"Hey", i greeted my estranged father. Even my own voice sounded foreign to me. "Alexandrite where have you been? How do you leave for 2 days without informing anyone ? Actually where are you now?" i rolled my eyes annoyed at the flurry of questions.
"I need to explain to you in person my situa-"
"Fuck you are not on drugs are you ? I would have noticed the signs." He said more to himself the last part.
"Axel!" i barked into the phone. He went silent, taking that as a cue to continue i said to him "Its okay. I'm fine, i just need to explain it to you live. Lets have a family dinner and i can use that as a platform".
He breathed out a heavy sigh then agreed. Ending the call i dialed my mothers number from memory even though the number was on speed dial. We spoke and she sounded really good, almost whole. I faked cheerfulness even as soundless tears slid down my cheeks i hung up then slid into the silk sheets. I fell into a disquieting and restless sleep.
I woke up the next day with hunger pains. I looked over to the side and saw that the sheets on his side of the bed had been disturbed. So he had slept here but left before i had woken up. I got out of bed and ordered Mac Donalds on the app on my phone.
I had gotten the address using my phones GPS i took a quick shower and then went into the gardens to wait for my food. The app pinged me when the driver was outside but the guards refused to let me leave. I conceded and allowed them to get the food for me. Five minutes later i was sinking my teeth into my spicy Cajun wrap and chips and taking huge gulps of my strawberry milkshake.
Never had i been so grateful for my bank card that i kept inside my phone cover. I spent the day on youtube watching make-up tutorials and vlogs. In the evening i ordered food again and then went to the bedroom. Jax was there lying on his back. I stood by the door uncertain on what to do next. He looked absent minded and deep in thought but i knew he was aware of my presence.
After that weird "time lapse"thing i felt more connected to him in a way. It was as if a barrier had been lifted. It was s if i was aware of his the simplicity of the fact that he was breathing. I could feel his presence more.
"Why did you not dine with us?" He questioned me. I crept inside the room dreading the confrontation and closed the door behind me. Sitting by the edge of the bed i took this time to study his gorgeous face, it was impassive void of emotion which was not fair. As a human i couldn't get a read on his emotions. Mercer had told me that wolves are able to smell people's moods.
"I didn't feel comfortable i don't know any of those people and you weren't very welcoming."
He snapped his head to glare at me with such speed that were he human he would've broken his neck.
"Welcoming? If a person is hungry they come to the dining hall, greet others and eat that's it. This isn't Axel's castle sweet heart. Fucking common sense," he spat at me.
"Can we start over?" I whispered. I felt so exhausted being in this situation with him. If i tried to explain myself he would only misunderstand me further and it would make everything worse. The room was silent. I felt the weight shift on the bed. He came and sat beside me, i couldn't help but flinch. The last time he had been close to me he had hurt me.
I know he saw my reaction to his movement but he decided not to react to it at least not on the surface. Extending his arm he said, "Jax, Alpha of the Dissenssion pack and you are?"
"Alexandrite Madison Wolfgang", i paused in thought. "Luna of the Dissession pack. He smiled at me, although it was a small smile, it warmed me up nonetheless.
"You can go and see your family. I will sleep in the guest bedroom for a while until you get comfortable."
He leaned towards me and kissed my forehead then left. For the first time in a while i drifted off to a peaceful sleep.
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One of Jax's men had driven me and said he would be back for me after the weekend. I was pleasantly surprised. He was giving me some space. I had asked my mother to come here as well so that i wouldn't have to repeat myself. She informed me her plane would land in 30 minutes i would borrow Chris' car to go and get her then we would spend the weekend together.
I walked up to the door before i could even open the door it swung open and Chris ran into me.
"The baddest hoe alive eloped and has returned pregnant", he jeered at me. I punched him in his gut and he grinned.
"Seriously vro where have you been" he questioned. His blue eyes were shining earnestly. I sighed.
"Its a long story, can't believe that i'm involved." We linked arms and continued in. Elena was standing behind Chris. Smiling warmly at her i pulled her in for an embrace. She was stiff at first but then she relaxed into my arms.
"May i have a word with you my la- Alexandrite", she inquired looking nervous. I nodded Chris took a step back and looked me once over after he was satisfied he mussed up my hair then walked away. We walked up to my room and she closed the door behind us. As we had been ascending the stairs i noticed that everything was the same.
