I was fighting Elijah Maverick in the now destroyed underground Citadel of Kyree, my former best friend who turned out to be the infamous Demon Lord, who's my declared archenemy, the one who killed one-third of my people. I've discovered that he manipulated, betrayed, and lied to me the whole time. He disguised himself as my best friend all those years, stayed by my side, and in the end, all of this was his fault.
I almost fell into despair, but I choose to let the hate swallowed me and not the sadness. That was when I decided to end him once in for all before he killed all of my people, destroyed everything I've build, and the whole world subsequently.
But as soon as I impaled him with my magic spear of ash on his chest, he penetrated his sword into my heart, hugged me, and whispered a powerful reincarnation spell when we were both about to die. He spoke his last words in my ears- "Let's finish this in our next life, dear Kally!" and then the darkness swallowed me up and my eyes closed.
So, this is death?
This frightening sensation of falling into the vast darkness of complete emptiness.
After so many decades I'm finally dying? And I'm dying like this?
Is this truly happening?
What about Sapphire? She needs me.
What about my people? What will happen to them without me here?
They need me, I can't die!
Did Elijah really kill me? Did I really have the courage to kill him?
I don't wanna die! I can't die yet, I'm too young...
I barely lived for myself, I expend almost my whole life fighting for a place to call mine, fighting alone but for everyone, fighting with myself, fighting to save everyone, fighting to unify the kingdoms and all the races.
Why is this happening to me? I should have lived more, I should have enjoyed the little things, I should have smiled more, loved more-
I should have created happy memories to take the place of trauma.
But no- I couldn't do anything that would take me to my happiness. I lived for the others, never for myself. And the only person I trusted, loved, and share memories with turned out to be a liar, someone who betrayed me, who killed me.
I should have given Dominic a chance. He loved me with all his heart and I knew it, he tried and did everything to get a chance to be with me. But I never gave him a chance. I was afraid of having my heartbroken and in the end, I broke his heart.
Now he is dead and so am I.
He would have been a wonderful king, his heart was huge, he was kind and gorgeous, but I only had eyes for Elijah, the one who ended up killing me.
Oh fuck-
Why did I die?
I'm so scared. I don't want to be alone again.
I don't wanna reincarnate just to suffer this shit all over again. To be all alone. To be a no-one again.
I'm fucking scared.
I don't wanna die!
I'm such a hypocrite.
I spend my whole life, saving others' lives, and putting my own on the line, I was always brave, I didn't fear death. But what about now?
Why did he use me like that? Why did he have to break me all over again when he was the only person who knew everything I've been through-
Why can't I cry? Am I already dead?
How can I still be conscious? Why does this tightness in the heart hurt so much?
I was abandoned by my parents as a baby, I grew up completely alone but with a good and dreamy heart, being tremendously blessed by mana I managed to grow in life alone, eventually, I met Elijah who accepted me as I was. I unified the kingdoms, founded the continent and a safe place for the divine races, and unified the races. I met some true friends but all of them died in Elijah's hands and I gained everyone's trust.
Fuck, how couldn't I notice that he was the Demon Lord?
Was it all a farce? Absolutely everything? How dare he do this to me?
It's my fault. All of this is my fault. If I had been stronger...
If I had been smarter-
It's all my fault! If I had realized who he was earlier, my friends wouldn't have died, my people wouldn't have suffered.