You are drunk after all. Come on I'll take you inside. "
My sight was getting really blurry and the last thing I remember was grabbing Josh hand and asking him to stay with me because I felt lonely...