I always risk my heart whenever It comes to love knowing that I will get hurt in the process, even in the end. When I love someone, I love them deeply, and I am always in need of their attention.
Here I am to risk it all with Lloyd.
But will I get hurt?
Will he hurt me?
Should I let him love me?
Should I give him a chance, What if the has bad intentions?
Those are the questions I kept asking myself, and I couldn't find any answers to them.
After 20 minutes, the driver arrived.
Lloyd took my hand and kissed it. We walk out. I noticed the car that it was the same car he was using when we first met. If only he knew that's my favorite band. He opened the door for me and I got in as he followed me. He then held my hand and put them on his chest.
"Currently, my heart only beats for you, I hope you will love the place that I am taking you to."
I then looked at him and I noticed that he had a serious straight face. I smiled as I blushed to myself.
The driver started the car and tunned to Vedo's song
I guess he planned everything.
After the driver drove for thirty minutes, he stopped outside a big vintage building. Lloyd went out and came to me and handed his hand for me to come out. When I was out, he locked his arm on mine. We made our way inside the building. It was beautiful, it was exceptional.
We walked to a table that was already set. We sat down. The waiter came, and she had a glass of whiskey and a glass of wine.
"I would prefer virgin water with strawberry instead of wine."
"Sorry, ma'am, I will bring it up."
She left and Lloyd's eyes were glued on me.
"I am sorry, but wine is not my thing especially now."
"It's okay, I understand."
My virgin water with strawberry came and Lloyd was sipping on his whiskey confidently.
After a while, the waiter came with a plate of lasagna and fettuccine. I started eating and there was an awkward silence until he broke it.
"Can you be my girl?" I smiled while I held my laughter.
"And ain't you supposed to be romantic when you ask such questions like no bhuti level up."
" I thought of doing that when you are already mine." he lifted his face and looked at me.
"But don't you think you should give me an idea of what I am getting myself into?"
"My bad," he said.
"Don't you want to know what my ideal future husband looks like?"
"Look at me?" He asked.
I looked at him and he started smiling.
"What you are seeing now is your future hubby, Zee.".
Damn him
"Can I ask?" he said, more likely hesitating
"Stop fooling yourself, man. Yes, you can ask"I smiley laughed.
"What do you want from your partner?" he looked serious
"Truly I will appreciate someone who is himself, someone who will be my best friend, someone who I will be able to express my feelings freely, someone who will respect me, someone who knows me more than I do. I want someone who I can trust, love, and more, hey." I finished off with a warm smile.
" I hear you."
"And you Lloyd?
"Okay, on my side, I want you."
"Before you say that. I said I want someone who will moan my name, I want some who will love me and only me. Lloyd, I feel it would be better not to date someone who is fucking multiple girls, I want someone who respects himself."
"I head you, but you should know that we get tempted as a man."
"See you making excuses. I want someone who will keep his dick to himself when I am not there…and you trying to say we ain't as a woman?"
Am I being realistic,, though?
Seriously, who will want a man with multiple women, while he is the only man on her heart?
"Can you give me that?" I asked him calmly.
"Anything for you …"
"And I want a 50/50 relationship. I don't want some traditional relationship, I know you are the man,, but you will need to respect my views, decision."
" So you want me to tell you everything before I do it?"
"Yes".
"Which means no birthday party surprises." he then laughed
Damn, Lloyd can be stupid occasionally.
"I didn't say that like I am being serious here."
We finished our food then our dessert came, and we ate, when we were done the driver drove us home.
Not yet his girlfriend but …
When we got home,, he opened the door for me. We headed to his room. I changed to my PJs while he was on his boxers. I got into the covers and made myself comfortable. He then got inside the sheets too. He moved closed to me and wrapped his hands on me, and we slept.
When I woke up, he wasn't next to me,, but there was a card on his side of the bed. There were roses on the bed. I then check the card, it read {I am not what you want me to be, but I am what you need, my other half I have found you.}
When I went out of the bed, there were also flowers on the floor leading to the bathroom, and the tub was full of water I brushed my teeth and soaked myself in the water. It was relaxing and calming. When the water was cold, I came out and wore my tracksuit, and walked downstairs. I found Lloyd making breakfast. I was surprised.
He wasn't wearing a top. His muscles we fully exposed to my eyes. I couldn't stop stealing stares.
"Morning mister." I greeted.
"Morning beautiful, wait, I am almost done here."
He then came to me and hugged me. When he was done cooking, he dished up for us and we started eating.
"Where is everyone?"
"They went to church, can we focus on us?"
Damn, did he just say us…
I then looked at him. He stood up and came to me and hugged me from behind while kissing my chicks.
"Thank you for what you did this morning." I smiled.
"Someone once said gangsters ain't romantic." He said, still holding me.
"Believe me those are the most romantic people ever, and damn they turn me on when they start being romantically aggressive."
" Zinzi"
"What, I am serious."
"You will pee yourself when they kidnap you."
"Squirt,I will wet myself on and beg the leader to fuck the shit out of me."
" Zinzi"
"I just love people who are brave men."
"I see babes, and I am a gangster too."
He kissed me and turned me to him. He lifted my legs to hug on his waist, then kissed me and rubbed my pussy outside my paints.
