"Ahmm,Axl"
Tawag ko kay Axl na nasa labas ng pintuan ng kwarto ng mga bata at prenteng nakasandal sa dingding.
Umayos ito ng tayo at tingnan ako, bahagyang tumaas ang kilay nito.
"I think we need to talk"
Kalmadong sabi ko sakanya at naglakad papunta sa kusina upang hindi marinig ng mga bata mula sa kwarto ang pag uusapan naming dalawa.
Tumayo ako malapit sa refrigerator at tinignan siya ng maigi.
"Why are you here?"
Paunang tanong ko sakanya na kating kati ko nang gusto itanong sakanya, simula nung makita ko siyang karga karga kanina si Thorn sa main door ng bahay namin.
Ngumisi ito ng naasar at matalim na tumingin saakin.
"And why not Xena?...They are also my children's so I have the rights to be with them cause I am their father"
Walang emosyong sabi nito sa harap ko kaya ako Naman ang napangisi at tinaasan siya ng kilay.
"Oh c'mon, cut the crap Magnus Axl.How can you sure that they are your child?...As far as I remember you saw me as a slut before, so how can you be so sure na anak mo sila?What if I say that They are someone's children's?"
That's what I wanted to ask from him since he says that he know he has a children's with me.
Papaano Niya ba naisip at nasisiguro na siya talaga ang ama ng mga anak ko.
He's eyes suddenly seems looked so dark and I feel anger on it.
"How can I be sure?,Well, You love me Xena,I got your virginity when you were 17,I am your first and I know you cannot bare to bed someone else than me"
Siguradong sigurado nitong sagot kaya napasimangot ako.
Yes he was my first and I loved him before...And yes,I can't really bare to sex with other man than him.
But that's fucking BEFORE.
I just smirked and raise my brow at him.
"How can you so sure?....Okay,sabihin na nating anak mo si Yue but how about Thorn?Are you sure he's your son?"
Nakangisi kong tanong ngunit wala man lang itong ipinapakitang emosyon ang mukha nito kundi tanging ang mga mata lamang nito ang nagpapakita ng inis at galit.
"And why not?"
He mumbled at me and grab my right arm.
I let him grab my arm, well I think I pissed him off.And that's great.
"Why you asking this shits woman?,"
Galit at matigas na bulong nito saakin,
Ang galing talagang mag doble kara ng gagong ito ano?kung kanina ay ang bait bait niya sa harap ng mga anak ko pero pagka kami nalang dalawa ay para itong leon na pag ininis ay mananakmal nalang bigla.
I smirked at him and I just endured the pain I am feeling right now on my wrist were he was holding so tightly.
"Cause I am the mother of my children's Magnus and I know your game fucker- alam kong may plano kang hindi ko alam."
Ngumisi ito at lumapit ng bahagya saakin.
"You busted me don't you?"
Nakangiti nitong sabi.
Kahit naiinis ako at nagawa ko paring ngumiti sa harap niya.
At sinasabi ko na nga ba.
I don't believe this part of the manipulator Magnus Axl Gauthreaux.
I know him and I don't believe his shits.
Bakit siya magkakainteres na puntahan at magpakilala sa mga anak ko kung gayon ay wala naman talaga siyang pakialam sa tinatakbo ng buhay ko?
As I think,kahit na sinabi ko pasakanya noon na buntis ako kay Yue at the first place.
Alam ko ang sasabihin niya.
He wanted me to get rid of my child.
Kaya nga hindi ko sinabi sakanya at pumunta ng Hongkong upang magbuntis rito at pagkatapos ay paplanuhin kong papaano ko siya makukuha kay Monet noon.
"Alam na alam na kita Axl. Sa tingin mo maniniwala pa ako sa mga ginagawa mong tarantado ka?"
I know he's into something at gusto kong malaman iyon.
"Why you so cussed a lot so now babe?"
He playfully said at me and touch gently my cheeks.
"Cause I am not the same Xena you knows before Axl,"
Tumaas ang sulok ng labi nito at inilapit ang mukha nito saakin kaya napaatras ako.
"Really?, Well,I saw you as the still Xena I've known before babe...You are the same immature 19 woman.A selfish and weak."
Nanggigigil Naman ako sa sinabi Niya at nakipag sukatan ng tingin sa galit na mga kulay abo nitong mata.
"Fine. I'll tell you about my plan why I am here and capturing the trust of my children's,....Well you just killed my child with Monet Xena.At kahit na anong sorry ang gawin mo hindi nun maibabalik ang anak namin ni Monet.Do you understand?"
I saw anger in his face and pain at the same time.
Kung dati ay nasasaktan ako kapag nakikita kong nasasaktan si Axl.
