I ran.
I always run.
I'm such a baby. I can't even get a grip on my life, let alone a boy. I'm never gonna find love. What we had was fake. I don't love him, and I never did. I told myself these things...but then why do I still feel so vulnerable and sad?
I opened up to someone for the first time in a really long time, and it blew up in my face. I hate him... no...I hate myself. I was the one who ruined it. I'm such a child, and I'm never gonna grow up.
I kept running, running to nowhere in particular. I just ran where my paws carried me. I cried until my eyes were blurry with hot tears. Every tear that fell stung my heart even more. Why should I spill tears for him? He wouldn't mark me... even though we know we're destined mates.
It doesn't sound that bad at all. So why the hell am I crying?! I sat down in the dirt and cried into ground. I'm such a miserable, no good, freak. God... help me.
I sat there, collecting all of my thoughts. The last time I had a breakdown to this level was... when Kaiden tried to rape me. I felt so betrayed, and utterly disgusted. I never would've imagined that i would be comparing Donovan to him. They aren't anything alike- after all.
Kaiden was an alpha, sure, but they were so different. Kaiden was a rough n' tough type of guy, while Donovan is more down to earth. Of course, Kaiden was also a werewolf...
I miss Donovan. My stupid omega won't stop telling me to go back to him. But I don't want to go back. I want to go home. I just want things to go back to the way they were...before I met Donovan. Dammit. His name won't stop playing in my head.
His face flashed through my mind. His strong jaw...his charming crimson eyes...his jet black hair that almost swooped down over his left eye... no. Stop! I can't do it. I just can't do it anymore!
We never got together in the first place...so why the hell should it matter? He didn't care enough about me to mark me even though we are clearly destined mates. He's such a good actor... maybe he should go do that instead of being a lord. He'd make one hell of a movie star.
I stood up and brushed the dirt off of myself. I clearly didn't need him, or his stupid mark. I was perfectly fine on my own. If if I was lonely... or wanted someone to hug... or someone to tell me it would be ok...
"Dammit!" I screamed aloud. I messed up big time. When it comes to commitment, I'm bipolar. I'm terrible at this shit. Whenever it comes to smithing I have to commit to, I dive in head-first, and I don't realize what the consequences are. And if something doesn't go my way... I pull out without a second thought. It's always been like that...
I didn't realize just how stupid of a decision it was until now. Donovan is gonna hate me forever now. I left him alone, probably wondering where I am.
I began trotting again; this time I went to my house. I soon arrived, and transformed back into my human. Gavin's car wasn't here... No one was home. I didn't have my key with me, so I went around back and went through the window. We always left it open for things like this. It made me feel a little better knowing that he left it open for me, most likely hoping I would come home.
Once I was inside, I looked around the house. Gavin was definitely gone. I quickly took a shower so that I didn't smell like vampire.
I ran up to my room and opened the door. Thankfully Gavin didn't touch any of my shit. I changed my clothes and threw Donovan's dirty clothes in my laundry hamper under some other stuff. They were his after all... so some of his scent probably still lingered on it.
It was 4:57... Gavin should be here in about an hour. Damn. Now I'm gonna have to listen to his rambling when he gets here. I decided to sit around and think while I waited for him to get here. That and eat, because my running made me starving.
I microwaved some leftover pizza in the fridge that Gavin seemed to have left. It wasn't the best, but it was food and that was something.
Donovan...Donovan...Donovan! My inner omega cried for him. I wanted to punch myself in the head and tell it to shut up. But that wouldn't do me any good. My need for him was so strong, it was making my head hurt.
I couldn't think straight if I wanted to. My head was aching, as well as my heart. I just wanted to go to sleep. I couldn't fall asleep though. The pain was too immense to sleep. It was as if my omega was setting off a jackhammer in my brain, and tearing my heart with its bear hands. Is this what a stroke feels like?
I had to sit down. Donovan...Donovan...Donovan! Go to Donovan! Gah! I clutched my head and began to cry from the pain.
Suddenly, everything went black, and I collapsed on the floor.
...
"....ke up!...Mike-....wake up!" Someone was calling my name. "Mikey, wake up!" It was Gavin. I tried to open my eyes, but only one would open, and only slightly. "Oh my god Mikey! What happened?!" Gavin was shaking me, which made me feel uneasy.
"Ugh..." I groaned. "Are you ok? Why the hell are you on the ground?!" He asked me in a panicked voice. "D-Donny..." I breathed out his name. "What?" My brother was confused. "I- n... Donovan!" I tried to shout, but it came out as a whisper. "Who the hell is Donovan?!" He yelled.
"Is it that fucking vampire?! What did he do to you?!" Gavin growled lowly. "N-n.... need Donny!" I screamed bloody murder in a high pitched voice. I sounded so feminine....but I could care less right now.
"O-ok, ok... I'm calling an ambulance." Gavin stood up from beside me and called for an ambulance. I thrashed around on the floor, muttering Donovan's name. I need him. I want him so badly. Everything hurts...
Even Gavin couldn't keep me from him. I tried to crawl towards the door, but I was stopped by my hurting limbs, and Gavins arms snatching me up. Everything seemed to go blurry and I got really dizzy.