Likewise, he makes me lose my senses only by touching me.
"Your mom … And you so far being a gangster, don't lie"
I said that laughing.
He then stopped and fixed himself.
"It's a joke, man."
He looked at me and took our dishes and placed them on the sink
"I will get you for this."
He ran to his room. When I got there, he was talking to someone on the phone, but the moment he noticed I was in the room he hung up and looked at me.
"What time will you be leaving?
"My driver will be here around 3, I want to avoid getting home late."
"But why not use the private jet? Well, let me just say you will be using it."
He was now telling me… Wow.
"I thought we spoke about this, if I need anything I will let you know,, but I am going with a car, not a jet."
" If he doesn't arrive late, then you will go with him."
"No Lloyd, I know what you are trying to do,, please don't."
"I'm sorry."
"You are the opposite of what I want in a man, hey."
" I know,, but I am what you need."
We continued having some light conversations. His mom arrived and Katie and Scott rushed to sit on my lap.
"Please don't go, please," Scott asked
"Can you just stay here with us, "Katie suggested?
"No guys I can't stay you know that, but you can ask mom to come to visit me next month or during the holidays."
"I won't probably visit when they are around," Lloyd said
"Don't underestimate me with kids," I said, marking his statement
"Whatever you say, ma'am," he said, laughing
He helped me with my bag and placed them in the car. I said my last goodbye to the family and then Lloyd came to me to give me a second tight hug. He kissed my forehead, leaving it wet.
"You had the whole weekend to do that and tlof tlof men."-Zeny
"What are looking at, man?" Lloyd asked him, laughing.
He then pulled me again after that I got inside the car, and he closed the car and stood on the window.
"I guess I will only see you when you have made up your mind, take care."
What does he mean?
Was that directed to me?
What could this possibly mean?
Zeny started the car and drove off.
The drive was quite short and quiet.
I had to think of what I wanted.
He then parked the car on our gate and helped me with my bags. I took my bags and went inside the house.
As I was approaching the dining room, I found Tebby with some other girl.
"Hey, guys, and bye guys."
I then walked straight to my room and parked my clothes neatly and placed the dirty ones on the washing basket.
I was feeling tired, so I decided to take a bath and went to sleep after.
Before I drifted to sleep I thought of my mom, who I haven't called.
I decided to call her.
"Hey, mom"
"Hey, my baby, how are you?"
"I'm a fine mom, and you?"
"I'm okay my baby, I was going to call you tomorrow but … I need to tell you something."
"You sound serious, mom, what's wrong?"
" I wanted to tell you that you were…"
Before she could finish what she wanted to say, my phone died. I guess it was the battery. I changed it and dreamland took me…
Dreamless night, that's what I had.
Working up in the morning wasn't a mission like I thought it would be. I made my bed and did my hygiene process after bathing, I wore my skinny pants jeans with a black top with a flat shoe and took my books, and headed downstairs.
I then found Tebby almost done making breakfast. Likewise, I took a seat on one of the high chairs in the kitchen and watched her finish up…
"Morning tee."
"Morning friend, how are you?"
"I'm okay, and you?"
"I'm great, how was your weekend with bae?" She asked.
"'Bae'? No friend, there is no such."
"What!"With a side-eye look
I then explained to her that Lloyd ain't my boyfriend and told her how we all met.
Are we friends,, or I am just lying to myself?
"Another Chris story?"-tebby
"It's a different friend. Lloyd is just a friend."
"If you say so but watch out?"
"Yes, mom."
As she finished dishing up, her friend came, and we ate. I left the house and found Zeny already outside waiting for me. He greeted me and open the car for me. He drove me to campus and left me outside the gate, where Melissa said I should wait for them.
I waited for them until they arrived.
"Hey, friend."
He then hugged me, and I hugged Melissa after.
"Where were you since I didn't see you at the party, you should have seen Tebogo and her psycho!"
She was calmly laughing
"Damn, I guess I missed her again"
"We should call them and have lunch after we are done with our classes."
When we were about to leave, this other junkie guy came to us with a gift bag.
"This is for you ma'am"He handed me a gift bag and left.
"Love doesn't have boundaries, wow, "Ntokozo said.
I seriously didn't know what to say or do until Melissa bought me to reality.
"Open it."
Me:…
She then took the bag and opened it. It was a bundle of red rose f with a box of experience chocolate.
"I need such a man damn," she said after opening
"But I am here, baby…" her boyfriend replied
"I mean, who can do such things, but you perfect boo," she said.
"What does the card say?" I asked them.
She started smiling and read the card, "Thanks for the weekend. Zee I feel it would be better not to lie to you, I truly love you and I only need you. Can you just let me show you the meaning of love, can we gaze at the galaxy together? Can I be yours? My heart only beats for you…from to."
"Damn Lloyd, "I said it out loud without noticing
"I thought you had a boyfriend," he said.
"Past tense Lloyd is talking over, this is cute Zee," Melissa said, lifting the bag.
She then gave me the gift, and we made our way to class.
Am I really in love?
Will I give him a chance?
He probably wants to play me, nothing more.
What if he is my soul mate? But what about Chris? Who did I feel at first, slight?
Confused…