Because Elina believes Bagas is a very difficult person to interact with people he doesn't know. Sometimes they seem cold and self-limiting. And Elina also knows her son Bagas very well, at this time Bagas's heart has been disturbed by Nikita's presence, Elina knew that when Bagas told him about Nikita's concern when Bagas was sick.
On the other hand, Elina is happy because Bagas's heart has been touched, but on the other hand, Elina's heart is sad because Bagas has accepted Nikita. already belongs to Raka. And Elina doesn't want Bagas to get hurt a third time.
The trauma that Bagas felt was during his childhood. where little Bagas had to part with his little girl named AYA, making Bagas sick for days and always delirious when Bagas was sick. And that trauma still lingers to this day. Even though the memories of AYA that he knew for a moment, the impact was very big on Bagas's heart until Bagas grew up.
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Since the incident in Jakarta where Bagas was sick and received attention from Nikita, Nikita was even willing to take care of him all night. Bagas's deepest heart was touched, there was something that Bagas didn't understand at all.
The beating heart that always beat in his chest. Every time he is close to Nikita, Bagas' heart without being asked is very fast, making his breath seem to run. His blood flow was rushing from head to toe which made his entire body limp.
I don't know what disease he is suffering from, this is what Bagas feels when he is near a Nikita. Bagas repeatedly tried to ward off all his feelings.
But no matter how hard Bagas refused, the feeling gripped his heart even more, even Bagas couldn't let go.
Bagas' feelings gripped his heart so tightly that he fell deeper into the feeling of love that Bagas still didn't understand.
There is something about Nikita that always makes Bagas confused and restless, Bagas always falls helplessly every time he remembers the sad eyes of his past, the sad eyes of the little girl who has snatched his heart and feelings.
Bagas only realized it when he tried to remember where his little girl had in common with a Nikita whom he had only known for a few months.
It turns out that the similarity is in Nikita's sad eyes. where Aya's little girl's glazed eyes are almost similar to those of Nikita's. And Bagas firmly believes that the two eyes are the same two eyes.
Maybe it was the similarity that made Bagas' heart melt and his heart shattered, his longing sticking out again.
Aya was a little girl in his past, when Bagas lived in Surabaya with his family before moving suddenly to Jakarta, then moving again to Bandung until now. Knowing Aya was not long, at that time he was still in sixth grade and Aya was still in third grade, he was three years older than Aya.
Bagas really remembers the events that he can't forget about an Aya.
First, when Bagas moved to the school, he was bullied by his friends, and at that time Bagas was pushed into the trench with his friends, and the little girl Aya, who was brave and not disgusted, was desperate to go into the ditch to help him.
Second, when Bagas was sentenced to stand in the field for fighting with his male friend who was disturbing Aya at the time, with full attention Aya secretly gave him a drink when Bagas looked tired standing up, even Aya was willing to wait for Bagas at the medical room when Bagas fainted because he didn't strong again standing in the field.
And finally, when Bagas was about to graduate and was about to move again. Bagas told Aya about his move, and that made Aya disappointed. Since then Aya avoided him, even until Bagas was about to leave, Aya didn't want to see him.
Bagas still clearly remembers the incident, Bagas waited all day for Aya in front of the school to just say goodbye. But from noon until late afternoon Aya did not appear, it made Bagas's heart very hurt. Really really hurt.
Because his heart was very hurt, since moving in a new house in Jakarta Bagas became a quiet child. Even for a few days Bagas had an illness that took a long time to heal, all because of a little girl named Aya.
Isn't the feeling of a young child that can't be called love, it's still very early Bagas experienced the feeling of falling in love at the age of eleven.
But why is that feeling until now when he is an adult, that feeling does not go away, instead it grips tightly and shackles his heart
With the changing seasons and changing years, at the age of thirty, Bagas was able to open his heart to a woman.
But it also really hurt him. On the eve of the wedding the woman disappeared and according to the news the woman returned to her ex, a Caucasian. This incident really made Bagas' heart hurt even more until he had an accident and ended up with temporary paralysis in both legs.
From the past events, it made a Bagas heart sick and hate a woman this year.
And now his heart opened again by itself. Without Bagas asking, Bagas's heart beats beautifully. Bagas' cold feelings and heart became disturbed and restless every day.
And it has been felt since the presence of a Nikita. Not long ago Bagas knew a Nikita, but Nikita's existence became a deja vu that brought him back to his past with Aya.
Because with Aya, Bagas just knew him, but his feelings were already very attached.
Until now his feelings and hearts are still tied, but why with the same feelings? with the same bond? now he feels for Nikita.
And Bagas can't separate his feelings between Aya and Nikita, because Bagas only feels one thing, namely the same feeling and heart he feels both then and now.