I then drove home and took a shower, still thinking about what we had just done, that was an easy job compared to what we had come across in this lifestyle. When I was done bathing I applied lotion on my skin and wore my boxers and I had to pray even though I am not familiar with it.
Dear God,
I ask you to be with me wherever I am, whenever I make any bad decision .I ask you to guide me, I need you to be with me, you know how much I need you, and you know I am not the best when it comes to praying, Lord I need you to show me a way, I don't know what I am doing wrong with Zee ,lord, I ask you to be with her and I wish I can show her how much I love her, but she is pushing me away. Lord be with me, I know I am far from being perfect, but I require you.
Amen
Subsequently, I slept since I had to fly to New York the next morning for some business-related and I will be there for two days, so I have to leave tomorrow afternoon with my PA.
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Two weeks have passed, and my trip was successful, we ended up staying for a week since we had to open another brunch there and my mom was more than happy. She suggested that we go to Cuba for a weekend. We came back yesterday. We enjoyed ourselves there, the place was spectacular. We went to tour the place and made memories, I even remember when I got back to a hotel with a girl, my mom told the girl to immediately leave and told me to stop fucking around ,I am too grown for that.
Those three cars we stole were transported out of the country, and we scored good money.
I haven't spoken to Zinzi for those past weeks. I just felt like giving her space, and I have thought about my moms' suggestion of moving to Port Elizabeth near Zinzi. Maybe she will see how serious I am about her and I wish she can come this weekend for Katie's birthday which is on Friday, but we will be celebrating it on Saturday.
POV:ZINZI
Well, it's life, after all.
The weekend went pretty fast and Tebby came back home not good at all, I have been trying to talk to her, but she locked herself up in her room. She sometimes skips classes. These passing two weeks have been hell for both of us, on the other side I have continued ignoring Lloyd, and it's killing me. I sometimes sleep in the gues room where he used to sleep, just to feel close to him. I wore his clothes that he left here to comfort myself. I just wish I can tell him how I feel, but it's hard, I don't want to be seen as I am disparate or something. I sometimes hold my phone and dial his number, but I couldn't press the dialing button.
Today is Thursday and I have to attend the night classes, I am waiting for Zeny to pick me up.
Well, things between him and I are now better, last week he took me out, he was vibey and friendly too. I just wished we could stay like that, but that's Zeny after all.
As I was still drowning in my thoughts I had a car sound outside, and I had to go since it might be Zeny.
"Tebby ,baby I am leaving can you please find something to eat please babes."?
Tebby:…
What did I expect, though, she doesn't talk these days.
When I got outside, I noticed it was Zenys' car. When I reached the car, he came out and opened the door for me, and went to his seat. I settled on my seat as he started driving and broke the silence.
"You seem to look deep into your thoughts, is there anything bothering you?"
"Wow, is this the Zeny I know, or you got a twin that I don't know of ?"
"No, it's me the Zeny you know. I know that we never started on a clean slate , but you can talk to me man, we have been working together for how long now. Almost a month, man.And I know maybe you don't feel comfortable talking to me, but what's bothering you?"
"It's just that I am going through a lot currently and the person I always open up to is a mess and I don't know what to do, I feel useless and hopeless, I am trying man, but it's like I am doing nothing." I sobbed in my hands.
"Zee look at me"
I looked at him. "I know you feel hopeless, we all do at some point but don't give up."
"It is hard, Zeny."
"Nothing is easy on this world Zee and you know that, wipe those teas up".
I cleaned my face up.
"Yes, that's the Zee, the girl I first met. You are strong Zee never doubt that."
Me:…
"Do you hear me?"
"Yes sir" smiling...
"Yes, you can now take your pretty ass and go to class, you will find me here."
Well, I walked out with my pretty ass as he said and went to class, and they were few people. So, the professor decided to teach for 3 hours and handed out some sheets to read, and called it a night.
I walked to the car and Zeny drove me home and went to his house.
Yes his house, it is weird how he never spoke about his family or anything related to the family. When I got inside the house I found Tebby in the dining room watching television or should I say the TV was watching her. Her eyes were swollen and red, when I noticed her, I then ran and dropped my bag on the floor and sat next to her.
"Baby, please talk to me, I can see you can't deal with this alone, you always lock yourself up and skip classes sometimes, what is going on?"
Tebby:…
"Since you came back from your boyfriend, you not okay at all, please talk to me."
Tebby:
"Friend this is not only eating you up, but it is making you lose focus on what's important which is your studies, and that is affecting me too, please talk to me.
She cried even more…
"I just wish you can talk to me, but when you are ready to talk just know that I am ready to listen."
She cried until she fell asleep in my arms, I then decided to fetch a blanket in my room and covered ourselves on the couch, and slept there.
I was woken up by my alarm. I then woke up nicely making sure not to wake her up and went to my room and bathed and wore a jean and a brown bodysuit with some flat shoes and fixed my braids and packed my two books and textbooks and left the note on the fridge {I didn't want to wake you up, I hope you will be okay during the day alone, I will come back around 2. May you please pack me some few clothes for the weekend out-i love you, friend, bye}.
I then left and found Zeny waiting for me outside already, I got in, and he was smiling.
"Some people are in a good mood I see, mind sharing sir." smiling
"I am still your driver, don't forget."
"Damn OK."
I wasn't expecting that.
"You look grumpy, did you eat breakfast?" while he focused on the road
"No, but it seems like you got a quickie morning pill/valvu from someone.
"I never stopped you from dating, baby girl?"
"Speaking of that, can you drop me later on, at my boyfriend's place"i said smiling
"What ?"