I sat on my cushioned window seal then turned to face her, i smiled at her.
"Before i start i should give a disclaimer my lady. If you want me fired or killed i will happily take my punishment." I was taken aback.
"Why would i...." i trailed off confused. She took a deep breath before continuing.
"Alpha Jax sent me to work here. The oracle had informed him that Axel's daughter would be his Luna. So i came here two years ago. We weren't aware that Axel had more than one daughter." I wanted to express my annoyance at master douche for having a spy on me but she shook her head signalling for me to wait.
"I know you have questions and are upset but i would like to continue. Please", She said as an afterthought. I nodded despite my sudden change of moods from happiness to a foul mood.
"For a while we thought Ally was the Luna but when Alpha bumped into her and they subsequently spent time together there were no sparks or anything. I really did like the family so i just continued to work here. When i found out that you would be coming, i informed the alpha. I told him how good and down to earth you are.
He asked me to tell him details of your schedule and what your room looked like. When he attacked you.... i .... " She shook her head and was quiet for a moment.
That wasn't the loyal caring alpha we knew. He has his faults but he really loves you luna. I wish that things had been different. I sincerely apologize. Death is a fair price for my deception." She finished. I nodded then asked her to leave. I needed to be alone with my thoughts.
She bowed then left deflated. I wanted to take out my anger and frustration out on her but it was Jax's fault really. He knew from the beginning. Axel had texted to inform me he was stuck at work but he would see me soon.
When my moms plane landed i got Chris' keys for the H3 and drove to the airport. The car drove like a dream. It felt like sex maybe alpha asshole could get it for me. Did he really have a job i mused.
I pulled outside the arrivals area, she was waiting for me outside arrivals. I had barely put the brakes on when i jumped out of the car into her arms and started crying. We stayed like that for a while.
"Precious gem." She whispered rubbing my back in gentle circles. Which made me cry harder.
"I love you mommy i missed you." I blubbered smearing snot onto her shoulder. She didnt stop until a security man came and threatened to tow the car.
"Good living huh?" She questioned as we got into the car and i tried to dry my stupid tears. I giggled.
"Belongs to Axels son Chris". Hmm she murmured. We drove to the hotel. As we offloaded her bags i realized i had no clothes. She looked at me questioningly then we both burst into laughter.
"I was ...hahaha.... so excited i forgot to pack clothes", i burst into another fit of giggles. I'm sure it really wasn't that funny but the anxiety had me on edge. We caught up on gossip from the hospital and moms filled me in about her tinder disaster dates.
"Then he told me about .... hahaha.... the drama between the dogs and the cats and a stray. He says he got an animal whisperer because the tensions in the house were on high! hahaha...." we both doubled over in laughter. It was such a good vibe between mums and i. She gave me an outfit to wear since we are the same size. My mom was also an over-packer so she had a lot of extra clothes.
We arrived at the hotel and got ready for the dinner.
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I found myself in a tense room, two families the common denominator being Axel.
"Thank you all for joining me here... um the last couple of days have been hectic. I have made a discovery that has changed my life. It will probably sound ridiculous and you most probably will want to lock me up in an asylum but i just wanted you to know regardless. Remember that time i went missing in the woods? Turns out that bite i had was some magical bite which was from a werewolf and now i'm the werewolf's mate".
I looked around the table my mothers face was creased with concern Axel was stoic and emotionless and Chris' eyes were wide open.
"Twilight obsession much", muttered Ally rolling her eyes at me. Jade just focused on her phone.
"Anyway i had to let you all know. I have to live with the asshole they call Jax on their property because we are now tied obviously i will visit and you guys should be able to be visit yeah. Believe me or not i don't care this is the situation i'm in. I'm not on drugs mom you know that just by looking at me and from the time we have spent together . They say its rare for 100% humans to get involved with their affairs but it does happen. I have accepted my fate and yeah."
"Jo.... I" Axel trailed off training his blue eyes on my mom. There was a warmth that was suddenly there. The food came and we ate in tense silence. Once we were done nobody said anything which was getting old. My mom cleared her throat, "where is the wolf honey", my mom gently inquired.
