I am staring at the ceiling soulless my body hurts so much from last night that I could barely get my ass out of bed "Thank God he leaves to work" I was lost in thoughts when the alarm clock startled me I hit the snooze button to give myself another 10 minutes.
"Get up they need you" my mind yells at me now focusing on the only thing that holds me alive, my babies, if it wasn't for them I would have already killed myself to escape this shit life.
Three times I tried three times he made me... forced me... raped me... until I get pregnant because he knew I would never harm an innocent life, and still I tried 2 more times postpartum when desperation and postpartum depression take over...
Pregnancy was the only way to avoid his sick mind was the only time he didn't touch me, I lost my first child because he was playing with me and beat me to almost dead because I say my safe word when he wasn't done with me "safe word puff" my mind exclaimed...
"How could I never pay attention to the signs? I'm so stupid" a low cry leaving my mouth. My mind takes me back 9 years ago when I meet him, I was graduating from college 22 years and a whole future ahead of me, he was one of the honor speakers, everyone considers him the gold finger. Oscar Saunders, 28 years a billionaire and very successful a young prodigy.
He made his fortune through gold it was very rare to find a gold mine nowadays but I believe he made a pact with the devil because it's easy for him to find gold... "He is so gorgeous." I thought while he was doing his speech.
He told us how he started his company and how he had to abdicate many things in his life to build his empire at such a young age he motivated us his speech was incredibly empowering I was in awe with his words, when our eyes met I was hypnotized by his deep dark eyes he cracks a beautiful grin apparently to me??
His appearance is very powerful and dominant he is 6'7ft white slightly tan and muscular his hairstyle faux with an undercut is midnight black and was messy making him look even hotter he is wearing a casual but elegant look.
When the speech finishes we were redirected to the buffet area, I was talking with some colleagues we were happy and laughing celebrating this chapter that ends and excited about the new one that is about to begin. I see the girls' smile grow wider and they were staring at someone behind me I turn to see his beautiful smile while he walks towards us.
—"Oh gosh, I will do anything to fuck him hard." - Lilly says giggling
—"He is so hot that I get dump just to look at him!" - Mara is on full hoe mode on
— "I would love to gag in that cock!" - Emma says staring at him shamelessly
—"Jesus Emma!" I exclaimed smiling at her, they had a lot of fun I instead was studying hard... Officially the nerd of the group. He was coming closer and closer, and then I listened to his gruff voice.
—"Congratulations girls, cheers to the new beginnings!" His perfume was wooded and spicy literacy intoxicating, his grin deadly sexy, eyes were dark and something was sparkling in it.
—"What brings you here to us Mr. Saunders?! Emma asks curiously.
—"Please call me Oscar! only my employees call me that name it makes me sound older" he continues —"I came here to congratulate you ladies and speak with this gorgeous woman right here!" He said looking straight into my eyes smirking it was like he could see my soul.
And that was when everything begins, we started dating... our first time was weird but I thought it was only my inexperience mocking, I wasn't as sexually experienced as him and he shows me a new world that I started to enjoy, but when I didn't want to play only cuddles and old fashioned sex he always gets moody.
I was in love with him everything was perfect we were perfect for each other I was living my fairytale, we never argued in our dating time he was always there to me, his sexual preferences never bothered me I was submissive and in 6 months he had never punished me for anything because when we went into play I always love the things he did to me.
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He started with small things he would call me many times a day while working or traveling to ask me where I was saying that he misses me, he always ordered food for me saying for me to try new food, we went to the gym together because he wouldn't let me go by myself because he was worried about me, I never speak in front of his friends only if he nods to me to do
—"Because they were boring." he said...
He slowly started to tell me how to dress how to behave and I was so blind that I thought he just cares a lot about me and the sex with him was amazing, he started to become more demanding after I get my first job everything I just described intensified 10x how stupid I was.
I only thought he was looking out for me I never had a boyfriend that cared that much about me... "What a dumb" I sighed closing my eyes and coming back to my reverie.
It happened the first time when he asked me to marry him it was our 8 month anniversary I was blindly in love and happy, he proposed to me in a fancy restaurant...
—"She Said Yes!" He said loudly and everyone clapped hands for us it was a dream coming true he was the love of my life I was sure of it so there's no problem in be with him forever, right?.
