i'll go to home and get my relaxation with novel sweet revenge and some music, i like rock, hip hop and many more i like classic is too. i doubt to my first experience with paul i think, he so cold in that office but i think he try to act like pro hehehe... if that so i believe he cute like dave in the past. maybe he is funny person but why he act like that. arggh.. i can't think that, come bitch you know your can attract boy as many jill say . yeah i am the motherfucking princess you know when i was in college i become to be betting by my friend. and am not ugly you jill by seeing a miror.
shit me let me focus to work and i don't want to be the person like jerk dave who play women heart. sometime i want to kill dave cause that he is make my bestfriend hurt and me. arggghhhh... why i was thinking dave and paul. man just like that he always can be have another relationship going well. sometime he found a better women and he leaving her. yeah i like beeing jerk to the man, am the bitches you now that, jill say.
the song of gun and roses that i heard sweet child of men make me back my memories in tha past it's really sweet on me. i can't sing but i like many kind of song , and i also like dangdut from indonesia. i like via vallen when they singing althought i don't know meaning of the song but it's nice. sometime i like to go to indonesia maybe with jessica we can see a lot of many thing tribe, culture, view and many more.
i know i never been go out am just in the room and lock it up for a long time. now i want to see something new and the new me. i feel like baby monster you know that, i was born in the other planet maybe from mars i think. my parent is like kind of nice person but am differnt from them. you know that when i was lock in the room i always play my mind by the voice inside of me, i try to figure it out it's true or fals hahahaha.... it' funny jill but your crazy hahahaha. i was so naked when think of it again.
yeah it true but am fine so far so good for me am still listen the voice inside of mind mine but not always and now i like reading a book than am doing nothing. i like listen music and try insipare it. maybe you can call me crazy but am not the only one. now am new and i think am not a normal person cause of my experience maybe am xtra carzy you can call that.
i beelive what i say cause am just a girl think and i don't know what will happen next to me. am just listen to the voice if its right i agree with it but if doesn't true i ignore it. i don't wanna say to the doctor cause i think is unsual feeling , you know i can step by step to tell to the doctor but i don't. i can have many thing word in my mind but still i don't have a clue to say it to the doctor. doctor just know me as unsual person and i have a mental illnes.
i believe if i say that my medicine will be added, drink the medicine like that is killing. and the more killing me this illnes cannot be cure in one time. we should drink it yearly and i learn many thing in this illness, like how,when, and what you do if you have this mental illnes. i not a person who can be like supermen to be strong or am not a perfectionist person. but i am will be the best and do to the best i like to learning and that why people like me get comloude in the university.