In a panicked frenzy, I cried out to Jax to stop as he was kicking him. I could tell he was fracturing ribs with each kick and inflicting a lot of damage. "Alpha, the man is down. There is no need to punish him further, I am sure he has learned his lesson". Jax mid kick stopped and glared at Mercer before growling. That sound was far from human and sounded animalistic. This whole scene felt like a never ending nightmare. He straightened up and raked his fingers through his hair even though they were a bloody mess.
It's finally all over. I thought to myself. At least no one is dead. My heart skipped a beat at that thought, someone could have died from Jax' violent actions. I exhaled feeling the adrenaline escape in that breath, I felt like my body was going to collapse. Too much had happened in the space of a couple of hours.
Abruptly he turned and he came striding towards me looking so livid. Maybe it wasn't over yet.
Fuck!
He was on a one tonight. The rage had contorted his beautiful face which now looked menacing. Suddenly Mercer let go of me and I knew I was in danger. If he was refusing to stand up to Jax on my behalf, then ... shit!
"Don't run. It will be easier that way," I thought I heard him whisper.
Fuck that! My survival instinct told me to do something. I broke into a sprint. At this point in time Jax was an animal, ready to destroy its prey. I knew that my focus was supposed to be on escaping, but I couldn't help but look back as I was sprinting across the lot, to gage how much distance I had put between us.
I was so relieved when I didn't see him, but that relief was short lived when I bumped into something hard and bounced backwards. That was strange, as the lot had been clear.
My entire body was trembling in fear. I had bumped into him. How? None of it made sense how could he that fast?
His breathing was ragged, which I assumed was from anger not from exertion. Numbness consumed me. To the point where I didn't even flinch when my skin scraped the ground as I fell. Terror was coursing through my veins he was too far gone. Reason had left a long time ago and I didn't know what he was going to fo to me, but one thing I knew for certain was that either way he was going to hurt me.
In the midst of everything that was happening I couldn't help but feel a sense of de ja vu. I felt as though this had had happened before, me trying to run from him but the setting had been different. The only difference was that previously his face was devoid of any emotion and this time rage was all I saw.
It finally hit me, the nightmare was not a dream it was a suppressed memory. The boy standing before me right now was the one who had me waking up in a cold sweat and screaming on some nights.
"Jax please...".
My plea didn't even reach him.
"Jax please don't hurt me again like that last time in the woods. Please I beg you I wont upset you again", for a moment he hesitated but once the moment had passed, he grabbed my hair and raised me up by it so that we were eye to eye. My feet were dangling a few feet off the ground.
He is so tall I thought to myself, low key admiring his physique. I shook my head trying to clear it. This guy is deliberately inflicting pain to you. I shouldn't be thinking of him in that light.
I needed to focus on something to divert this intense pain I was feeling.
I took in a long breath ignoring the pain streaming through my body as a result of being lifted by my hair. He had visibly calmed down some. In swift motion he removed his hand from my hair and grabbed my jumpsuit roughly. The material gave out and ripped which made me land on my ass.
In that moment, I was done. How could a guy who didn't know me at all want to hurt me so much physically? My back was in so much pain I swear it felt like it was broken, I felt humiliated sitting on my ass half naked in front Mercer, and the members of the football team that were out of consciousness, in the dead of night in the parking lot. How much was it going to take until he was satisfied?
"Why do you hate me so much?", I asked sobbing in despair.
"Why do you always hur ... hur... hurt me?"
The emotional pain I could handle but this is too much.
"Jax I'm sorry. I'm so fucking sorry for whatever I did to make you hate me." I continued sobbing.
His eyes still looked mighty pissed. He glared down at me then threw his leather jacket at me to cover up because I was sitting there in my sheer lace bra in the cold.
I took it gratefully and put it on. "Submit", he said simply.
In that moment. I no-longer saw the beauty in him. He was just a cruel monster who had a major vendetta against me. All he ever did was hurt me from the moment he met me.
I was so confused in this moment what bullshit BDSM shit was he thinking of at a time like this. I searched my mind to try and understand this psycho.
"I don't understand," I said finally defeated.
"I'm your alpha, you are my Luna submit," he barked at me.
I stared up at him still baffled. He got into a squatting position hovering infront of me. I flinched and moved backwards.
That glint was in his eye, that dark and ... evil glint. I knew the only way I would leave here alive was if I followed his order.
I had no strength left, emotionally and physically I was drained. Fear and pain had destroyed my resilience.
"I submit Jax, I submit", I said desperately.
I was so fatigued.
He picked me up and stood up. I had to bite my tongue to stop myself from screaming no-one could save me. Being in his arms was causing me so much distress and anxiety which I could not voice of out from fear of not knowing how Jax was going to react.
A metallic taste rushed into my mouth. I realised as he was walking that I had bitten my tongue so hard to stop myself from screaming because I was so petrified.
He carried me to a black Porsche cayenne and swung the door open. He manoeuvred himself so that he could sit with me on his lap in the back seat. I felt the silent tears fall down my face. He was holding me so close I could hear his heartbeat, but I couldn't believe he really had a heart. I blacked out to thoughts of anguish and desolation.
****I just wanted to let you know that Jax is an anti-hero and to just bare with his royal assholeness 🖤🖤🖤 thank you