I wasn't aware of much. I could hear voices and a siren, but that was only in the background. I could hear someone else's voice loud and clear.
Donovan...My Donny...
"Don't worry, I will come for you. I love you. Stay strong for me... ok?" Donovan's voice played in my head. I shut my eyes and tried to breathe. I couldn't stop shaking and sputtering nonsense.
The medics loaded me onto the stretcher and pushed me into the ambulance. That's as far as my knowledge of today goes, because after that- I passed out again.
...
Beep. Beep. Beep.
I could hear again.
"I believe he's waking up." A distinct female voice said. I couldn't tell who it was out of memory.
"D...Donny." I groaned. I opened my eyes to see the harsh LED hospital lights above my head.
"He won't stop saying that name!" My brother spoke to the nurse a little too loudly. "Calm down, sir. This is normal. It usually happens when there is mild emotional trauma of some sort related to that person. It is most common with newly established mates." The nurse explained.
"Please tell me that he isn't mated to that freak." Gavin growled. "Again sir, I'm going to have to ask you to either calm down, or leave. Your anger and pheromones are not good for your brother. It will only make his situation worse." She said gently but firmly.
I liked this nurse. At least someone is standing up to my dumbass of a brother.
"Ok, ok. Just please tell me he isn't mated to that vampire." Gavin cringed at the word vampire. I knew he had beef with them, but this was over the line.
"As far as we can tell, he hasn't been physically marked with any sort of bite or other mark, but he is mentally and emotionally attached to whoever 'Donovan' is." The nurse said casually. I could almost feel Gavin's rage from here.
"How do you undo it?" Gavin was quick to ask that. I had a feeling he would be... "Unfortunately, because the link has already been there for more than three days, there is no possible way to break the bond between them. Our only option is to find out who Donovan is and bring him here." The nurse sure had a lot of explaining to do to that blockheaded brother of mine.
"I need Donovan..." I was almost fully awake now. "It hurts... Please bring Donovan to me." I begged. I wanted him so badly. I need to be in his arms. I want him by my side. My head is pounding, and it won't stop.
The nurse felt my forehead and brushed my bangs away from my eyes. She looked back at my brother with a concerned look. "He needs his mate, or else he may not survive. It's obvious that he has suffered a panic attack, and if he doesn't get his mate, he has a 75% chance of dying." The nurse didn't bother beating around the bush.
My brother don't look convinced, but he nodded in agreement with the nurse. "Ok honey, who is Donovan? Does he have a last name?" The nurse asked, pushing her dark glasses up the bridge of her nose. "C-camber." I stuttered. D-Donovan Camber!" I cried. "Shhh, it's alright. We're gonna get him here for you. Don't worry." The nurse walked out of the room, taking my brother with her.
I squirmed in the hospital bed, wanting- no...needing his touch. I need to feel his lips on mine. I need to- oh the nurse is back...
"We've located your mate, and we have called him down to the hospital. We're getting him down here as fast as possible." The nurse stated calmly and slowly.
I like that word. Mate...
I subconsciously smiled when she told me about Donny. I just want him beside me. I may have only known him for a short while, but now... I couldn't imagine my life without him.
...
"Your mate is here." The female nurse said. I could almost hear a twinge of happiness in her melancholy voice. I could sense Donovan.
"M-Mikey?"
"Donny?"
I smiled and turned towards the door. There stood that tall, dark-haired vampire that I'd grown to love.
He smiled and rushed toward me, gently scooping me into a hug. I hugged him back and didn't hesitate to kiss him hard on the lips.
I could feel cold tears on my cheeks... but they weren't mine. "Why are you crying?" I spoke in a low voice. "I thought you were gonna hate me. It's all my fault that you're here." He replied through blurry crimson eyes.
"Come up here." I said, patting the empty spot beside me on the bed. He reluctantly climbed up, in all of his tall glory, and didn't even fit on the bed. I giggled at him struggling to get comfortable.
"Here." I pulled his head onto my chest and wrapped my arms around his neck. The vampire slowly accepted his fate on my chest. At this point, I hadn't realized that the nurse already left.
"I love you so much, Mikey." "I love you too, Donny."
After explaining to him everything that happened once I left, he gave his own story.
"I could feel everything you were feeling, but not as intense. I could feel your emotions, and I could even hear some of your thoughts." I went red in the face again, suddenly wishing I'd thought about much cleaner things. Donny smiled evilly, bearing his lovely white fangs.
"I can't wait to ravish you~." He murmured in my ear. My face went even more red as I shuddered. "What's the matter, are you getting embarrassed~?" Donovan teased me. I slid under the covers of the hospital bed and hid my face.
"Cmon, you can't hide yourself from your destined mate." He pulled back the covers and enjoyed the sight of my red, and not so amused face. What he said bai it being my destined mate though... made my heart flutter wildly in my chest. As if a million butterflies were locked inside of my chest and they wanted out.
"Just shut up." I whined. I didn't need to say anything else. We fell asleep and stayed that way for the rest of the night.