"Please."
"Does Mr. maps know about that?"
"But Zeny you just said you never stopped me from dating, wassup with the questions?"
"I asked you a question, Zee does he know?"
He was fuming
"Can you pass by McD I want to buy breakfast?"
Zeny:…
He just increased the volume of the music and focused on the road, I then decided to text Ntokozo asking him whether he is home or on his way.
Ntokozo
{hey no babes I am still at home, but I am about to leave}
{please friend bring me breakfast I didn't eat, and my driver is moody to pass by McD and the cafeteria food ain't that tasty}
{ouch friend I will bring you breakfast, you should wait for me at the parking lot}
{thank you, friend}
Zeny then drove to a different road and stopped at McD and looked at me.
"What?" I looked at him…
"You said you want food so?"
"Don't worry, I made a plan."
"I am not your toy Zee that you can just toss when you just feel like it."
"What do you expect me to do when you ignore me, I am not God Zeny!.? I don't know what's going through your big head."
"Do you notice that I am not Mr. Maps?"
"Ungenaphi uLloyd apha? (How is Lloyd included)"
"Ngaba ungahamba uye kuthenga ukutya okufunayo kaye ubuye ngokukhawuleza kuba uzakufika kade. (can you just go and buy food and come back fast because you will be late.)?
"I said I made a plan."
He then speeds off and left me at school.
I found Ntokozo already there.
"Hey you"
I said that, hugging him.
"Here(handing a lunch box)…how are you, though."
"Thank you, friend. I'm OK friend."
"What's up with your drive?"
"I don't know friend, guess what he then took me to MCD and Ndamxelela ukuba akukho sdingo bhuti ndenze icebo sacela undihambisela e-campus, bekumele ukuba umbone ukuba unomsindo ufuna ukunditya ndiphila chomi(I told him that no brother I have made a plan already drive me to campus. You should have seen him, he was angry he wanted to eat me alive).
"Someone will swear that you guys are dating."
Laughing…
"He is cute, just imagine me and him, hell no friend pass."
"Just try to hit him up, friend you could be a perfect couple."
"Ntokozo are you fine??, he is my driver" I tried to be specific with him
"Love comes in different ways, friend."
"Ntokozo, Zeny was hired by Lloyd not me, where would I get the money to pay him to drive me where I want, when I want and how will Lloyd feel if he hears that I am hitting up on Zeny?
"What are you trying to say? Who is Lloyd?"
"Friend, we need to get to class now."
I said that, finishing off my bread with peanut butter and taking a sip of my juice.
"But we are not done, friend."
We then rushed to class.
When we got there and everyone was already settled. The tutor was already teaching, he looked at us with this eye, well, we didn't mind him at all.
When the lesson was over ,we left and headed off to our next class that took 2 hours, when we were done I just ran away from Ntokozo and went outside the gate hoping to find Zeny there but nothing, I had to wait for 20 minutes for him. When he arrived I got inside the car, and he drove in silence until I got home, when I was about to get out he spoke.
"Do you still want me to drive you to your boyfriend?" he asked calmly, but I knew maybe he just wanted to know where I was going.
"If you OK with it."
"It's my job to drive you at the end of the day, I don't have a choice"
"I guess I should just go and fetch my bag then."
"Wait, you want to leave as in now?"
"Yes please."
"Okay then go fetch your stuff, I will wait here."
"Okay then."
I then left the car and got inside the house and found Tebby cooking.
"You back already"
"Yes and I have to leave now, did you do what I asked you to do?"
"Yes, I packed all you will need even your make-up and your toiletries babes everything. You know I am always away on weekends, so I know what to pack…"
"Thank you, friend."
I hugged her and then went to take my stuff and left.
When I was giving her a goodbye hug, she hugged me tight like I was leaving her forever.
"Are you fine with me throwing up a party?"
"Not at all friend enjoy, don't forget to invite Ntokozo and his gang ."
"They will kill me if I don't bru, I will call them bye."
I then left and Zeny helped me to put my stuff in the car, and then he drove off…
Zeny: where to?
"Drive towards Cape Town, my mom will pick me there."
I just didn't want him to alert Lloyd that I was coming, I just wanted it to be a surprised
"Your mom?"
"Yes, man."
"I knew you were not dating."
"You know me well, bhuti. But I will surprise you one day"
The drive was too long than I expected.
When we got to Cape Town I alerted Lloyd's mom that I am coming, and she mustn't tell anyone "
I told Zeny to drop me near the airport just to cover up my plan, after he left, I requested an Uber to drop me at Lloyds' house. I bought the lady of the house flowers and I got Katie and Scot a bundle of chocolate.
The driver dropped me on the gate and I buzzed in, and the gate opened, and I found Lloyds' mom on the door already smiling.
"Oh my baby, we missed you" and she then attacked me with a warm hug and walked me inside.
She then asked me to go to Lylods' room because Lloyd will be here at any minute. I wanted to freshen up, so I took my bags and went to his room. His room was clean and pretty.
I then hid my stuff and then decided to take a shower, before I went to the bathroom my phone vibrated when I check it was a message from Lloyd .it read {I hope you have a great weekend with your so-called mom (boyfriend). I just wished you could've come to this side to celebrate Katie's birthday with us, but it's okay just do what you want to do, it's your life but do it safely, I don't want my future kids to have….you know. Just know that I love you Zinzi-}
I was smiling in between when I was done reading it. I decided to text him back {hey, please tell Katie happy birthday, I love her more}.
Before I could switch off my phone and another message came through.
{I just hope you could understand where I am coming from Zee, I love you and be safe}…