Kinakapa ko ang nararamdaman ko pero wala akong mahanap.
I can't be sorry for his sadness.Cause he is being cry and selfish again.
Still now,Si Monet parin ang nasa utak Niya.
"Sa tingin ko kinuha ang anak ninyo ni Monet sainyo dahil sa pagiging makasarili mo Axl"
Walang abog na sabi ko sakanya at agad namang bumalot ang galit sa mga mata Niya na mas lalo pang nadagdagan.
"You are a selfish, ruthless,cruel mother fucker-"
I didn't finish to utter my words ng inipit niya ng madiin ang pisngi ko gamit ang kamay nito.
"Yes I am Xena.But you are more than that bitch.You are a murderer"
Yes I am,But I feel sorry again and again for that.
Halos gabi gabi akong nanghihingi ng tawad sa Diyos dahil sa pilit na pagpasok sa putang inang buhay Niya.
"And I am going to accept your apology if you give me my child at me"
Walang dalawang isip kong tinanggal ang pagkakaipit nito sa pisngi ko at sinampal siya ng malakas.
"You can't have my children's until I die Magnus."
Hinding hindi ko ibibigay sakanya ang mga anak ko dahil sila lang ang mayroon ako sa buhay.
Hindi ako papayag na ipapalit niya saakin si Monet bilang pagiging ina ko sa mga anak ko.
Ako lang ang ina nina Yue at Thorn at wala nang iba pa.
"Then should I kill you then to have my children with me?Well,I can give them a better life Xena that you can't give to them."
Yes,maybe I am not that rich to provide all the needs of my children's but money is not the case.They okay with a simple life with me. That's I am so sure of.
"I don't care Magnus.Isaksak mo sa baga mo yang pinagmamalaki mong pera gago"
Galit na bulong ko sakanya,
I am pissed and I know he is too.
Hindi ako papatalo uli sakanya.Magkamatayan man.At kung una man Niya akong ipapatay ay magsusulat ako ng letter at sasabihin ko roon na tanging si Axl lang ang nagbibigay saakin ng death threats.
Ngumisi lang ang gago at idinikit ako lalo sa refrigerator.
"I can have my child if I want to Xena.Why I even asking for your permission anyway if I can take them with me.If that's happened anytime soon. I'll make sure that they won't remember you again. They would know Monet as their mom."
How can he says this bullshits in front of me?
Why he is so selfish?
Wala ba talaga siyang awa saakin o diman kaya'y sa mga anak Niya?
He is so fucking selfish.
He just want to take away my children's para ipalit sa anak na namatay nila ni Monet.
"W-why you so cruel huh?"
Gustong gusto ko na siyang bayagan at pagkatapos ay dadampot ako ng kutsilyo at itatarak sa bunganga Niya.
"Wala ka bang pakialam sa mararamdaman ng mga anak mo huh?"
Naiiyak na sabi ko sakanya so I bit my lower lip to prevent the tears from my eyes.
"I don't like you to be the mother of my children's Xena. Bakit ba Kasi ikaw pa ang nabuntis ko at hindi nalang si Monet?"
I smiled bitterly as I slapped him again and punched his chest.I really want to hit him until he die and I am going to buried him at hell.
"You bullshit!Kung nagsisi kang ako ang nabuntis mo ede sana hindi ka pasok ng pasok ng walang pananggang tarantado ka!tas ako ang sisisihin mong ulol ka?"
He stopped me by hitting him and intently looked at me.
"I am really regretting that I fucked you Xena."
Napatigil ako at napatulala sa sinabi niya.
I remembered this line.
He regretted that he fucked me.
That's exactly what he told me 8 years ago before he leaved me and dump me like a trash.
"Oh yeah?well I regretting it too.Do you know what?I don't want you to know that you impregnated me cause I know this would be happened.I didn't tell you when I know I was pregnant with Yue kasi alam kong Mahal mo si Monet and you would just tell me that I should get rid of our own child Axl-"
Hindi ko na napigilan at tumulo na ang luha ko.
I don't want him to think that I am still weak pero hindi ko nakaya pang magpanggap.
"Nasasaktan ako.Araw araw kong iniisip kung papaano kaya ang buhay ko kung hindi kita nakilala?Papaano kaya kung may kinalikhang tatay ang mga anak ko at hindi ikaw yun?....Alam mo naiisip kong mas may kwenta pa sayo si Rhys.He can love his niece and nephew like his own daughter and son.Ang malas ng mga anak ko kasi selfish ka.You don't even think what would they feel!You were just thinking about your fucking self!I hate you so much Axl.Sana hindi nalang ikaw ang tatay ng mga anak ko"
Iyak na sabi ko at nanghihina.