Tears of regret leave my eyes silently while remembering the sign I should never have ignored... When all fuss calm he holds my hands, kiss and say —"Ok, so tomorrow you quit your job"
—"What? No!" I said, his smile faded his face contorted in confusion I never had said no to him before. He inhales deeply and says —"Baby I'm a billionaire I have enough money for both, you don't need to work!"
—"But I want to work Oscar I don't want to depend on your money I'm not a gold digger," I say frowning.
—"I know babe if you were I never would have had a second date with you!" He continues —" I need you beside me I wanna wake up every day with you I wanna pampering you properly you never let me buy you gifts"
—"Babe... I need to think about it, I love my job and I don't wanna be doing nothing all day because "my husband is a billionaire." I said with sarcasm.
He sucks in his breath close his eyes then exhales... —"Fine, you have 24 hours to decide or me or your job I don't have time to play games" I open my mouth to reply but he gently put his thumb on my lips —"Not here" His eyes were dark flicking with deception? rage? anger? I couldn't identify. Normally on weekends I sleepover in his penthouse so he pays the bill and we leave before the desert.
I never saw that look in his eyes he drove us in silence, a very uncomfortable one, I must say he didn't look at me when he said —"Do you wanna play with me tonight at least?" his voice demanding.
—"Yes baby I want, I love you and you know th—"
—"Not now" his voice is bitter it was the first time I feel a pang of fear but I push that fear away.
"He loves me, he never gonna hurt me." I thought lying to myself to feel at ease...
But I knew deep inside that today it will be the day he will punish me for my "bad behavior" my heart started to beat fast in 8 months never happened so I didn't know what to expect, but I will allow him to do it because I love him and I will do anything to make him smile again.
What a fucking dumb I was, what the fuck dumb I am" I started to sob and curled in a ball in my bed tired of look at the ceiling.
When we arrive in his penthouse he didn't look at me he just orders —"Go to the right side of the bed strip and get on your knees, and don't you dare to look at me I'm fucking mad at you right now" I look to my feet and felt ashamed of me like If I had done something wrong "Did I?"
I did what he said and waited...
He comes out of his massive walk-in closet shirtless with jeans he looks calmer, that just frightened me more, he starts to slowly circle me while I keep my head down, I was at a point that fear of what was coming was taking over making me tremble.
—"Stand up and look at me" his gruff voice commands me without any sign of anger I felt relief and sigh releasing the air I didn't realize I was holding.
—"Are you afraid of me?"
—"A little..." - my voice cracks
—"Why?"
—"Because we never had playing with me being punished and you know that..."
—"Look at me" his voice was bitter and dry I hesitate and he grabbed my chin hard and turn my face to him.
—"Good" he gives me the most demoniacal grin I ever have seen.
—"Will you hurt me?" I asked in a low tone.
—"Do you want to make me happy right now? because I'm thinking that you don't love me anymore"
—"Oscar I lov—"
—"Shut the fuck up" he growled at me.
I step back trembling my eyes widened, he never has talked to me like that fear overcome me —"Pineapple" - I said scared I just wanted to go home, so I said the word that was supposed to end our playing time.
His eyes narrowed just as his lips —"Are you leaving me?" he closes the distance between us, he was staring at me with his black eyes his expression gives nothing, his chest rises and falls fast like a predator preparing to attack.
—"I'm not feeling good right now I just wanna go home, please Baby take me home" My voice was a plea, and then it happened... In a flash one of his huge hands are behind my neck he holds tight the other circled my waist as he pulls me closer my heart was exploding with fear and a hint of arousing making my feelings become a blur of confusion, but when I looked into his eyes everything I could see was anger.
—"WHAT ARE YOU DOING? LET GO OF ME"
He leans in and speaks slowly in my ear —" You are mine to do what I want when I want" His tone was low but so fucking menacing that I just wanted to run away from him I tried to release his grip but he tightened even more.
—"You're not going anywhere"
—"LET ME GO, YOU'RE HURTING ME"
Ignoring me completely he starts to rub himself on me I felt his hardness growing he was enjoying the whole thing.
—"LET IT G—."
He stares at me his eyes dangerous —"If you scream in my face one more time I will tie you"
I never felt so angry in my whole life, I tried hard to make him release his grip I didn't want to kick his balls I didn't wanna hurt him, it happened all so fast... I slapped him hard he released me...