"He is back home with his pack." Even i had to admit i sounded like i needed a strait jacket asap. I whipped out my phone and called Jax to come through at first he was reluctant but he came nonetheless. As he swaggered in i couldn't help the smirk that landed on my lips, the royal alpha had a matching one as well.
It was such a cute moment. It was like a Harley Quin and Joker moment. Just the two us in world that belonged to us alone. He kissed my forehead and then pulled up a chair close by me. Ally raised an eyebrow.
I think she recognized him from the one date they went on. Jax didn't even glance in her direction.
"So you interrupted my work to have me come for desert?" He asked playfully. I laughed this Jax i could fuck with. "I told them about everything. I know this isn't conventional but i still want my family to be a part of my life."
The playful smirk was replaced with a look of disdain.
"You cant have your feet in both worlds Xander it doesn't work like that."
"Fuck you mean? you dragged me into your shit so the least you can do is be accomodating vro".
He ignored me and went on his phone. If the atmosphere had been shit throughout the evening it took a more stale turn for the worst. "Alexandrite if you have been forced into something you want no part of let us know there are plenty of resources amongst all of us." My mom offered.
"Its not that simple mom but we will figure it out. Jax and i dont get along too well sometimes but i iust know it will work out." We finished the desert and Axel was about to pay the bill when the waiter looked at him quizicaly and said the bill had been paid. "I thought it was the least i could do," said Jax piping up.
"No the owner paid." Interjected the waiter rudely.
"If you want to keep your job you better stop pissing me off." Jax said icily to to him. He had an air about him that made you believe him.
"I own a few chain restaurants always had an eye for business," he offered half heartedly ina way of explanation. "Xander you ready to go home", he asked boredly. I started to panic a bit," I thought i could spend some time with my mom for a couple of days."
I could have rolled the dice when it came to guessing what his reaction would be. He looked at my moms annoyed face then back to me and gave a curt nod. He got up and left without more than a wave. Alpha asshole really lived up to his name.
"Why would you want to be with someone so angry at the world?" Jade asked quietly speaking for the first time, which was surprising to us all.
"Its complicated, i think nobody has ever called him out on his bullshit thats why he acts like that. I think i love him". That confession surprised everyone including me.
"Fun dinner", Ally said sarcastically getting up to leave. We all followed suit tired and ready to end the night.
We walked outside and waited for the valet to bring the cars. I took in a deep breath finally able to breathe for the first time tonight. Chris came and gave me a bear hug. "That dude acts like the sun and the moon weep at the sight of his douchey face and so high and mighty. I dont know what you are involved in but if you need me to beat his ass i will gladly do it."
I smiled nervously at him that was one offer i would never take him up on. I shivered recalling the night with the Jocks from school. I was surprised i hadnt received summons from them. Then again guys have a pride complex and all of those guys were beaten up by one guy so that explained that.
"Thank you", i whispered returning the hug. The Wolfgangs left and so did we.
"Xander if that boy ever so much as calls you out of your name, call me. I dont really understand whats going on but i love you, you are my child and i would willingly die before anyone treats you like shit again. I never said this but im so sorry about Doug. As cliche as this sounds... i really should have known what was happening under my roof."
I could feel the sting of tears threatening to fall. Okay was all i could say. We spent the rest of moms stay going shopping, eating out and pampering ourselves. I cried when she left and spent the night at Axels. Everyone was judging me about the fable of my drug dealing boyfriend and i the meth head according to Ally.
She really was a wasteman. I spoke to Elena and told her that, although i was upset at her actions she wasn't going to die for them. She just needed to watch over this family of mine and keep them safe.
I called an uber to return to Jax. Axel had reluctantly allowed me to leave. He promised he would move heaven and earth for me if need be or if Jax ever hurt me he would hurt him back. I told him he could come visit soon i just had to iron out some details with Jax first.
I just wish Jax would pause for a moment and not be an Alpha just try to strip that all down and look at things from my perspective. I wish he would understand my pain and the changes i have to make for him and his world. I could never leave my family for him. My death would be welcomed a thousand years prior to me leaving my family.
When i returned, Jax wasn't ecstatic about the time i had been gone for but he told me it was good that i was back. We had lost the short good streak we had going but in the end it would be okay.... right?