Sana nandito si Rhys.
Sana nandito siya at nakikita ko silang nag aasaran ng mga anak ko.
Nakakahiya mang amini pero sana si Rhys nalang ang ama ng mga anak ko.Sana siya nalang ang nilapitan ko nung una palang at Sana siya nalang ang nakakuha ng virginity ko at hindi si Axl Kasi mas may balls pa si Rhys kaysa sa putang inang kuya Niya.
Napaigik ako ng mas humigpit ang pagkakahawak nito sa magkabilang palapusuhan ko at halos bumaon na ang kuko nito sa balat ko.
"REALLY? THEN GIVE ME MY CHILDREN'S FIRST AND YOU CAN FUCK RHYS ANYTIME YOU WANT AND MAKE SOME FUCKING BABIES."
Pabulong na sabi nito pero halata ang Galit sa bawat salitang sinasabi nito.
"I really don't trust that you and Rhys are brothers.Magaspang Kasi ang ugali mong gago ka"
Habol hininga at kinakabahan kong sambit,alam kong maiinis lang siya lalo sa sinabi ko pero wala na akong pakealam.Bahala na.
Basta masabi ko na ang Galit ko para sakanya.
Walong taon ko rin itong kinimkim.
"Bakit ka paba pumunta dito huh?Bakit hindi mo nalang pabayaan ang mga anak ko saakin?Bakit hindi nalang kayo mag sex nung putang inang Monet nayun at mag anak kayo huh?Bakit kailangang guluhin mo ang Tahimik naming buhay ng mga anak ko?Isipin mo nalang na hindi mo sila kaano ano Magnus at pabayaan mo nalang kami.Masaya kami kahit hindi ka nila nakilala. Hindi naman naghahanap ng tatay si Yue eh."
His jaw tightened and grab me closer to him.
"Monet can't accept me again until I wouldn't give her our child-"
Kaagad kong tinapos ang sinabi Niya
"But they are my children Magnus!Akin sila at hindi sa putang inang babae mo!You just can't get them na para bang laruan sila!You can't just act that you were with me while having a hard time to just have them! Did you know that Yue got into an accident in stairs when she was 3 years old?! Naaksadinte siya dahil sira yung hagdanan sa una naming apartment!And I always blames myself because I cannot take her at a comfortable place na hindi siya mapapahamak!Did you know that I sleep in street when I first got here in Hongkong and knew that I was pregnant with Yue huh?!Hindi ako humingi ng tulong sa dad ko kasi alam kong magiging disappointed siya sakin pag nalaman Niyang nagpabuntis ako ng 18 years old palang ako!AYOKONG HUMINGI NG TULONG KAHIT KANINO KASI GUSTO KUNG MAGING MATURE ENOUGH GAYA NG GUSTO MONG MANGYARI SAAKIN!GUSTO KONG MAY MAPATUNAYAN SA IYO!NA KAYA MO RIN AKONG MAHALIN GAYA NG PAGMAMAHAL MO SA TANG INANG BABAENG YUN!alam mo bang premature si Yue?,She was just 7 months when I gaved birth to my daughter.Walang wala ako.wala akong maipangbayad sa ospital.Napaka wala kong kwentang ina kasi hindi ko naalagaan ng maayos si Yue ng ipinagbubuntis ko palang siya kaya siguro naging premature yung anak ko."
Sunod sunod ang tulo ng mga luha ko.
"M-maybe it's because of my sleepless night when I was working on bar being waitress while being pregnant with her.O di kaya'y siguro sa mga nalilipasan ako minsan ng gutom dahil sa trabaho.When I was 3 months pregnant with her,I was bleeding one day and I really thought my daughter would be gone to me.But she is so brave M-magnus"
I smiled while tears was still into me.
I looked at him and weakly smiled.
"S-she fight....She fight inside of me and made me a true mother for the first time.Si Yue ang unang nag turo saakin na maging matapang ako,Kasi nga naging matapang din siya nung muntikan na siyang mawala saakin."
I still remember that time.
Akala ko mawawala na si Yue P-pero ang bait parin ng Diyos saakin.He didn't let my daughter to take away from me.
I looked at Magnus who now emotionless looking at me.
I don't say this things cause I want him to be feel pity at me.
Gusto ko lang sa ipamukha sakanya na kaya ko ang buhay ko kahit na ano mula sakanya.
Na ako ang ina ni Yue at Thorn at hindi iyon magbabago ni mabubura man kahit kailan.
Ako ang nagbuntis at nanganak kina Yue and Thorn kaya wala nang dapat pang maging ina sina Yue kundi ako lang.
I looked at him and accept his emotionless stares at me.
"I won't let you to have my kids."
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