I step back and watch in horror as anger becomes wrath in his eyes one of his hand's touch where I had slapped, in a super speed motion he grabbed me by the arm and throw me hard in the bed...
—"DON'T YOU DARE TO MOVE, OLIVIA" He had never raised his voice to me I froze in place while he opened his nightstand and grabbed silver tape.
—"What are you doi—" I didn't have time to finish the sentence he glared at me and I heard the silver tape noise.
—"How many times I have to say to you to SHUT THIS FUCK MOUTH UP" he covers my mouth with silver tape.
I couldn't understand how we got at this point he just exploded in anger and I'm fucking scared, I never see this side of him he comes up the bed and hooks my hands and feet in our playing strings, I reach my limit starting to cry, he began to pacing and murmuring to himself I was afraid because of his unexpected behavior.
—"Don't you wanna be by my side? Am I not enough for you? Is your job more important than your man? Are you sure do you love me, Olivia? because now I just see a selfish bitch in front of me, maybe you just think you're too good to me..." His words hurt me so badly, he continues.
—"You even dare to slap me, but now I will show you how your man controls this kind of situation" - his voice was bitterly raw his eyes blinking with dark lust.
—"Do you ever love me, Olivia?" - He asks his expression cold as Siberian winter, I nod.
—"Then why are you doing this to me... to us? his tone had changed to something like deception? sadness? his face hardened.
—"I know how to fix it, I will make you love even if is the last thing I do in my life" - His words were sour and have no sense to me, I love him I was just scared because he suddenly had become a beast...
He takes off his jeans and boxers my eyes widened again I didn't wanna do it I just wanna go home I shook my head in a negative sign getting more and more hopeless.
—"YOU DON'T WANT ME?" - he sounded surprised his voice makes me shiver.
—"I will make you love me."
I couldn't move I was open, exposed in the bed I tried to pull from my restraints with all my strength I'm sure there will be terrible bruises on my wrists, but I didn't care I fight him.
—"Stay still."
He was hard and throbbing just by seeing me frightened and desperate I look in his eyes with horror he stares at me with hangry eyes.
—"I. will. make. you. love. me."
I don't understand why he was repeatedly saying this to me, he holds my chin and started to kiss me roughly, going down biting my nips I cry out, but he keeps going down... to my core.
—"You're so dry, Babe" - He spits on me comes over and in a violent rough motion he thrust his throbbing cock inside me, he moans almost growling while I cried in pain...
He raped me several times that night every time rougher, harder and brutal making sure to mark me, his bites were everywhere in my body. In the morning I was in shock, I couldn't believe the man I love did that to me.
"Did I love him? What I was doing?"
He stared at me all the time I was emotionless, empty, and as if he had awakened from his evil spell he looks desperate, lost, scared... regretful? He looks at me chained in his bed bleeding from my pussy and ass, the several bites he gave me had taken off small pieces of my skin my eyes swollen from crying and my lips with several bite marks were swollen because he decided to kiss me when I wasn't a threat anymore.
He looks at me —"BABY" for the first time since we left that restaurant I heard the voice of the man I fall in love with as if he was two different persons, he runs to me and released me I feel strong arms around my cold ravaged body.
—"I'm sorry baby I lose control, please talk to me forgive me I promise I never will do it again"
I didn't move I didn't cry I didn't do anything other than breathe very slowly... He picks the phone and calls his doctor after a couple of hours the doctor came in and look in horror at the mess he did with me.
—"Are you taking your medicines, Mr. Saunders?"
—"Yes"
—"Have you been drinking?"
—"Yes, yesterday I ask her to marry me, please Doc help her" - his voice full of regret
—"She said no?"
—" No, she said yes" - he couldn't look into his eyes, Doc looked at him with full disapproval.
—"Emotional shock and slight hemorrhage if you take her to the hospital you know what's going to happen..."
—"I know, please Doc" he begged
I will help her and you, but you own me, Oscar, I've been in your family enough time to know that you're lying to me but I won't pressure to know what really happened now. Doc started to taking care of my wounds and Oscar helped him.
I couldn't believe what I was hearing "Is he sick?" psychopath? bipolar? something was wrong I paid the price to not never ask further about his life by the way they are talking is not the first time that something like this happens...
