"Hello everyone! It's nice to see you again. I'm so sorry that I look like this, do you think it is strange?"
When I saw Eve, I pause for a moment and I hug her tightly. I wanted to cry because all of those years that I am being with her I did not know that she had a severe illness, I want to blame myself to be like this. Mikoto and Kou also were shocked because they saw Eve that full of dextrose, they can't hide on their face that they wanted to cry. They also know Eve, no one of us notices that Eve has an illness. Every day I am always visiting her and asking if she was alright, nothing new she always responds that she's fine. I am with Eve until the surgery day came, before she went to the operation room she made a promise that she'll come back alive because we'll go to the amusement park together. I was outside of the operation room with her parents and grandparents, we're praying that the surgery will be a success. After the operation, the doctor said that the operation is successful and it makes us happy. I visited Eve in her room with Kou and Mikoto.
"I told you, I'll be back alive after I recover here let's go to the amusement park together"
Every people in the rooms was crying including myself, We'll spend forever together and we'll go to the amusement park every single day. The doctor said that Eve needs to recover and continue her treatment to fully recover, we gladly smile with Eve. Everyone thinks that Eve will recover not until one day she became weaker and she wanted to lie on the bed.
"Based on our examination there are some of the cancer cells are still on the body of Eve, it is not completely eradicated and now it is spreading"
"What do you mean by that? Do you mean that Eve is going to die?"
"Probably, if her body can't resist the cancer cells"
I heard those words that I might be going to die, I already knew that from the beginning. I saw Sei are being desperate to save me but it is my time to go. He does not need to beg just to save me because from the beginning I am a sickly person and I'm not born as a healthy person but I am enjoyed all those years that I am with him. No regrets if I might die soon but I hope before I leave Sei should smile because I don't want to leave him full of sadness. I give a sign that I wanted to hug him and I smile at him sincerely but then he hugged me tightly and cried. He such a baby, but I might be sad if I know that I can't see him again. Sei is always at my side, he never left me in my room. He took care of me and one time I feel that my body is getting weaker day by day. I talked to my mom that I might die soon and I give her a letter to Sei. Today is the last week of April, it was April already. I did not notice the month at all, I saw Sei peeling an apple for me. He was telling me a story while peeling an apple but this day I wanted to rest all day and my eyes are too heavy.
"Sei, I need to sleep. My eyes are too heavy. I love you, always!"
When I heard those words I embrace Eve because I know she might not open her eyes again. Her eyes are closed and the monitor started to be a straight line. The doctor and nurses came into the room and I was kicked out, they starting reviving Eve. I cried all night and waiting for the report condition of Eve but when the doctor came out of the room, the doctor said that Eve was gone. This was a nightmare for me, earlier I'm just telling her a story now she's gone. The promise that she made will not be granted, the parents and relatives of Eve including me, Kou, and Mikoto are mourning. We still can't accept that Eve is already gone, all of the years I am at her side I know nothing. I suddenly remember the day that I dream that I am in pain, I think this is the day. The day that Eve was gone and she died with a bitter smile on her lips. Two months passed by but still, I clearly remember how Eve fight her illness but in the end, she died. The day she tells how much she loved me before she died, she did not even hear the words of my I love you. She did not wait for those words and she leaves me here drowning in my tears every night. I can't forget you Eve, those memories that we made together. I am reminiscing the days with Eve and suddenly the mother of Eve came to our house to give a letter that came from Eve. I open and read the letter, I burst into tears and I can't help myself.
"Dear Sei,
I do not know how would I start but I know what you are thinking right now. The first question on your mind is why did I keep the secret of my illness. Hmmm, It's just a simple explanation I don't want you to worry about me, I know you are too caring when I am sick. I clearly remember when you heard that I am sick on our classmate you went to our house and you skip the class because you are worried about me even though it's just a cold. You asked my mom that you wanted to take care of me, you wanted me to feed and give me medicine. That happened when we're in middle school, do you remember? If you are asking me if I remember, I clearly remember all because you were drooling that time hahahahahaha. First, I wanted to thank you for all those memories that we have made together since our childhood. I am really happy when I met you, all of the memories of our childhood are my treasure. You are always making me smile in a simple way that anyone can't do, you're too cute when you are smiling. You should smile a lot, okay? I think you will be popular with the other girls. Thank you for being part of my life and being your girl in a short period. I would say, you're the best boyfriend ever and no one can beat you because you are the only person I loved. I'm sorry that I keep a secret from you, to be honest, my illness was started at the age of 12. Every night I feel a lot of pain and I can't sleep very well, my legs are swelling and all I can do is cry. You become my strength every time I see you I become stronger because I want to live longer to be with you. I enjoyed anything just being with you, every night I am in pain but in day you are my reliever. Whenever I see you smile it makes me stronger and stronger that also the time I realized that I want to live with you. You are my happiness. You are my light, you are my strength, you are my everything. I'm sorry if I lied to you that every summer vacation I went to America just for the vacation but to treat and check my condition, that was the time I was fighting my disease. After all, I already made up my decision that I must survive this illness because I have you. Since you receive my letter I think I was already gone. My body can't resist the cancer cells on my body, I did not regret that my mom called you because at the last moment of my life I see and hug you. I'm fine that I see your face before I leave on this world, you made my life colorful and too bright when I am with you. I did not regret that I confess my feelings to you because I want you to know that I liked you. My feelings reach you but I'm not here anymore, you should be happy without me, okay? Always take care, I will love you even I'm not here anymore. I love you, Sei!
-Eve
Thank you for everything, Eve. You're the love of my life, I will never forget you. I'll love you forever and I'll be starting to moving forward. I'll remember those memories that we made together, I'll try to start from the beginning just watch me at heaven, Eve.