It took three weeks to heal my visible injuries he took care of me sleeps beside me never forcing me into anything Doc was emphatic about give me space to heal.
—"Please Baby talk to me I'm begging you"
I couldn't look at him every time I did I remember his craziness and violence towards me, he raped me so many times that in some I was completely blacked out, and just wake up with him inside me... "He was probably high no man can fuck that much sane"
—"Please Baby I love you, forgive me, please talk to me hit me again just say something, it's been three weeks that you didn't say a word your mother is worried and so do I"
I gather my courage and just ask one question —"Why?" I didn't have the energy to ask anything else Gosh I cant barely walk...
He let out a big sigh look into my hurt soul and —"Please forgive me, I lost my control It will never happen again"
—"It was not what I ask," I said glaring at him.
—"My mother throw me in the trash can when I was born I hit my head very hard the doctor said" He stopped for a minute as gathering his balls to say more
—"Sometimes I lose my control I never meant harm you... I did take my medicines, but I drink with you at the restaurant I wasn't drunk, but it affected the medicine effect on me... when you said you needed time to think I thought... I... I thought you were leaving me just like my mom did"
I was shocked I couldn't find words to describe how he just made me feel bad about it...
"Omg it was all my fault," I thought —"Why you never told me about it?"
—"I was about to tell you but I was afraid you wouldn't want to be my wife if I did..." - His eyes were pure sadness and regret, this was another person...
—"I thought you would never marry a guy with my condition..." he murmured under his breath.
I didn't know what happened to me but I feel sorry for him for us... I still loved him even after what happened our first fight was almost dead to me and I need to be sure he really will never do it again.
—"Can you take me to my mother's home please I need some time to sort all of this"
—"Sure I can take you home Baby"
He took me to my mom's. My mother was so mad at me so many days without notice when she saw me she hug me tight —"I feel something bad happening to you" - she said crying
—"Mrs. Kight" - his face stoic
—"Son, I don't know yet what happened between you two but one thing is sure, please never come back to my house I am asking you nicely"
Without wait for an answer, she turns and guides me inside neither I nor my mother look back. For weeks I didn't answer his messages or phone calls, but every day he sends presents to me as an apology, I couldn't lie to my mom so I tell her almost everything I just letting aside the blood, rape, bruises, bites, and shock for days part out...
—"Olivia I will support you in everything you do, but I don't have a good feeling about this guy, and is not the first time I tell you this something is wrong with him." - she says calmly caressing my forehead.
—"I love him so much, mom"
—"Are you sure of that? is this feeling really love?"
I frowned —"What do you mean? Of course, it is I love him"
—"Though the past months I just observed how he manipulated and controlled you as his wish, you're not even coming to see me anymore because of him you need to make a decision, let him in or kick him out, and I recommend the second option he doesn't deserve you"
She continues...
—"Anything he did to you if he hurt you once he probably will do it again, I just want you to be safe and happy"
—"I will think about it mom Thank you so much." When mom was about to leave her room I asked her —"Mom, can I stay a little longer?"
—"Always and for the time you need me my love anything for you!" She smiles and leaves me with my thoughts.
For the next weeks I thought about him about our moments together and reply to him, he was just as always making me feel good, kind, and caring. Messages become phone calls and then video calls when I realized we were dating again.
I looked at my engagement ring and thought harder and deciding to allow myself "happiness"... I did the BIGGEST mistake of my life I married him and very soon I realize that. On our honeymoon, he beat me to blood because "my shirt was showing too much..."
He made me his slave and hurts me every time he felt sad, frustrated, bored when something goes bad on his work, Doc becomes a frequent guest in our Mansion in Hamptons mansion without any servants I have to take care of everything, and if he doesn't like how I clean cook or how am I dressed he beat me and tortures me, again and again, he rapes me as his wish.
I created a place deep in my mind where I can go when he is hurting me I just sat back in the darkness humming a lullaby waiting for him to finish and the Doctor to come...
When I said "I do" and kiss him I sealed a pact with the Devil himself.
The alarm clock sounds again snapping me out of my misery I force myself to stand up swallow some pain pills to hold on today, drag myself to the bathroom throwing cold water on my shitty face, put on some makeup to hide the bruises, and go down hug, kiss and prepare breakfast to my daughters.
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